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There is an irony in this considering uh

?????

and then people fronted on the 2nd of june. and the 3rd. and the 9th. and the 14th. yeah sure what the hell

i love being host! I love being in front for days, weeks, and never hearing anything! I love questioning if everything I went through was just a lie! I love wondering if there is anyone else there, and they’re just playing a sick joke on me!

This is sarcasm if you can’t tell.

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trying exercises to see if I can build a better(?) headspace and actually interact with it. every single time I end up falling asleep. Send help

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trying exercises to see if I can build a better(?) headspace and actually interact with it. every single time I end up falling asleep. Send help

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I say share it with people you trust the most, and if they react badly, then maybe they aren’t the people you knew them as? Of course there’s a difference between being misinformed and outright an asshole, so if you feel like they’re ever lost or confused be sure to give them a hand on how to understand you better

If you just wanna let it out in the open, then sure !! Just be aware that people are going to look at you weird whether or not you prove what you have. Unless they are a licensed professional I’m 90% sure they have no right to argue with you about what you do or don’t have. Just remember that you can’t please everyone!

these are just my thoughts personally

I'm more confident than ever that I have ODDD so I'm thinking of being public about it now, but I'm not 100% sure if I should. On one hand, it'd be nice to feel like I don't have to hide this part of me that is going to be here for God knows how long. But on the other hand... I feel like I'll be looked at weird...

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hey yall... how you doing... sorry for abandoning this.... my bad...

anywho!! did we js learn to mask real well or am i insane bc WHAT like its silent and i have a grasp on things (i think??) idk man... someone give me a sign if youre real and im not insane or faking it pls and ty

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paregui is about a covert system that doesnt know of their plurality yet, who upon suffering a severe injury (and perhaps falling into a coma), find themselves in a sort of series-of-trials purgatory, where they attempt to “win” their life back. However, this purgatory also grants their alters an extreme degree of distinction, leaving andy (either the host or an alter newly split off of the host) to figure out who these strangers who know so much about them are, as well as simply attempting to make it through the trials. The final trial will involve accepting their plurality. zero notes

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i love being host! I love being in front for days, weeks, and never hearing anything! I love questioning if everything I went through was just a lie! I love wondering if there is anyone else there, and they’re just playing a sick joke on me!

This is sarcasm if you can’t tell.

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HI I AM IN THE SAME BOAT AS YOU and we are both near the same age range :D I’ll be happy to help you out if needed!!! I’m unfortunately still going through my rings of denial, but if you ever need reassurance or a shoulder to cry on, I’m available!

I've been questioning if I have a OSDD-1B system, and this blog just kinda exists so I can discuss system stuff without outing myself on my main blog. I'm very unsure about it all, so I'd really rather not be pointed out if you know who I really am.

I'll go by Marcus on this blog. He/Him. Im 15. If an alter sends something here, they will use fake names as well.

I am really nervous about this stuff. Dissociation tends to result in me being put in a lot of fear and sometimes even going nonverbal. I'm not sure how/if I should bring this stuff up to a doctor, so I've kept it between me and friends for a couple years.

I'd appreciate support and advice if any of yall have any. I first realized I'm dissociative two years ago, but I still feel like I barely understand myself, even though I've had close system friends help me the whole time.

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here to admit that whenever I start thinking my osdd symptoms are signs of something else i end up kind of. ignoring every symptom possible. like just stop logging fronts, not putting thought into who could be fronting, just basically not thinking about what I could be doing whatsoever. which ends up leaving us blurry and kind of out of it (i think? i dont know if it works like that. it’s different for every system idk) which kinda sucks because then i can’t like. list any moments or symptoms because i just keep ignoring them or saying “haha nah it’s smth else” or “nah that’s normal everyone does that”

do we got any other questioners in the chat who do this. holding out hand for a fist bump

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hi hello! once again here to ask for advice because i am going into therapy soon

I am a little nervous about the prospect of being unable to accept if my self-diagnosis is something else. My symptoms tend to blur between discouraged/quiet BPD and OSDD, so I wouldn’t be surprised if it was BPD (or just something else entirely), but I seem to have a problem if it’s something I am already diagnosed with (like the anxiety I have diagnosed but with dissociative schmuck). I’ve spent months doing as much research as I could with sources that could be as accurate as could be, so I feel quite… frustrated? or upset that all of my time researching was for “nothing?”

I don’t really want to feel this way. I’m not sure if this is the right community to go to, but I guess I just want to know if there’s a way to just,, magically become more open minded. I am aware that I could be wrong, but am still somehow distressed if I told I might be

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hey can someone be completely honest with me.

does dissociating more when it comes to researching symptoms mean anything. when i try to do research i end up feeling very foggy and out of place for a good couple of minutes, which feels a little distressing honestly, and I can’t tell if this is something I should log or brush off because it’s like. Somatic/mimicking symptoms or whatever

whoever answers, thank you

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huuuagh. Hi system community im back with more doubt and dumb questions. Not required to answer

So we’ve already established the rule that if you are questioning being a system, you should not go to any online community for information due to a large amount of misinfo. Yet, there is also proof of researching something so much you can mimic the symptoms due to anxiety. How can you not go to people then? I only discovered that through a osddid post, and now it haunts me because anything I could’ve experienced was simply anxiety. Please don’t comment pity or validation—I don’t really want that. I just want to know how to my research more useful instead of it being used against me.

I hope what I’m saying makes sense? Also before anyone asks I AM A MINOR WHO DOES NOT HAVE ACCESS TO A DOCTOR RAAAAAAAHH

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Iii forgot how much researching fuels my denial. Dear god I just want to be wrong please let me be wrong I don’t want this disorder HEAD IN HANDS

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seeing so many responses to one of our posts made me realize we entirely forgot to specify that we’re under 18, so most adult criteria/diagnostics would probably not apply to us. Guys I’m so sorry