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No surprise there

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Buy her the lingerie you want to see her in.

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Very poorly drawn Abra line.

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Poorly drawn Nidoran line

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so when straight people ask me why I say I’m “queer” or “gay” instead of sharing my actual identity as a panromantic demisexual non-binary sapphic queer I just tell them “ok look, when you’re talking to someone who isn’t local and they ask you where you’re from and you either say the name of the largest city nearby or ‘town name, suburb of large nearby city’ so they can get some geographical context of where you’re located right, bc they’re probably not going to know the name of the little town you actually live in.”

but if you’re talking to a local you can say the name of your actual town bc they have a greater chance of knowing where/what that is.

ok well when I’m talking to a straight person I start with queer bc chances are they aren’t as familiar with the context of all the little towns in that big queer city and need gps (gay positioning system) to find me.

if I’m talking to another queer person and I say I live in a suburb of gay city in a town called panromantic on the demisexual side of the tracks which is in the county of queer and I live off the intersection of non-binary and sapphic, they’d probably be able to find me with little to no problems, make sense?

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Been talking to Mr Unknowable about bdsm. Mind you these are small conversations with probably weeks~months of not talking.

He's ace and said he's not interested in sex. That's cool, I don't want to have sex with him if he doesn't want to have sex. But I've said that there are lots of asexual people who are into bdsm. He didn't respond reasons after that and we entered another stage of comfortable silence.

He recently texted me which was a nice surprise, I'm usually(99.9%) the one that initiates conversation and it hadn't even been a month since we last talked. And it was an even nicer surprise that it was to tell me about a dream he had about me. Control was a part of the message of the dream. He likes being in control. I floated the idea of him domming me in a non sexual way. We're saving that conversation for another day but I'm hopeful.

Currently not talking to Mr Starlight right now. I know he likes me too. He's told me. He told me he really likes how I sound but doesn't like that he likes it that much so I'm sure he's just thinking about things and wrapping his mind around his attraction to me. And I'm giving him his space.

But he's not asexual. If he wasn't on the otherside of the country I would fuck him. I want to be dommed by him so bad but in a different way from Mr Unknowable (though it would probably be the same if Mr Unknowable wasn't ace)

So I'm ace in a way where it's rare for me to feel that kind of attraction but when I do it's fucking intense. Since Mr Unknowable is ace I would like to explore withholding and chastity and never actually doing anything no matter how much I want to.

With Mr Starlight I want to explore desires being fulfilled. I want to be touched and fucked. I want him to tell me how to touch him and I want him to tell me all the things he wants to do to me. I was by to have video/voice calls where he tells me how/when to touch myself. I want to be his good little slut.

I want to be obedient to them both. But we need to have more conversations about it first.

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(while ur infodumping) damn .. yea thats crazy thats so interesting .. hey do u mind laying back for me? just want u to be comfortable yk. wow you listen so well. hm? oh its nothing, continue ! mhm .. oh wow i never knew that .. hey im just gonna .. pull these off for you .. i know how pants can be overstimulating sometimes! go ahead where you left off. mhm ... mhm ... you sound like you know a lot about this! god youre so pretty when you ramble .. please go on, dont mind me im just gonna rub right here, i can still see you're a little tense from today .. oh wow i wasnt expecting you to be so wet .. everything okay? you wanna continue what you were saying? alright yeah, go ahead love. i'd love to listen.

minors dni

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The thing about somno being a regular part of your relationship for so long is that you don’t reliably form memories about the experiences anymore.

Sure the first time it might have been memorable… but did he touch you last night or are you confusing it with another time? Maybe you were just dreaming? You can’t be sure anymore. You could have sworn it was just a dream but then woke up with that full sloppy feeling of a creampie tucked deep into your cunt while he sleeps soundly next to you. Other times you awake nearly humping a bundle of sheets (you’re sure that he had just been teasing you) but all is peaceful except for the aching in your cunt. Maybe he was teasing you a minute ago though; he likes to stroke the silky lips of your cunt absentmindedly while he winds down before bed. You’ll never know for sure. Sometimes you wake up with his hands on your nipples or teasing your clit or to a cock pumping in and out of you like a fleshlight and you just snuggle up and relax back into sleep listening to the sounds of your wet hole and his heady restrained grunts in your ear. He’ll stop when he’s finished; no need to worry. Just let it happen.

I ask: what’s the point in keeping track of what was real and a dream anyway? Your brain is already so full of silly fucked out dreams that there’s no sense in sorting through it all. The only thing that matters is being available and obedient. So just close your eyes and go back to sleep. Let him do what he needs to do.

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i keep thinking about a post i saw that was like “the feminist was so tired of seeing the bimbos get everything they wanted so she joined them” and it’s like. that is so far from the truth lmao you know who has everything they want? its the independent hard working feminist girls. you know who has a whole lot of shit they dont want? the girls who were groomed into valuing male validation and servitude. they’re fucking miserable. look at them.

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leopard print: very horny

rainbow leopard print: not horny

tiger print: horny

zebra print: not horny

white tiger print, which is indistinguishable from zebra print: MASSIVELY horny

giraffe print: not horny

cow print: very horny

rainbow trout print: mildly horny

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rb this post if you’re a nsfw blog who’s trans/nb friendly!!

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Denial scene that's less about depriving the sub of their own pleasure and more about denying them the chance to participate in their dom's pleasure. Tying up a boy so he can't do anything but watch while I play with myself. Watching him start to twist and squirm as I moan and jerk my hips. No, sweetheart, I'm not going to touch you. No, you can't touch me either. Not even your head on my thigh. I know you like to feel it when I come, but this time I'm just going to make you watch. I'm not even going to finish on your chest. I'm going to slowly work myself up to a climax, and you're going to watch my cum drip down my hand, and think about how badly you want it on you. In you. Maybe after, I'll think about using you. But right now... I just want to see how much it fucks with your head when you can't have me.

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i know that being 'too big to reach' is part of the fun for some people, but if you're concerned about mobility and getting yourself off, please know there are options! you can get a reach extender like this one that works with any suction-cup dildo (other suction-cup toys too, presumably) and lets you get a different angle on yourself or your partner. actually, that sex shop has a whole curated collection of toys, gear, & books chosen with bigger people in mind.

a while back i read a great post by a fat blogger compiling reviews of different sex toys they found fun and useful at their size, but alas, i've lost it. if anyone knows any other resources, please feel free to add on!

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I honestly love dressing up for myself

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me in the pussy if im being fully honest