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Unwanted. I dont know why I am constantly feeling this. Who needs me?I think the circle of of my life should be completed.. Always this feeling that my being is not required anymore. Where is this life taking me? What's the journey? And when will it end? So many questions but no answers.

Everyday of life is just the same as yesterday. Nothing positive in it,only fears, doubts, and than this feeling that everyone I once was close to have a life of their own and I am not in it. Not needed. Not important. Not necessary. Not wanted. It's not anyones fault it's me. I am finished living this life of no hope for a future. No hope of happiness. Useless. Not needed. I am so so tired of this feeling as if I am alone. I don't know when I became this dillusional. I am so ashamed of myself but I just am not able to sleep or think anymore. I have lost it completely. I dont even know why I am writing this, but the words seems to be pouring out of me. I don't blame anyone for what is happening. Just want peaceful sleep. I want to be subtracted from this life and the whole world.

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Unwanted. I dont know why I am constantly feeling this. Who needs me?I think the circle of of my life should be completed.. Always this feeling that my being is not required anymore. Where is this life taking me? What's the journey? And when will it end? So many questions but no answers.

Everyday of life is just the same as yesterday. Nothing positive in it,only fears, doubts, and than this feeling that everyone I once was close to have a life of their own and I am not in it. Not needed. Not important. Not necessary. Not wanted. It's not anyones fault it's me. I am finished living this life of no hope for a future. No hope of happiness. Useless. Not needed. I am so so tired of this feeling as if I am alone. I don't know when I became this dillusional. I am so ashamed of myself but I just am not able to sleep or think anymore. I have lost it completely. I dont even know why I am writing this, but the words seems to be pouring out of me. I don't blame anyone for what is happening. Just want peaceful sleep. I want to be subtracted from this life and the whole world.

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That morning I had so many dreams of a beautiful future. But as they always say that we always have different aspirations about life and God has other plans for us. But Alhamdulillah for the life.

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If only we can go back in past. There are so many things I would have done differently. But as they say it is all in the past.

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Life had been good to me until....