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Portrait, 1935

René Magritte

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Eldertree - Sari Bremer , 2022.

Finnish , b. 1976 -

Etching , 75 x 50 cm.

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Pillars- Oleg Schupliak; 2018

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 Still life - Teija Lehto , 2023

Finnish, b. 1965 -

Woodcut, 83 x 53 cm.

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I just dont want anything anymore. I want the world to stop asking anything of me.

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RIP to the opportunities we missed because of shyness and low self esteem.

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are you an oversized sweater bisexual or an oversized flannel shirt bisexual

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sometimes i remember i exist and i’m just like oh fuck

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i break my own heart by expecting people to be as attached to me as i am to them

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Punpun is such an idiot just fine.

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Worry is heavy. I don’t know how to explain it, but I’ll try anyways. It’s like – it eats at your conscience. Like your heart is on the floor and you’re trying to reach to pick it up. I’m getting older. And so are my parents. And watching their health decline is just… heavy. I’m strong. But this is not something I think I’ll ever be prepared for. I’ve been trying to take everything moment by moment. The quiet morning. The half conscious drive to work. The hi’s, hello’s, good morning’s, how are you’s. The dark sky right before dawn breaks. The sun smiling at me in the middle of the day.  It’s kind of crazy, how quick life is, isn’t it? I remember elementary school like it was yesterday. I remember my mom’s smiles when she came to pick me up from school. I remember my first crush, my first fight, my first run in with the law, my first time I fell in love.. Everything, really. I remember running in the grass and my knees scraping and what sand tastes like. And in the blink of an eye, I’m here. It’s kind of funny, isn’t it? You reach an age in your life where you finally think you’ve got it all figured out. And then you learn something new. Experience something different. I was naïve.

Do you ever think about the people you meet, and how you met them? Like, there are 7 billion in the world and 195 countries and 10,000 cities and for some reason you’re standing here, talking to them.  Do you ever think about what life will be like in the year 3000? I’m not sure I want to see it. What brought you here, in this exact moment, with me? And why? Do you ever wonder if it’s just by coincidence? Or.. I don’t know.