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“I demolish my bridges behind me- then there is no choice but to move forward.”

— Fridtjof Nansen

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Someone knocks again. I did really not let him in. I'm not sure, and not really fan of easy talk and 'you're good in my soul kind of thing.

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Sa tagal ko ng hindi nakakaranas ng tunay na pagmamahal. Nakalimutan ko na yung proseso. Yung proseso para makuha ang tiwala at puso ng isang tao. Yung kailangan mo munang ipakilala kung sino ka talaga bago ka pumasok sa isang relasyon. Nasanay ako sa mga nakikita ko sa paligid ko na basta basta na lang papasok sa relasyon na wala man lang mga kundisyon.

Pati panliligaw. Hindi ko na alam gawin. Kasi nga, andito lagi sakin yung paniniwalang “Sasanayin ang sarili sa landi tapos mag dedecide na lang kayo ng kalandian mong kayo na lang”. Parang ganun. Minsan naiinis ako sa sarili ko na bakit ganun ang naging mindset ko.

Naisip ko na mas masarap nga pala yung nag eeffort para makita mo yung ngiti nung gusto mong makasama sa relasyon. Yun bang mapatunayan mo sa kanya na kaya mong gawin yun para lang sa kanya. Ipakitang totoo ka sa kanya at hindi ka lang puro salita. Sa paraan kasi na yun, makukuha mo tiwala niya at malalaman niyang nilalaan mo talaga ang oras mo sa kanya.

Akala ko ganun lang kadali pumasok sa relasyon. Akala ko, kapag gusto ka at gusto mo siya. Pwede maging kayo agad. Kailangan pa rin pala yung proseso. Yung proseso na may getting to know each other stage, tapos may ligaw stage, ipapakilala sa magulang stage at marami pang iba.

Ayan eh kung gusto mo ng seryosong relasyon. Yung kapag yung taong yun eh gusto mo makasama ng pang matagalan. Yun bang pang matagalan na sobrang tibay ng foundation niyo kasi kilala na kayo ng family ng bawat isa. Ayun na nga siguro ang pinaka mature at pinaka magandang gagawin ng isang tao kapag gusto ng seryosong relasyon.

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Just do your thing

Keep your boundaries

Respect them

It's okay if you received no appreciation from them.

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I’m in the moment of my life that when I get to learn and like amazing personalities I should know what books they’ve read.

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Made a single mistake then feel like you’re thr wrongiest person ever.

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There is nothing wrong with you it is them who can't handle you being true.

You can be wrong. You can be the one whose fault. You could be the bad person in the scene. You can be the one to blame. But who are they to judge? Yes, true they’re someone who could be the one who help you but that doesn’t mean you can blame yourself everyday for spilling the milk. You still need to live. You need to breath. You need to fight. Selfish they might see you, but ever thought who saw the things you do to please them? Bless the optimist who notice your worth and not take advantage of you, yet the stain you made counted by the rest.

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I can't talk to any of the people I know of what I’ve been going through. In this moment, I’m not sad that sure I know. I enjoy being alone but Its not fun taking blame for what I never done. I am not being blame, but it feels the same. For once in three years I spilled the baggage that I kept in my soul. It was a fact I told but I was misunderstood.