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everyone has to stop making posts like "the world's loneliest ant has died in secret" its making me sad

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I’ll stay in Today by Chukwu Adaeze

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remember twilight and how edward and bella couldn’t do it bc edward was afraid he’d fuck her to death?

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Don’t flirt wit me I’ll make u nut in my throat

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May Sarton, Journal of a Solitude

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remember when you were 10 and you would hang out with your friends in order to Look At The Computer together like you went to their house and experienced the information superhighway together. and then leave

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Cathy Park Hong, from "Spring and All"

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one thing that is seldomly discussed when it comes to the post care after being in an abusive relationship is the way you treat your new, future partners. i find myself afraid to disappoint them and i wonder if that fear is driven by a strong desire to never be the cause of their stress or if you’re afraid that a slight disappointment could lead to your head embracing a wall or your mind being mishandled. so you do things you don’t want to do, hide the things you truly want to say, pretend you’re perfect when you’re flawed. you flinch when they touch you and fidget during your flashbacks. you wake up covered in sweat from a realistic nightmare. you want nothing more in this world besides to be loved but you don’t actually know how to love because you don’t know an accurate definition of love nor the brutal conditions of love. every word they say to you is overanalyzed and you find yourself holding on to the different ways they say “i love you,” attempting to pick out which way makes you actually believe it. a certain look or expression on their face could send you into panic. you become a people pleaser instead of someone in love with themselves enough to provide pleasure to your own. everyone around you questions your actions and wonders why you accept less than. in reality, you don’t believe you deserve anything. the bare minimum starts to appear as above and beyond. the truth is, you haven’t escaped the abuse, you’ve escaped the person that taught you what abuse. your mind is your current abusive partner.

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why can’t i tell if you love me or are disgusted by me. does my anxiety for life make you displeased? my favorite part of every morning is waking up next to you. i hope that you’ll gather me into your warm embrace and never let me go. the love i have for you is unexplainable. sometimes i scan your stance in awe from your feet up to your potential. but my love for you will never be enough. love is a two way street that combines at the same exit. i wonder if your side is under construction. there’s not a single part of me that isn’t in love with you. i hope you love me enough to call me truly yours someday. i hope you love me enough to pick out a ring that represents the love you have for me. i love you for all you have to offer and when you don’t have anything to offer.

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i want so dearly to be greeted at the door by the person i desire most, whenever i come home from a long day a part. we share a meal and a mutually picked film that we both desire. we go to bed and parts of our bodies are always connected, along with our hearts. we both wake up with a desire to not be spoken to but we look at each other with a smile.

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For every person who thinks you're "too quiet" there's one who thinks you're an amazing listener. For every person who thinks you're "too clingy" there's one who loves how much and how openly you care about others. For every person who thinks you're "too weird" there's one who admires how you dare to stand out from the crowd. For every person who thinks you're "too sensitive" there's one who respects you for being so in touch with your feelings. For every person who thinks you're "too confident" there's one who thinks your self respect is an inspiration. What's a negative trait in one person's eyes might be exactly what someone else is looking for. It's not black or white.

– via compassionatereminders

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Are you gay4pay?

I'm a fag4free what do u mean

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So that's that. 💖 [x]