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My art for the CERULEAN SERVANT Legato SFW zine cover! I'm so honored I was picked as one of the cover artists and thank you so much for having me! 🩵🙏 (page art soon)

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So I rewatched the Trigun 1998 episode with Wolfwood's death yesterday, and it got me thinking about how Vash and Wolfwood use each other's names.

Because Trigun 1998 is weird in that it's the only version where Wolfwood uses Vash's name regularly, instead of using a nickname. And he does it SO much. This could be a localisation change, or it could be because Maximum was in its infancy and they hadn't identified that character quirk yet, but still. I think it's so interesting.

But then, 1998 has that strange scene just before Wolfwood's death, where he says "I only really know you as the Stampede. You could at least tell me your real name". Which sets Vash up for the absolutely perfect line of "Between you and me, my name is irrelevant", which.... ahhhh it's so good.

But it's still WEIRD, right? Because Vash is, ostensibly, his real name. And Wolfwood knows that, he's been calling him Vash since the beginning, Vash told him his name about 15 episodes ago -

Except.

Wait.

No, he didn't.

Vash NEVER TOLD WOLFWOOD HIS NAME, because he was too busy doing the whole Blue Stradavari Andri Charlton Heymoss (no way am I typing that name out in full, I'm just putting what I can remember) bit! MILLY was the one who actually said his name - Vash never introduced himself properly at all.

So, shit. This weird moment could actually be read as a call back, a parallel between a joke and one of THE MOST TRAUMATIC MOMENTS ever put to animation. They're bookending Vash and Wolfwood meeting with Vash and Wolfwood parting, which is evil just by itself.

But then, you can also consider Vash's reaction. Because, both times, he refuses to give Wolfwood his name.

Now. I love the "irrelevant" line, I think it's so romantic, I've already gushed about it here. Because it's saying that these two people know each other so well, they don't even really need names anymore. But really, doesn't it highlight one of the more 'negative' aspects of Vash's character? He doesn't like committing to things. He lies to nearly everyone he meets, about the kind of person he is, his intelligence, his age, his history. This version of the show literally started with people being unable to pin him down. And then, even with Wolfwood - who Vash suspects may be preparing himself to die, remember - he still doesn't give him his name.

Maybe it's because he's scared. Maybe it's a way to try and keep Wolfwood from dying, just so he comes back to get his name. Either way, it's the last thing Wolfwood asks of him, and he doesn't do it.

Just... oh my god. The INACTION and REGRET piled into that choice. It really summarises their entire relationship. Because really, if Vash and Wolfwood had just talked to each other more, so much heartache could have been avoided. But even here, Vash can't let himself be vulnerable in that way. He avoids it, the risk of being seen as he actually is, the risk of bekng hurt. And then, when Wolfwood actually dies, he suddenly doesn't even have the option anymore.

God this show hurts me so much.

I kinda buried the lede here, but I also wrote a fic about this idea. If you're interested, here:

https://archiveofourown.org/works/66621268

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Dragon's Nest

For Meryl Week hosted by @3guncharacterweeks !!

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if roberto has zero fans it is because i am dead

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Little Arcadia prompt for @3guncharacterweeks 🥺🥺🥺

(Edit: It was 2AM when I posted I forgot how the tumblr blog was called sorry 😭😭)

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#what being team dad feels like

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I felt like drawing Vash being clingy

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boy failure 🌹

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i like how these look side by side

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biblically accurate Trigun

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Vash Bodypillow Preorders are OPEN!

Reblogs are appriciated!

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Live and Suffer

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girls, bravo! its mm redraw monday again!