iancubutevil

[iancubutevil]

i love normal people <3 thank you for having morals you absolute angel of a person <3

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i need to get hit by a train to relax CUZ WHAT ARE THESE THOUGHTS IM HAVING AND WHY AM I TRYING TO FUCKING RATION THEM WHAT THE FUCK.

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it hurts so bad to think someone hates me and have no comfort of reassurance that they dont hate me…………………….. me when anxiety makes me actually stressed instead of just scared to ask for water at a friend’s house

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do you ever ask yourself why them and not me? why cant i be the better one why cant i be the best friend for once? idc who’s best friend i just want someone to think im the best please im sorry i know im a bad person but i’d do anything

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do you ever ask yourself why them and not me? why cant i be the better one why cant i be the best friend for once? idc who’s best friend i just want someone to think im the best please im sorry i know im a bad person but i’d do anything

[iancubutevil]

do you ever ask yourself why them and not me? why cant i be the better one why cant i be the best friend for once? idc who’s best friend i just want someone to think im the best please im sorry i know im a bad person but i’d do anything

[iancubutevil]

do you ever ask yourself why them and not me? why cant i be the better one why cant i be the best friend for once? idc who’s best friend i just want someone to think im the best please im sorry i know im a bad person but i’d do anything

[iancubutevil]

do you ever ask yourself why them and not me? why cant i be the better one why cant i be the best friend for once? idc who’s best friend i just want someone to think im the best please im sorry i know im a bad person but i’d do anything

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urge to say i miss you to people i was JUST talking to, yep im that lonely 😻😝

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i even stopped being scared of dirt as much because i keep forgetting im not in fallout and i live in the real world where dirt isnt the norm

i also cant stay a second without entertainment

music isnt enough for me and i need constant distractions

i started watching tiktok so much by around 1pm i have already liked so many videos i cant anymore for the day

i also dont get up to pee or eat or drink water if someone doesnt force me

i am actually going insane and i have no clue what to do

i think i have actually lost my mind, i knew it was happening slowly but i have come to a point where i cant tell real and fictional people apart, i cant make the right decision even if im thinking it, and i cant write anymore

everything that comes out of my mouth is gibberish and i am obsessed with everyone and everything in my life

i have also realised i imagine things not as cutesy scenarios of how i’d like to kiss a man or whatever NOUP stuff that after i imagine it i act as if its real and it affects my day to day life

i keep imagining scenarios and then getting mad at people irl for act like my fake scenarios arent real

[iancubutevil]

i think i have actually lost my mind, i knew it was happening slowly but i have come to a point where i cant tell real and fictional people apart, i cant make the right decision even if im thinking it, and i cant write anymore

everything that comes out of my mouth is gibberish and i am obsessed with everyone and everything in my life

i have also realised i imagine things not as cutesy scenarios of how i’d like to kiss a man or whatever NOUP stuff that after i imagine it i act as if its real and it affects my day to day life

i keep imagining scenarios and then getting mad at people irl for act like my fake scenarios arent real

[iancubutevil]

i cant wait to die! THIS IS EXACTLY WHAT I WAS MISSING

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i be gay and then use dude and bro in conversation like ok. sure dude but youre not fooling anybody we know what you really feel

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CATASTROPHIC TYPO WOOPSIEEEEEEE

I’VE seen multiple people say that when someone is extremely depressed they may present to others as extremely happy or content with their life, weather that be voluntary or involuntary

and now i realise i do this too

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Finally, characters that are just like me!

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I’VE seen multiple people say that when someone is extremely depressed they may present to others as extremely happy or content with their life, weather that be voluntary or involuntary

and now i realise i do this too

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people dont usualy tell you theyre depressed and about to kill themselves when they are infact both of those, i am tho, because this is my side blog and i have nobody to talk to