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“Still, I wanted to believe; indeed I longed to; and, in the end, how much of belief comes from longing?”

— Margaret Atwood, from “The Testaments,” released c. September 2019 (via violentwavesofemotion)

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La Petite Ceinture | saaggo

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“I thought it was about finding the right words. It isn’t. It’s about a person making you feel like a person. It’s about yourself connecting to what it feels like being yourself. And it’s also about laughing a bit and getting bored a bit and walking around the city a bit. And it’s about spending day time or night time in the way that you wish to. It’s not about always “doing stuff”, It’s about letting things flow in their own manner. I wish I could tell you how right this sounds in my mind. How right and yet so vague and intimidating. The thing is, I always had a passion for what matters. What matters is the hardest part and what’s even harder to perceive is the fact that “what matters” to me differs so much from what matters to people I already know or people I’ll never get to know. Perhaps it’s about finding what matters without exhausting yourself in vain search of it. Perhaps it’s about the journey and clichés count as well. Perhaps it’s also about the unnecessary details and living a bit and taking notice of the world a lot and allowing yourself to be swept away by your own sensations. Perhaps. Perhaps…it’s about one or two things more or it might just be about less. Self-sufficiency leaves no room for “perhaps” and that’s distressing. Also, it’s beautiful and it requires that you leave your own soul alone. To leave your soul alone without leaving it behind. Yes, it’s perhaps about the soul. And it should be enough. And if it isn’t, darling, I don’t know where you go from there. But if it is, then I swear it’s the sweetest tragedy and you’ve got to do this; you’ve got to go all the way with it.”

— All These Things You Wish You’d Say

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i had self esteem for like 3 minutes once

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by sweatysal

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art is gross and sos kissing but i also love both

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Sister // The Japanese House

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Somethingfartoogoodtofeel // The Japanese House

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i need to be alone. - girl in red

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I’m fucking garbage.

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I fucking hate everything about myself. I can’t do anything right and I should just end it. I’m a fucking burden. Who would ever give a shit about me.