ih8losingaccts

[ih8losingaccts]

when you say I confuse you you mean tou cant follow your own logic and stuff you try to say makes no sense so much love so much patience it took a life time to learn it it took all my guts to take you back it destroyed all my boundaries to overlook the lies a guy trys to do anything to save a relationship but cant seem to pull it out im the best sexual partner she's ever had or could imagine she is a top notch squirter and never had an orgazim till I came along I could get her well over 20 back to back but I was molested by a sexy dominatrix that tought me how to please a woman sounds cool right reality it made me purposely sabotage every good relationship when .y relationships fall apart it literally splits family's and I dont care im loyal laid back cool like a breeze calm patience bring the D I pay attention and live to talk out dumb random shit I have a house truck income kids I raised that are functional adults but I can t find one that's my age to date why did the girls of my age group just give up I used to be able to skate up to a girl at the mall get the didgits and meet face to face in 5 minutes now they are all afraid u spose that's the trauma oris it because they generally dont know how to act because we were the latchkey generation and parents were never around i never even verbalize or acknowledged all the things she did dirty to me and I did nothing but look the other way and say its OK baby what u need how can I make u feel better after u cheated on me I dont even know what happened to me I never would have put up with this stuff but here I am lies grown and gone I only like ice cream 1 pair of shorts and 5 shirts I go weeks without cloths on my body sometimes I see art in my head but it dosnt make it from .y brain to my hands and I dont urethra phone id rather not have it why am I such a meh rn I feel like she should and she has no regrets still playing that old wxcuse where her uncl3 who has dementia said she dies by water and hyvee is close or part of the vision I worked there amd I have a boat so her knowledge goes im gonna kill her I would have already if I was going to I almostsaw that old me the one that had confidence what happens I wish I had some of it on fil. it would make a hell of a utube series but everyone would know what ive put up with I mean she told everyone in real time people I dont know lied to her job bout me having no regrets and she is at least 2 social levels below me like we live in a cast system if we did id have her stoned by the whole neighborhood in India she violated enf they would have a year ago and I want her back maybe im the one that belongs in ive held all this in for the last 3plus yrs am I a chump or am I a victim should I move on or try to put her together again ideally a woman who has integrity and loyalty knows how to move silent and keep things between us and gave good head would just show up like door dash they are out there ive seen them but last time I tried to talk to a woman shit youd have tought id said something not nice by the look I got oh well im gonna keep things up try to type a bit everyday I used to go by thatdickdude and wemon were up my ass trynna get a work out now because im a real man and just stay loyal no backups she had an entire second team oh well till tomorrow