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begging 18+ accounts to interact. trying to get away from middle schoolers on here LOL

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drinking water to make myself full is all silly & fun until I’m peeing every 3 minutes 😑

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no cause death is looking so good rn

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one of the more valuable things I’ve learned in life as a survivor of a mentally unstable parent is that it is likely that no one has thought through it as much as you have. 

no, your friend probably has not noticed they cut you off four times in this conversation. 

no, your brother didn’t realize his music was that loud while you were studying. 

no, your bff or S.O. doesn’t remember that you’re on a tight deadline right now.

no, no one else is paying attention to the four power dynamics at play in your friend group right now.  

a habit of abused kids, especially kids with unstable parents, is the tendency to notice every little detail. We magnify small nuances into major things, largely because small nuances quickly became breaking points for parents. Managing moods, reading the room, perceiving danger in the order of words, the shift of body weight….it’s all a natural outgrowth of trying to manage unstable parents from a young age. 

Here’s the thing: most people don’t do that. I’m not saying everyone else is oblivious, I’m saying the over analysis of minor nuances is a habit of abuse. 

I have a rule: I do not respond to subtext. This includes guilt tripping, silent treatments, passive aggressive behavior, etc. I see it. I notice it. I even sometimes have to analyze it and take a deep breath and CHOOSE not to respond. Because whether it’s really there or just me over-reading things that actually don’t mean anything, the habit of lending credence to the part of me that sees danger in the wrong shift of body weight…that’s toxic for me. And dangerous to my relationships. 

The best thing I ever did for myself and my relationships was insist upon frank communication and a categorical denial of subtext. For some people this is a moral stance. For survivors of mentally unstable parents this is a requirement of recovery. 

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literally me the last 3 weeks

how to live your best life: #coquette #diet coke

1. eat as many calories as physically possible 🎀

2. when you feel disgusting, drink as much alcohol as physically possible 🎀

3. get the sleepies :3 hehehe 🎀

4. repeat 🎀

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coming back to 3dblr after “recovery”

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having been on edtwt for some months now i can say it's not as bad as i thought it would be, still twitter is a hellsite (derogatory) like no other so it's still often a headache

my acc is https://x.com/icy__vampire?t=u0pxwYnet-qlM5Bi_CYkBA&s=09 (@/icy__vampire) if anyone is interested, i'm more active there since unfortunately you can't have multiple main blogs on tumblr without the log off-log in -hassle

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pick one, this is who youre spending Christmas with

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atp i only log into this acc to make another "fast completed" post and then log back to my non-ed blog lol

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Do it for the limitless outfits. Do it for the thigh gaps. Do it for the comfort that you will feel in your body in any given situation. At school, at work, on the beach, in a dress. Do it for the satisfaction that you will feel each time you look in the mirror. Do it for the jealous looks. Do it for the feeling of superiority. Do it for yourself. Do it because you can.

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It’ll get easier. As soon as you start seeing the results. The flat stomach. The thigh gaps. The comfort when sitting down. No more need to hide in big clothes. The easiness will come from being satisfied when you look in the mirror. Everything will be easier. You won’t even have to think about doing it. As soon as you see the results, it gets so easy, like it’s happening on its own.

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the first 3 days are the worst, remember that

other things are "the time will pass anyway" -mindset and caffeine

No Nutrition November has been completed!

this is the longest i've ever fasted