ilyjerome

[ilyjerome]

❝you lost?❞

オタク˖ 𝑓em!r .. inexperienced nerd jungwon!—suggestive. smut. romantic?

tw: mdni (18+)— making out. drinking. smoking one cigarette. unprotected sex. p in v. loss of virginity.

note: nerdy inexperienced jungwon forced by his popular friends to go to their party when he meets you 💋

Jungwon wasn’t supposed to be here.

The bass from the party thumped through the walls of the dimly lit study, muffled but persistent. He glanced down at the half-filled red cup in his hand, the chemical-smelling concoction inside as unappealing as the atmosphere around him. The noise outside was loud enough to make his head throb, but he still preferred the relative quiet of this room over the chaos in the living room.

“Damn Jay and Jake,” he muttered, setting the cup down on the polished desk. His best friends—if he could even call them that at the moment—had dragged him to this party under the guise of “broadening his horizons.” Whatever that meant. Now they were somewhere out there, laughing with strangers while Jungwon had no ride home and no clue how he’d survive the night without losing his mind.

He tried to focus on something—anything—to distract himself. The study, filled with shelves of books and knick-knacks, would’ve been cozy if it weren’t for the faint stench of alcohol and weed that lingered in the air. He ran a hand through his disheveled hair and leaned back in the chair, wishing he’d stayed at the library. The door creaked open.

Jungwon froze, expecting one of his friends or another drunk stranger to stumble in. Instead, it was you.

You didn’t look like you belonged here either, but not for the same reasons as Jungwon. Your vibe was… different. The dim light glinted off the silver ball of your tongue piercing as you smirked, the smell of smoke clinging faintly to your leather jacket. Your dark eyes swept over the room before landing on him.

“You lost?” you asked, your voice low, almost teasing.

Jungwon blinked, caught off guard by your presence, let alone you talking to him. He hadn’t expected anyone to notice him tonight, let alone someone like you.

He cleared his throat awkwardly. “Uh… no. I’m not lost. Just… stuck. Got dragged here and can’t leave.”

You leaned against the doorframe, crossing your arms. “That sucks.” You looked at him for a moment, your gaze curious but not unkind. “Wanna bail?” Jungwon frowned. “What?”“There’s a park nearby,” you said, straightening up. “Cool willow tree. Good spot to chill. Better than this place, anyway.”

It took him a moment to respond, his heart thudding in his chest for reasons he couldn’t quite place. He hesitated, the unfamiliarity of the situation pressing down on him. But then, he nodded. “Okay,” he said softly. Your lips curved into a small smile, and you gestured for him to follow.

The walk to the park was quiet at first, save for the crunch of your shoes on the gravel path and the occasional distant sound of traffic. Jungwon stuffed his hands into the pockets of his hoodie, unsure of what to say, while you lit a cigarette, the tip glowing orange in the dark.

“So,” you began, breaking the silence as you neared the park’s entrance, “you’re Jungwon, right?” He glanced at you, surprised. “You know my name?”

“Yeah,” you said casually, exhaling smoke into the cool night air. “You’re in my English class. Always sitting in the front with your hand raised. Like a total nerd.” His cheeks burned. “I—uh—yeah, I guess that’s me.” You smirked. “Don’t get me wrong. It’s kinda cute.” Jungwon blinked, caught off guard. Were you… flirting with him? No, that couldn’t be it. You were probably just teasing.

“What about you?” he asked, desperate to shift the focus. “You don’t seem like the kind of person who’d remember someone like me.”“Someone like you?” You echoed, raising an eyebrow. “I mean, you know… someone boring.” You laughed softly, a sound that surprised him. “You’re not boring. And for the record, I remember everyone. People just assume I don’t because I don’t show up half the time.”

“Why don’t you?” he asked before he could stop himself. You shrugged. “Not really my scene. School, I mean. People talk too much, make too many assumptions. Gets exhausting.” They fell into a comfortable silence as they entered the park. The willow tree stood in the distance, its branches swaying gently in the breeze. You led the way, dropping the cigarette on the ground and stubbing it out with your boot. When they reached the tree, you plopped down on the grass, leaning back against the trunk. Jungwon hesitated before sitting beside you, keeping a bit of space between them.

“You’re kind of awkward, huh?” you teased, looking over at him. “Is it that obvious?” he muttered, earning another laugh from you. They sat there for a while, talking about everything and nothing. You shared stories about sneaking out of your house, your love for old horror movies, and your secret talent for drawing. Jungwon, in turn, told you about his obsession with reading, his plans for college, and his struggles with fitting in. Eventually, the conversation turned deeper.

“I’ve never, you know… done anything with a girl,” Jungwon admitted, his voice barely above a whisper. You glanced at him, your expression softening. “That’s not a bad thing.” “I feel like it is,” he said. “Like everyone else my age has figured it out except me. Jay and Jake make fun of me all the time for it.”“They’re just being dummies,” You said firmly. “And for what it’s worth, I’m not as experienced as people think I am.”

Jungwon looked at you, surprised. “Really?” “Yeah,” you said, picking at the grass. “People love to talk, but most of it’s not true. I’ve only been with one guy. And even that was… whatever.” You sighed. “It sucks being the ‘easy girl.’ Like, no one even knows me, but they all think they do.” “I get that,” Jungwon said quietly. “I mean, not the same thing, but… I hate being the nerd everyone picks on. Like those guys who play football and act like they’re better than everyone else, even though they’re probably gonna peak in high school. Half of them probably have herpes by now.”

You laughed again, this time louder, your head tilting back against the tree. “You’re funny, Jungwon. Who knew?” He smiled, feeling a warmth spread through his chest. For the first time in a long time, he didn’t feel out of place.

Jungwon leaned his head back against the trunk of the willow tree, staring up at the swaying branches. The moonlight filtered through the leaves, casting soft, dappled shadows on the ground. He felt lighter somehow, as if all the weight of the party and the world outside had melted away.

“You know,” You said after a pause, your voice softer now, “you’re kinda refreshing.” Jungwon turned his head to look at you. “Refreshing?” “Yeah,” you said, twirling a blade of grass between your fingers. “You’re not trying to impress anyone. You’re just… you. It’s nice.” He swallowed hard, the sincerity in your tone making his chest ache in a way he didn’t quite understand. “Thanks,” he murmured. “You’re… not what I expected either.” You raised an eyebrow. “Oh? What’d you expect?” “I don’t know,” he admitted. “I guess… I thought you’d be intimidating. You have this reputation, you know?”You rolled your eyes, though your smile didn’t fade. “Yeah, I know. But people’s reputations are usually crap, aren’t they?”

“Yeah,” Jungwon agreed, his voice barely above a whisper. He looked at you then, really looked at you—the way the moonlight made your dark hair shimmer, the way your lips curved, soft but teasing. You turned to meet his gaze, and for a moment, the world seemed to hold its breath. “Can I kiss you?” he blurted out before he could think better of it. You blinked, startled, but then your lips curved into a slow, genuine smile. “You’re full of surprises, aren’t you?”

“I—uh—sorry, I didn’t mean to—” “Hey,” you interrupted, leaning in just slightly. “Relax. I didn’t say no.” Your face was close to his now, your dark eyes searching his. He could feel your breath, warm against his skin, and the faint scent of smoke mixed with something sweet he couldn’t place. He closed the distance hesitantly, his lips brushing yours in the lightest, gentlest way. You tilted your head, deepening the kiss, your hand coming up to cup his cheek. Jungwon’s heart raced, his hands fumbling awkwardly before settling on your waist. It was clumsy and uncertain, but you didn’t seem to mind. You kissed him slowly, guiding him, your lips soft and sure against his. When you finally pulled apart, Jungwon was breathless, his face flushed.

“Was that… okay?” he asked nervously. You chuckled, your thumb brushing against his cheek. “Yeah, Jungwon. That was okay.” He smiled shyly, a laugh escaping him as he ran a hand through his hair. “Wow. Okay.” You lay back on the grass, pulling him down with you. You propped yourself up on one elbow, your other hand tracing absent patterns on his arm. “So, for someone who’s never kissed a girl, you’re not half bad.” Jungwon grinned. “Thanks, I guess.” You tilted your head, your expression softening. “You wanna keep going? Only if you’re comfortable, though.”

His heart thudded against his ribs. He hesitated, the nervousness swirling in his chest mixing with curiosity and something else—something he hadn’t felt before. He nodded. “Yeah. I—I think I do.” You smiled, leaning in again, your lips meeting his as the night around them seemed to fade away.

Jungwon’s hands trembled as you guided them to your waist, your lips pressing against his with an urgency that sent sparks racing through his body. He could feel your smile against his mouth as your fingers tangled in his hair, tugging gently.

You pulled back for a moment, your breath hitching as you took in his flushed face, his wide eyes, and the way he nervously licked his lips. Your gaze dropped briefly to his chest, and bit your lip. “Thank the universe I’m wearing a dress,” you muttered under your breath, a flicker of mischief in your tone. “What?” Jungwon asked, half-dazed.

“Nothing,” you said with a smirk, your hands sliding under the hem of his hoodie to trace the hard lines of his torso. Your fingers brushed over his light abs, and you let out a quiet laugh. “You’ve been hiding all this under those sweaters? Damn, Jungwon.”

He flushed a deeper shade of red, his breath catching as you squeezed his sides, your touch exploring. You shifted slightly, your thigh brushing against him, and he swallowed hard.“You’re so much hotter than I thought,” you murmured, leaning in to kiss him again. Your hands moved lower, cupping his tiny waist and firm ass. He gasped softly, his eyes widening as you smirked against his lips. “Relax,” you whispered, your voice teasing but warm.

You leaned back against the grass, pulling him down with you. Your fingers guided his head to your neck, and he hesitated for a moment before pressing his lips to your skin. You sighed, your hand curling into his hair as you murmured, “Suck a little. Right there.” He obeyed, his lips closing over the delicate skin of your neck, sucking just hard enough to leave a mark. You let out a soft moan, the sound sending a jolt of heat through him. Emboldened, he let his kisses trail lower, his hands fumbling slightly as he unbuttoned the top part of your dress.

The fabric fell away, revealing the curve of your black lace bra. Jungwon froze for a moment, his breath catching as he took you in. You reached for his hand, guiding it to your breast. He cupped it gently, his thumb brushing over the lace, and you arched into his touch. “You’re a quick learner,” you teased, your voice breathless. His lips followed the path of your hand, kissing along your collarbone and down to your chest. His mouth hovered over your bra, his eyes flicking up to meet yours for permission. You nodded, your fingers threading through his hair again. His kisses grew bolder, his lips and tongue exploring the soft curve of your breast. Your breaths turned into quiet moans, your body shifting beneath him. One of his hands, almost on instinct, began to trail down your side, brushing over the smooth fabric of your dress until it reached your thigh. His fingers grazed the edge of your panties, and he froze again, his heart pounding. You let out a soft laugh, your hand covering his.

“It’s okay,” you whispered, guiding him. When his hand finally pressed against the damp fabric of your panties, his breath hitched. He’d never felt anything like this before—warm, soft, and inviting. He rubbed his fingers against you experimentally, and you let out a low moan, your hips pressing into his touch. “No need to tease,” you murmured, your lips brushing against his ear. “I’m already ready for your cock.”

The words sent a shiver down his spine, his hands trembling as you reached for his belt. You both struggled together, movements frantic and excited, until his pants fell down his hips, pooling at his knees. You spread your legs slightly, your dress bunching around your waist, you reached between your thighs to guide him to your entrance. Jungwon hesitated, his heart racing as he felt the warmth of you against him. “It’s okay,” you whispered again, your voice soft and reassuring. “Just go slow.”

He nodded, swallowing hard as he pressed forward. The sensation was overwhelming—hot, tight, and impossibly good. He groaned, his head falling to your shoulder as you moaned softly beneath him. The feeling of being so close, so connected, left you both breathless as you moved together under the swaying branches of the willow tree.

Jungwon’s movements started hesitant, slow and careful, as though he was afraid of doing something wrong. Your soft encouragements—your hands in his hair, your lips brushing his temple, you whispered “It’s okay”—helped him ease into the rhythm. But then something shifted.

The way you moaned his name, breathy and desperate, sent a thrill through him, lighting something inside that he didn’t even know was there. His hesitance melted into something bolder, hungrier, and suddenly it was like he knew.

His hips snapped forward with more purpose, drawing a sharp gasp from you. Your nails dug into his back as he found a steady rhythm, each thrust making you arch against him.“Jungwon,” you gasped, your voice trembling, “oh my God, Jungwon.”

He couldn’t help the groan that escaped him. The way you said his name, like a song, like it was the only word you knew, made him feel unstoppable. His lips found your neck again, leaving open-mouthed kisses, his breath hot against your skin.“You feel so good,” he murmured, his voice low and rough, surprising even himself. “So tight… so wet. God, Y/n, you’re perfect.” Your breath hitched at his words, your hands tugging him closer. “Where… where did you learn to talk like that?” you managed to say, your voice broken by a moan.

He didn’t answer right away, too lost in the way your body moved with his. Instead, his lips curved into a grin against your neck. “Guess I’m a fast learner,” he said, his voice tinged with a newfound confidence. You could barely think, your body overwhelmed by the heat of him, the way he filled you completely. You wasn’t expecting this—wasn’t expecting him to take control like this, to know exactly where to touch, what to say, how to make you lose yourself. But you weren’t complaining. His pace quickened, and you could feel the tension building inside you, your breath coming in short, desperate gasps. “Jungwon, I—”

“I know,” he cut you off, his voice a growl. “Cum for me, Y/n. I want to feel it. I want to hear you.” The way he said it, like he was giving you permission to let go, pushed you over the edge. Your body tensed, and you cried out his name, your voice echoing into the night. Your legs tightened around his waist, your nails dragging down his back as waves of pleasure crashed over you.

The sight of you—head thrown back, lips parted, eyes glazed with ecstasy—was enough to undo him. He buried his face in your neck, his movements growing erratic as he chased his own release. “Y/n,” he groaned, your name falling from his lips like a plea. “God, you’re… you’re everything.” With one last thrust, he stilled, his body trembling as he came, the sensation overwhelming. For a moment, neither of them moved, the only sounds their ragged breathing and the faint rustle of the willow tree above them.

Jungwon collapsed beside you on the grass, his chest heaving as he tried to catch his breath. The night was quiet again, the only sounds the rustling of the willow tree and their still-uneven breathing. You turned your head to look at him, your hair fanned out around you. You seemed almost dazed, your lips parted slightly, your cheeks flushed. A soft laugh escaped you as you reached over to brush a stray lock of hair from his forehead. “No one has ever came inside me before,” you mumbled, your voice barely audible, as if you were speaking more to yourself than him. Then, after a beat, you added, “We’ve got to see each other more.” Jungwon blinked at you, his face reddening again. A shy chuckle bubbled up from his chest, and he shook his head, running a hand through his hair. “Uh, yeah. I guess we do.”

You both stayed like that for a moment, the intimacy of the words hanging between you. But then you sat up, smoothing your dress back down and glancing around as if realizing they were still outside. “Here,” you said, leaning over to help him button his shirt back up, your fingers lingering briefly on his chest. “Can’t have you walking home looking like you just got lucky under a tree.” Jungwon laughed, a real, genuine laugh this time, as he fumbled with his belt, trying to make himself presentable. “Yeah, that might give people the wrong idea.”

You smirked, reaching out to adjust the collar of his shirt. “Or the right idea,” you teased, your voice light but your touch gentle. You stood together, brushing off stray bits of grass and fixing their clothes. The night felt different now—charged, but in a quieter, more intimate way. “So,” Jungwon started, shoving his hands into his pockets. He felt like he should say something meaningful, something to sum up what just happened, but the words didn’t come. You tilted your head at him, your dark eyes sparkling. “What?”

“I don’t know,” he said, smiling sheepishly. “I just… this was… good? I mean, really good. I don’t know what the vibe is now, but…” You chuckled, reaching out to ruffle his hair. “Relax, Jungwon. I like your vibe. You like mine. We don’t have to figure it all out tonight.” He nodded, your words easing some of his uncertainty. “Yeah. I guess you’re right.” As you both walked back through the park, side by side but not quite touching, Jungwon couldn’t help but replay the night in his head. He’d lost his virginity—and it had been… amazing? Better than he ever imagined. And with you of all people.

You glanced over at him, catching his thoughtful expression. “Hey,” you said, bumping his shoulder lightly. “Don’t overthink it, okay? We’re good. This was good. He smiled at you, a warmth spreading through his chest. “Yeah. It was.” And as you guys left the park together, the willow tree swaying in the breeze behind you, neither of you knew exactly where this would go. But for now, you both were comfortable, and that was enough.

Jungwon walked you home, your steps slow and easy. You guys didn’t talk much on the way, but it wasn’t an awkward silence. It was comfortable, like neither of them needed to fill the space with words. When you reached your place, you turned to him, your lips quirking up in a soft smile. “Thanks for tonight,” you said, your voice quieter than usual. “Yeah,” he replied, scratching the back of his neck. “Thanks for… everything.”

You chuckled, leaning in to press a quick kiss to his cheek. “Get home safe, Jungwon.” With that, you disappeared through the door, leaving him standing there with a stupid grin on his face. He stuffed his hands in his pockets and started walking back to the party, which was winding down as people stumbled out in various states of drunkenness.

Jay and Jake were waiting for him by Jake’s car, looking surprisingly sober. Jay raised an eyebrow when he saw Jungwon approaching. “There he is!” Jake called out, throwing his arms in the air. “We thought you got kidnapped or something.” “Yeah, man,” Jay added, crossing his arms. “You disappeared for hours. What the hell were you doing?”

Jungwon froze for a split second, his mind racing for an excuse. “Uh… I was just—” Jake squinted at him, stepping closer. “Wait a second…” He sniffed dramatically, then his eyes widened. “Holy crap, is that perfume?!” Jay’s gaze sharpened, his smirk growing wicked. “And is that—” He pointed at Jungwon’s neck. “Is that a hickey?”

Jungwon’s hand shot up to cover the mark, his face burning. “What? No, it’s not—” “Oh my God,” Jake said, throwing his head back in laughter. “This nerd actually got lucky!” Jay clapped a hand on Jungwon’s shoulder, grinning like a proud dad. “I don’t know whether to be impressed or concerned. Who was it? Did she kidnap you or something?” Jungwon rolled his eyes, swatting Jay’s hand away. “No one kidnapped me. I just… met someone, okay?”

“Met someone,” Jake repeated, waggling his eyebrows. “Dude, you came back a whole new man. You’ve got this glow. It’s freaky.” “Shut up,” Jungwon muttered, though he couldn’t help the small smile tugging at his lips. Jay leaned against the car, still smirking. “All I’m saying is, you went into that party looking like you’d rather die, and now you’re walking around like you just discovered the meaning of life.”

Jake grinned, unlocking the car. “Whatever happened, we’re gonna need all the details later. Like, all of them.” “Absolutely not,” Jungwon said firmly, sliding into the backseat. As they drove home, Jay and Jake continued to tease him, their laughter filling the car. Jungwon leaned back in his seat, his mind drifting back to you and the night you shared. He didn’t have all the answers yet, but one thing was clear: something had changed, and for once, he didn’t mind it at all.

leah’s note: girl this might be my fav work 💋

[ilyjerome]

uhhhh… hi guys… i got enha manchester tickets.. haha..

[ilyjerome]

Coudl you doooo bf!jungwon catching some guy staring at you and tries to scare them off? if requests aren’t open I’m so sorry!

wahaha ur wish is my command nonnie (warning neck kisses? marking)

now who did this guy think he was?

jungwon was in no way blind — unlike you, who seemed much too preoccupied picking a cereal brand to notice the disgraceful, unwanted, horrendously noticeable leer that this young man was offering you from down the aisle.

“—won?”

“huh?” craning back towards you, jungwon cringes in on himself at the concerned expression adorning your features.

“you okay? i just wanted to know which one you’d prefer.” supporting your words, you lift up a box of ‘nesquik’ in one hand, and ‘frosted flakes’ in the other.

in an attempt to not be obvious about his displeasure, he quickly nods to the latter. “we haven’t got frosted flakes in a while.”

the minute you turn around and begin scanning through the grocery list again, jungwon snaps his head back to the man, only to realize he still had his eyes on you. seriously, was he blind too? your very big, strong, kind-of-tall boyfriend was right there!

shoving his fisted-up knuckles deeper into the comfort of his orange hoodie, your cat boyfriend frowns. he wouldn’t just sit around and let that guy drool over you if there was something he could do about it.

even when jungwon wraps his arms around your waist, you don’t flinch at the abruptness of it, which only encourages him to move closer and rest his chin against your shoulder. his warmth is easily welcomed, including the light kisses that he starts gently peppering down your neck (even if such pda — that he usually never has confidence for — bewilders you a bit).

little do you know he most definitely isn’t reading the list over your shoulder — rather, jungwon’s busy glaring at this brown-haired man with the nastiest scowl he can muster. his face practically screams at the man to back off, and the tight grip his fingers find on your waist accentuates his claim further. you don’t fail to notice how his lips feel feathery and slightly wet against your skin, which only worsens as the male begins sucking to leave a mark with no prior notice.

at the ticklish feeling, you quickly shake him off. “yah, what’re you doing? we’re in the grocery store,” you remind in confusion, a slight blush dusting your cheeks. but it seems you’re too late; jungwon is now smiling proudly, and when you spin around to follow his gaze and discover what the commotions about, you’re left with an empty aisle.

“nobody’s here,” you murmur, rubbing your neck furiously. “geez, won. give me your hoodie, you dumbass.”

he obliges, dimples poking through his cheek even while pulling the soft material over his head. “now you wanna cover up my love, jagi?”

“yup. but maybe if you let me give you a matching one later i’ll call it even.”

his eyes can’t help but widen at that. “yoi..” jungwon giggles, pale fingers rising to shyly massage the back of his neck. he may have scared him off.. but perhaps he’d have to thank that guy later.

i missed writing for wonie it’s been so long <\3 also, reqs are closing again soon cuz exams r getting closer :( i’ll be working on the ones in my inbox for the meantime!!

[ilyjerome]

𝘞𝘩𝘦𝘯 𝘠𝘰𝘶𝘳 𝘓𝘪𝘱𝘴 𝘛𝘰𝘶𝘤𝘩 𝘔𝘪𝘯𝘦

Want to know why Soobin got stood up? Read the Beomgyu vers. here

Summary: You find Soobin alone at a cafe after he's been stood up. You can't help but comfort him, leaving you both crushing on each other after. Days later you ask him to study with you, but how much studying did you two actually end up doing?

Reposts are always appreciated/encouraged!! Tumblr works on reblogs not likes, Thank you for your support :)

Tags: friends? to lovers, blond!soobin, nonidol!soobin, university au, soobin is a very smart man, kinda more like aquaintances, the reader is kinda obsessed w soobin, soobin is also kinda obssesed with the reader, a little fluffy? yeonjun cameo (hint hint)

Warning: SMUTTY AF!! PLZ 18+ ONLY! MDNI!!! soft dom/dom!soobin, sub!reader, afab!reader, cum eating, mutual masterbastion (?), dacryphilia, public sex, bigdick!soobin, they have sex in the library..., pet names, cream pie, unprotected piv sex, they also have sex on top of a desk lmao, multiple positons, oral (m. receiving), throat fucking, breast play (lmk if i missed any!)

Wordcount: 4215

Note: you all voted for Soobin so i'm here to deliver! I hope you all like this one as much as the Beomgyu one! comment or send me an ask if you want to be apart of the taglist!! Yeonjun will be next if this one does well :)

happy reading~

Soobin sits at a table with two cups of coffee, except there is no one there but him, and the worker behind the counter. Unfortunately, his date had stood him up for Choi Beomgyu. He feels a little embarrassed and sad, he thought this date was going to go well. This was when you walked in, the bell on the door signalling your arrival. You look around and see that no one else is in here, it was too late to have a cup of coffee but you didn’t care. You’ve been craving that iced matcha latte all day. 

After grabbing what you needed, you’re about to leave until you see Soobin sitting alone. You recognized him from your biology class and you two had mutual friends but didn’t talk much. The window he was leaning against was fogging up from his breath, he looked upset and deep in thought. Your eyes immediately turned to the two cups left on the table, but there was no one else there. Putting two and two together you can’t help but feel guilt stir at the bottom of your stomach. He looks like he needs a bit of cheering up, you thought. 

“Hey, Soobin!” You call out, waving your hand. Walking towards him with a joyful bounce, you reach his table and take a seat across from him. Soobin moves so that his head isn’t leaning across the window anymore. He gives you a half-hearted smile looking down into his lap. 

“Hey y/n, what are you doing here?” He asks you, but he doesn’t sound so interested. Understandably, his mind is wandering to his date who went home with another man. The music of the cafe is gleefully ringing through the speakers, a stark comparison to Soobin’s gloomy attitude. 

“Oh you know, just wanted to get in my daily matcha fix,” you answer with a bright smile, trying to help offset his negative mood. Giving you that same sad smile, your heart aches. Soobin looks like a kicked bunny and you just want to see his cute smile again. His blond hair reflects the fluorescent light and it mimics a halo over the top of his head. You find him so endearing that you want to curse out whoever decided to stand him up like this. There was only one way to go about it, you’ll just have to tell him you know why he's so upset.

“I know you got stood up, it’s a little obvious Soob, but whoever they are, they’re stupid. I would kill to go on a date with a guy as kind as you,” you reassure him. 

Looking up at you, his eyebrows are raised, he looks like you just told him he won a million dollars. He was so handsome, especially with the way his heart-shaped lips curled into the most adorable smile.  

“Really?” he asks, sounding hopeful.

“Of course Soobin, you’re a great guy and not to mention tall and attractive. Don’t let this one date let you get down,” giving him another soft smile, you stand up from your seat and leave the cafe. 

Walking back to your place your mind can’t help but drift back to Soobin. This was probably the first time the two of you spent a good chunk of time alone. You’ve never taken an honest good look at him until now, but you found him to be so attractive. The way his dimples would appear when he would smile, and oh god, his lips. His lips looked so soft and they were the perfect shade of pink too. You’re smiling like a madman walking back to your apartment but you can’t help it. Soobin seemed like such a nice guy, and from what you’ve heard around campus he wasn’t terrible in bed either.

*·῾ ᵎ⌇So kiss me, kiss me, kiss me and tell me that I'll see you again 

It’s been a few days since you last saw Soobin, but he still plagues your mind. A once acquaintance has become a stupid little school girl crush.

 Currently you’re studying in the library for another biology test. With that you suddenly remember who is also in your biology class. A small smirk dances along your lips as you pull out your phone. 

me: hey what's soobin’s number again? 

yj <3: y? dont tell me you’re tryna fuck him too y/n.. 

You scoff at Yeonjun’s comment. Yeonjun being the one to say it is even more offensive, especially knowing his history. Being comfortable with having an active sex life did not mean you wanted to fuck everyone you found attractive. You’re a hot and young university student, sleeping around was not a bad thing. Even though you can’t seem to stop thinking about Soobin in that way, that doesn’t mean you’re lying about needing help with biology. Rolling your eyes, you answer Yeonjun’s question. 

me: no.. just need help studying lol 

yj <3: fine. here. 

*yj <3 shared a contact with you*

Once you had Soobins number you couldn’t help but smile in triumph. Having an excuse to spend time with him seemed to be the best way to get to know him. And maybe lead to something more…

me: hey soobin it’s y/n! i was wondering if u wanted to study in the library with me for the bio test this fri? 

soob: hi! sure i’d love to actually, see u in ten. 

Looking down at your screen; your smile reached your eyes. You turn off your phone and place it screen side down, anticipating his arrival.  After all those days of thinking about Soobin, you’re finally able to spend some alone time with him. 

*·῾ ᵎ⌇so sweet when your lips touch mine

Students have left for their next class and it seems to only be you in your secluded section right now, maybe you’ll even be able to have a conversation in between studying. This would be the perfect time to get to know him better. While anxiously waiting for him you start to organize all your things mindlessly. Your highlighters all in a straight line and your laptop in front of you already on the first page of the lecture slide. This is probably the first time you catch yourself getting nervous about a man’s presence. You weren’t sure what type of student Soobin was but you knew he was smarter than average, so you wanted to look equally as studious.

From the corner of your eye, you see a fluffy blond head of hair heading your way. He was dressed exactly like you, a hoodie and baggy jeans complimenting his frame, making him look so good despite the casual attire. Sitting up straighter you pretend to write down notes. While doing so you hear the chair beside you scrape its legs along the floor. You turn your head beaming up at the blond boy beside you. He gives you that same dimpled smile that you’ve come to love, and your legs can’t help but feel like jelly. 

“Hey Soobin, it's been awhile,” your body is now turning to face him, a shy smile finds its way across your lips. He’s already looking at you and you feel your knees weaken even more. Taking out his own laptop and notebook, he responds. 

“Yeah it has, I'm sorry I never reached out to you after the cafe. I’ve been wanting to say thank you for that day though. You really helped me lift my spirits after a shitty situation.” 

Soobin places a hand on your shoulder, and you can’t help but notice how large his hands are. Your mind starts to drift; now you can’t help but think about what they would look like on your body. The way they could easily wrap around your neck, or how big of a handprint it would leave on your ass. Mentally you’re shaking yourself trying not to let your thoughts get ahead of you. A part of you would be lying if you said you weren’t secretly turned on by him right now. He’s just larger than you in so many ways, feeding into your size kink even more. 

“Anytime Soob, I have a feeling you would have done the same thing for me anyways,” shrugging it off like it's no big deal.

 It was hard to focus on the conversation without wanting to glance at his hands every other second. As he turns back to his work, he lets you know that if you have a hard time with the material you could just ask him about it. Reciprocating his smile you turn back to your work as well. 

After an hour or two of studying you end up getting stuck on a practice question. You peer over to Soobin who’s scribbling down some notes from the lecture recording diligently. If you knew this is what he looked like while studying you wouldn’t have told Yeonjun that you’re not trying to sleep with him. The way he scrunches his eyebrows in concentration while biting his bottom lip was driving you insane. Subconsciously you’re rubbing your legs together, you just couldn’t help but think about what his lips feel like on yours. 

“Do you think you could help me with this question? I’ve been trying to do it for the past thirty minutes now,” you ask him and his eyes leave his notes. 

“Yeah of course I can,” Soobin leans closer to you to take a look at your paper. He's so close you can feel his breath on your cheek. Trying to inhale steadily you end up getting a whiff of his cologne. If you weren’t wet already, you’re basically a river down there now. The smell of his cologne was like soft laundry and a hint of musk and vanilla, it was so refreshing. If you could, you would want to spend the whole day just breathing in his scent. 

Soobin leans even more closer, dirty thoughts are still running rampant in your mind. The unsure feeling of if he reciprocated your feelings was gnawing your insides, so you haven’t made your move. 

Your faces are practically touching at this point, you can feel the vibration of his voice as he tries to explain the question. If you turned your head the two of you would be kissing, so cautiously you keep your eyes on your paper. His large hands pointing to the words you’ve written down, but you can’t hear a thing. The way his hands are moving and how it’s practically as big as your page is making your heart palpitate.  

A pair of eyes now on you, Soobin awaiting your reply to his little explanation. Craning your neck to look back at him you can’t help but look at his lips. Realzing what you had just done, you look back up at his eyes. To your surprise he’s looking at your lips too. The feeling in your stomach tightens and you know this is your chance. 

“Fuck studying for biology,” Soobin beats you to it, he takes your head in his large hands and pulls you in for a kiss. It's a heated, passionate kiss and you moan at the feeling of how good he feels against you. Especially with the way his large hand is holding onto your face. You feel dizzy, everything happening so fast, and this doesn’t feel the same way it usually does. Soobin kisses you so delicately, making you feel like you’re on cloud nine. But at the same time, there's so much passion in his actions and you can tell he’s kissing you with so much emotion. 

Gripping your waist now he stands up, lifting you and placing you on the edge of the empty part of the desk. Immediately your legs open to let him stand between them, you gasp into the kiss as you feel his bulge brush against your clothed core. Soobin takes this opportunity to deepen the kiss; while he works his tongue into your mouth you let your hands wander into his hair, tugging and grabbing it, causing him to groan. 

“You don’t know how much I’ve been thinking about this,” pulling away, a shocked expression washes over your face. You weren’t expecting him to feel the same way you did, and it makes you feel even more turned on. 

“I haven’t stopped thinking about you since that day in the cafe,” you respond as Soobin takes his time planting kisses against your jaw then your neck. Letting out soft sighs of pleasure, Soobin slowly moves back up to your face, smiling into the kiss. His hands find their way to the hem of your hoodie, going under to feel your every curve of bare skin. High on Soobins scent and his touch, you move away from the kiss to pull the hoodie off your body. 

“Please touch me Soob, I want you so bad.” you beg him, giving him an innocent look despite the filth that’s spewing from your mouth. He looks at you with so much lust that you can feel your heat dampen even more. There's a giddy feeling fluttering in your stomach, you were not expecting your study session with him to take such a turn but you’re not complaining. Soobin doesn’t need you to repeat yourself, he’s now back to kissing you with more energy than before. While he’s kissing you he places his hands over your bra cladded chest, feeling you up as much as he can. You’re moaning into his mouth again, not caring about who can hear. 

Moving his hands to your back, he unclasps your bra, swifty removing the material from your body. He takes one of your nipples into your mouth, swirling his tongue and using his teeth to lightly nip at your hardened bud. He doesn’t leave your other breast unattended, giving it the same amount of attention as the other. Hands in his hair again, gripping onto him for stability and out of pleasure. Reluctantly pulling away, he can't help but admire the sight before him. You look so good, your eyes lidded with lust and your lips are swollen from kissing him. He's so hard he could cum just looking at you, then you say something that almost actually made him cum in his pants. 

“Can I suck your dick?” you ask so politely, how could he refuse? Nodding his head his mouth dry with anticipation; while you’re already hopping off the desk and lowering yourself on your knees. Soobin convinced he really could cum untouched, especially with the way you’re looking up at him. This angle of you is just simply so addicting. He’s thinking about whether or not he’ll get to look at you from this angle again. The thought of it making his stomach tighten with excitement.

Cautious with your movements you slowly removed Soobin’s pants. His boxers followed and they pooled to his ankles. When you say he’s big it's almost an understatement, his dick slapping against his stomach as you set it free. The gasp you let out doesn’t go unnoticed and Soobin smiles down at you while gathering your hair into a makeshift ponytail. You take his length into your hands and rub the precum over his tip. A groan comes out of Soobin’s mouth, his head falling back, gripping your hair tighter. You’re smiling to yourself, enjoying the way he looks as you pleasure him. 

“Fuck you’ve barely touched me and I already feel like I’m gonna cum,” his voice straining, another groan leaves his lips as you gather spit to lubricate his cock. Teasingly you pepper kisses onto his tip, his hands raking through your hair, holding onto you tighter. You decide to take your time, relishing in the way his eyes scrunch closed as you give his cock kitten licks. 

“Baby I can’t take this anymore, gonna fuck your mouth okay?” before you could say anything your mouth is filled with his dick. A muffled moan comes out of you, his hold on you like a vice. Soobin moves his hips back and forth, your throat trying to take all of him. The tip of his member is hitting the back of your throat, and his eyes are rolling to the back of his head as he feels you gag on him with each thrust. You could feel every vain on your tongue and the way his length is twitching in your mouth, seconds away from release. 

“I really don’t wanna cum like this,” Soobin says as he removes his still hard cock from your mouth. You get up from your knees, giving him a kiss on the lips before stepping back to take off your jeans. He’s watching you while stroking himself, and you feel your core dripping wetness down your inner thigh. Sitting back on the table, you lock your eyes with his. The look hes giving you makes you want to let him fuck you for everyone to hear. It was a miracle you two didn’t get walked in on yet. You open your legs, your hand travelling to play with your clit. Then you insert two fingers inside your wet cunt, pumping in and out. The sound of your sopping heat is making Soobin go feral, especially with the gaze you’ve set on him while you finger yourself.

“Fuck me Soob, please?” you ask so sweetly almost as if you’re asking for the most mundane request. As if you’re asking for anything but to get fucked by him right now. He groans as he watches you take your fingers out of yourself; you then bring your fingers up to your mouth, sucking on them with your eyes still trained on Soobin’s cute face. Still stroking himself, while making his way to you; he looks at you so mesmerized by how dirty you are, and fuck it’s such a turn on. He never imagined you in this way until the night of the cafe. His seemingly innocent crush turned into something more. 

“Be carful what you ask for love, because I’m gonna fuck you till you’re crying for me to stop.” he says at a volume barely above a whisper, his breath fanning your ear. You can’t help but whisper an equally filthy response, your arms now around his neck. 

“I want your cock inside me, want you to see your cum dripping out of me after,” you moan into his ear and he strokes himself up and down your drenched slit, your legs wrapped around his hips tightly.  Without a second to spare he pushes himself inside, a moan leaving his lips as he slides in inch by inch. The breath is knocked out of your lungs, you feel all of him fill you up, and he's not even in all the way yet. 

“Feels so good Soob,” the words are falling out of your mouth in moans, the feeling of him inside you overwhelming your senses. He starts to thrust into you with merciless speed, the sound of skin slapping echoing within the empty library. At this moment you don’t care about who can hear you, all you can think about is how good Soobin’s cock feels inside you. 

“Y-you’re so tight sweetheart, gripping me so fucking tight,” hes groaning into the dip of your shoulder and your neck, leaving love bites as he continues pumping himself in and out of you. 

The only thing you can do is keep on moaning while you hold onto his shoulders for dear life. You look down to see his cock slide in and out, a creamy white ring covering the base of his cock. It turns you on even more, your cheeks blushing at the sight. Suddenly you feel a loss of contact, Soobin has taken himself out of you, he’s breathing heavily while sweat starts to form on his forehead. Before you could whine about it, he takes you off the desk flipping you over. He forces you to spread your legs before shoving his cock back inside you. 

Even though you yelp at the sudden push into your wet pussy, you relax as the pleasure starts to come over you once again. Soobin loves the sound of your insides squelching from the way his dick is fucking you. Especially loving the feeling of his tip kissing your cervix with each thrust. He doesn’t know how much more he can take but he's on a mission to make you cum before he does. 

Lifting you off the desk again he wraps one hand around your waist, the other one snaking its way down to your clit. The feeling of his fingers rubbing circles into your sensitive bud has you seeing stars. Your bent over slightly still, Soobin able to continue fucking you while he gets you closer to the edge. 

“‘M gonna cum soon, don’t stop Soobin please.” you’re crying now, tears of pleasure running down your cheeks. He really wasn’t lying when he said he was going to fuck you till you were crying. 

“Cum for me baby,” is all he says. 

You’re saying his name over and over again, your moans now muffled by his hand. His hand is so large it covers almost all of the bottom half of your face. He’s towering over you making you feel so small. Your eyebrows strewn together tightly and your high is taking over you. Soobin is still fucking you from behind, his own orgasm slowly reaching the horizon. The muffling of your moans and the sound of your wet cunt getting fucked is still bouncing off the library’s bookshelves. 

“Please cum inside me, fill me up please please please.” you beg him, tears still running down your checks. Soobins moves you so you’re bent over the desk, his cock twitching in you. His thrusts begin to get sloppy but his pace is still at an unrelenting speed. Then you finally feel his hot cum spurt inside you, not planning to stop fucking you any time soon. Soobin’s groaning above you, his eyes glued to the sight of him fucking his cum back up into you. Although you're still recovering from your orgasm you can help but meet his hips as he keeps going. 

You’re whining as his balls slap against your clit, it was too much pleasure but it feels so good that you don't want to stop. Soobin is still hard inside you, coaxing another orgasm out of the both of you. 

“You got me so hard baby, gonna have to fuck you again okay?” Soobin’s grip on your hips is even tighter than before. You just keep meeting his hips over and over again, wanting to feel the rush of cumming again. Behind you, Soobin is moaning shamelessly as he continues on fucking you, his thrusts slower and lazier than before. 

You’re a lot more sensitive than now, the feeling of your second orgasm reaching you quickly. Soobin can tell you’re about to cum again because of how tightly you’re gripping his cock. He speeds up slightly wanting to reach his high with you. 

“Mmfph f-fuck,” you whimper as you feel the band in your stomach snapping once again. 

Soobin’s cum is filling you up again, some of it starting to run down your inner thighs. He looks down at your hole once more, your pussy spent and swollen from his large cock. Smiling to himself, satisfied, he finally releases his dick from your cunt. 

“That was so good,” you say as you turn around, taking some of the cum running down your legs and putting it in your mouth. Soobin looks at you with shock, his tired dick twitching even after all that had happened. 

“I would definitely go for one more round but I feel like we’re about to get kicked out soon.” He breathes, a hand running through his hair. You laugh and pull him in for another kiss. He immediately reciprocates even though he’s exhausted. 

“We can always continue this another day, maybe somewhere more private,” you suggest as you pull away from the kiss. He smiles at you with those adorable dimples once again, looking down at you he can’t help but feel warmth fill up his chest. You just looked so good,  hair all dishevelled, pink cheeks and swollen lips. Thinking to himself, he comes to the conclusion that wants to see it more often, and hopefully you feel the same way. 

“Lets clean you up and get out of here,” he replies, kissing your forehead so lovingly, as if he wasn’t fucking you like a whore a few moments ago. 

You both clean up, put on your clothes and pack your things away. Bidding each other good bye with a sweet kiss and a promise to text each other when you both reach home. 

As you watch him walk away you pull out your phone, texting Yeonjun while heading out of the library. 

me: ok maybe I did wanna hook up with him :p 

yj <3: i fucking knew it!! facetime me when u get home

me: okay fine! only cuz ure the one who gave me his number

After all the shameless sex you had, you can’t help but smile shyly thinking about the next time you and Soobin will be able to see each other. 

[ilyjerome]

𓆩♡𓆪 dry humping ` w/soobin !

c. warning(s) — catholicism!au, dry humping, sub/dom dinamics, boobs/nipple play, corruption kink.

w. count — +8k (i’m so sorry)

✦ minors do not interact.

the first time you saw him, you thought he was the cutest and pretty boy you’ve ever seen. his pretty glasses made him look prettier than he already was, his dimples that stood out notoriously and his beautiful smile made you lose your sanity little by little.

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sorry for being so inactive ive been busy + deleted thmblr for a while and have no inspo😭

[ilyjerome]

happy new year i want song donggeon to crack me in half

[ilyjerome]

[8:00 PM]

Genre: fluff suggestive if you squint

Pairing: Jerome x Reader

[8:00 PM]

“oh my God you didn’t.” You said as you entered your shared room looking at the scattered roses that lead to the bed; candles around the dark lit room. You knew he must have spent time working on this for you.

“but infact I did, happy holidays day my love” your boyfriend Jerome said smiling at you warmly. You couldn’t believe your eyes, he’s so cheesy but you love him for it.

“What could I ever do to repay you?” You said plopping onto the bed looking up at him. He crawled right on top of you planting a kiss on your nose.

“Well if you’re curious” He wiggled his eyebrows causing you both to laugh as you pushed him off from above to which he laid next to you. As the giggles died down you couldn’t help the smile that crept on your face as you hand traveled to find his holding it tightly. 

“You know I love you right?” You said turning to look at him, he looked at you with just as much admiration.

“And I obviously love you just as much” He said with a giggle once more as he went to leave a kiss on your head 

[ilyjerome]

i want you to catch a cold with me <3

pairing; yang jungwon x gender neutral reader! ☆彡

genre; fluffy fluff

prompt; jungwon fell sick, so being the best partner u are, you decide to try to give him breakfast in bed (so cute) ☹️

lowercase intended, not proofread kinda rushed lol

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you woke up early today. you had slept early so you’d wake up before him, even while sick, he always managed to wake up before you.

you looked over to your side to see your boyfriends figure sleeping peacefully - his cheeks tinted with a rosey pink and his mouth slightly agape with his chest rising up and down. he looked so cute it made you giggle :((

you finally got up and tip-toed over to your kitchen, what could you make for him? - you decided on pancakes and cutely cut up fruit. (i have no idea what people eat for breakfast) you didn’t wanna go through the process of baking them so you just used the pancakes from the store, and you took the grapes, apples, kiwis and a dragonfruit out the fridge to cut up into hearts for him :)

you take the skin off the grapes, skin the apple and cut it up into many skinny pieces and some hearts, make small dragonfruit and kiwi hearts with your cookie cutter you use for xmas. it looked so aesthetically pleasing and you were so proud of yourself

also making a glass of water for him, you walk back over to your bedroom and slowly to open the door to his still-sleeping figure, he hadn’t moved an inch. you placed the glass on his bedside table while placing the plate on your lap as you sat by him - you moved a hair out of his face, and shook his shoulder.

“jungwon~” … “jungwonn~” he groaned and rubbed his eyes, straightening his back and sitting up a little - “good morning” “morning my love, i made you breakfast” a smile grew on his face as you handed him the plate, he giggled “this is cute. thank you” he reached over to rub your arm as a thank you, “you’re welcome. there’s water here for you too, call me when your done and i’ll take the plate. i’ll be in the living room” you flashed him a smile and left the room.

you heard his shout for you, but it hadn’t even been 3 minutes- you basically forbid him to leave the bed unless he needs to shower or use the toilet and he didn’t mind it. as you opened the door you noticed he left the fruit, “yeah? do you not want it?” you sat on your side of the bed scooting closer, you rubbed his forehead - “you’ll be better soon wonie :)” “i hope so.. i don’t like being so tired all the time. i can’t spend time with you” “but, don’t you want the fruit? they’ll make you feel better, my love is infused in them, can’t you tell?” he flashed you a face, “i wanted to eat them with you”

“won.. you need them more than me, they have nutrients that will make you get better and feel better, plus there’s more in the fridge if i want some.” he moved the bed covers for you to get under them with him. and you did, leaning your head on his shoulder and picking up a piece of fruit and putting it in his mouth. he tried to do the same, but you said no.

“y/n” you hummed in response, “can you look at me?” you sat up and turned your body to him. “what?” he quickly pecked your lips, leaving you in shock and covering them - “yang jungwon! i’m going to be sick!” he laughed. “yeah. i want you to catch a cold with me.” “shut up and eat your fruit.” jungwon giggled at your cuteness and tried to feed you one, you ate it of course, you can’t say no to him after that.

you fed him one of the last pieces of fruit after he ate (most) of them, until you said his name and turned to him. “i’ll catch a cold with you.” you grabbed his cheeks and kissed him, you could feel him smiling throughout it and while you pulled away, you could see the rosey pink tint in his cheeks come back.

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[ilyjerome]

starting over

jisu x gender neutral!reader

requested? no

based off of ‘Canada’ by lauv ft alessia cara

warnings: fluffy fluff fluff

a/n: i wrote this at like 3 am when i was listening to this song on repeat 

lowercase intended !

wc: 152

“would you live with me?”

what did he mean?

“we already do?” you laughed, moving your head higher up his chest, his hand lazily tapping against your side. 

“no i mean… when we get married. we could live somewhere together. not here but somewhere like… canada? it would be me and you and maybe a dog or cat, or both. we can start over together.”

marriage? looking up a jisu you could see he was deep in thought. he almost looked scared, or anxious while waiting for your response.

thoughts swarmed his head. ‘did you even want to marry him? maybe he was moving too fast.’

your voice ripped him out of his thoughts, looking down at you with wide eyes, trying to process what you had said. 

“i would,” you stated before sitting up from the bed and turning to face him, “i would follow you wherever you went. even canada.”

[ilyjerome]

this is the saddest shit i have ever read wtf

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｡˚.⋆ .⸙͎. ⋆.˚｡ Pairing: Boyfriend!Jaeyun × Fem!Reader

｡˚.⋆ .⸙͎. ⋆.˚｡ Genre: Fluff, Angst!!

｡˚.⋆ .⸙͎. ⋆.˚｡ Warnings: None!

｡˚.⋆ .⸙͎. ⋆.˚｡ Author's Note: Its an angst i wrote a few months ago, made me cry a lot... Hope you will like it as well<3

Jaeyun loved you more than it would ever be possible for a human to love someone. You were his first in everything, and he wanted you to be his last too. He wanted to make you happy in every day of his life and see your smile every morning when waking up next to you. Feel your skin as he hugs or kisses you, touches your hand or draws little nothings on your bare back as the rising sunshine paints your figure beautifully, just for you to turn to him once you wake up and kiss him. He wanted you to cut his hair and he wanted to braid and wash yours, he wanted to sing for you and just hold you close, pulling you onto his lap before going back dancing. He wanted to hear your praises after every little thing he accomplished, looking at you with bright eyes like a little boy. And oh did he compliment you too. He told you how beautiful, precious, talented and smart you are in every way he could. He made you feel more loved than anyone else. He never forgot to tell you that he loves you, but he could say "I love you" in different words too. In the mornings when he left with a "Be safe on the way to work!", when he said "Watch out, the breakfast is still hot!", or when he just said "Sleep well, princess". And then if you had a nightmare, he woke you up and kissed the bad memories away. You were his everything. After long days at work, when he got home all stressed out, when he thought he could yell a mountain away by a few inches, he saw you in your pjs eating some chocolate while watching tv. He snuggled up by your side, hiding his face in your neck, tickling you with his nose while you covered his bare feet with the blanket and fed him with some chocolate so he was warm and comfy. You were head over heels for him, in every meaning. And he loved you, everything about you, as simply as that. He never wanted to lose you.

Then he found out he was going to die. He already felt like dying inside when he thought about leaving you alone. He broke. At first he didnt tell you. He wanted to sort out some things in himself first, even tho he already knew what he was going to do. He just needed to get ready for it. For losing you.

He started to act differently, and you noticed that. Of course you did. He wouldnt ask you for a walk outside anymore, wouldnt tell you how you looked pretty, wouldnt cook food anymore, wouldnt want to get intimate with you anymore. Even when you tried to kiss him, he would turn away coldly. He didnt talk to you, only when you asked. You had to ask him out about this.

"Do you have difficulties at work, babe? Is it tough?" you stood behind him and started massaging his shoulder as he was reading some papers to distract himself. He felt so weak. He couldnt not tell you when you cornered him like this. He was craving for your touches but he knew it was the best if he refused them. Refused you.

"Everything is cool" he said shortly. You were startled. You pursed your lips and dropped your arms in disappointment.

"Then... Tell me honestly. Do you have someone else?" He felt like a zombie. He knew he should lie to you and let you fell out of love with him, let you hate him because that was easier for both of you. But he just couldnt say that he cheated on you.

"No" he cut it short.

"So you just... Dont love me anymore? Is there something wrong with me?" He was so close to telling you about how wrong you are and how perfect you are. He fell into silence.

"Baby, please talk to me. You know, communicating. I dont even know whats up with you anymore, you are the one who always insists on talking things out and here you are not even talking to me for the past week. I had so many ideas about how your work must be overwhelming you, and i somewhat even thought about you liking someone else. But if its with me, then lets just talk it out. Did i hurt you or say something bad? Or i just dont look attractive? Am i too clingy? We can come up with a solution, baby" you reassured him. He teared up a bit.

"I dont want to talk about anything" he sighed, head hanging down.

You licked your lips. "Then what do you want me to do?" you asked silently, not waiting for his answer, taking your coat, bag and keys and left the house pissed.

He felt so lifeless. He wanted to ramble and kick and hit everything. He wanted to ruin everything around him. But he felt like it has all came to an end. As he looked around in the silence, he didnt feel like he belonged here. He thought about you living in here alone, and he couldnt even imagine himself with you. The realization snapped in him - he doesnt belong to you anymore. So, instead, he just took out a small picture of you two together from the frame on the table: it was his favorite picture. He loved that day - it was your 4th anniversary, and you spent it on a picnic. You two went for a walk in the forest on a sunny day. He loved how you prepared that extremely big picnic basket, filled it up with all the goodies, even made heart-shaped tiny nutella sandwiches. You looked so pretty in your sweet pale-blue dress. He loved the way you accidentally blinked on the picture and your face looked so funny. And till this very day you still got grumpy whenever you looked at that picture because you wanted to look prettier, but little did you know that you were the most beautiful human for him, even if you made a funny grimace. He will remember you like this. He will keep you close like this.

He shoved the small picture in his pocket, took his keys and some necessary things he needed. Then, after a last glance at the empty, silent, gloomy living room, he locked the door for the last time in his short life. He disappeared and erased himself from your life as best as he could. You never saw him again, even though you were searching for him. You cried for a hundred nights and had nightmares for a hundred more, thinking he will open the door and hug you, but you never knew he died. And you never knew that on his last breath, he was holding your picture close to his chest, your name falling from his lips before the last beat of his heart, which always had been beating for you only.

Please dont steal/publish/edit/translate my work in any form.

[ilyjerome]

Masterlist of masterlists

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All of my works are works of fiction. They are headcannons or AUs, not what happens in the real world.

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Jerome + fingers ^^

"Why are your fingers so inhumanely long?"

Sungmin shrugs as he lets you play with his fingers. You're gripping one of his hands in both of yours and he finds the size-difference adorable.

"My whole posture is slim and long. Maybe that's why" he suggests and looks at you for a second, before averting his eyes.

You are focusing so much on his digits and his fingertips for no reason, it makes him feel an emtion that he thinks is inappropriate for this moment.

He sucks in a breath and decides to go for it anyway. Your relationship is without barriers and you would only briefly tease him and tell him to 'take him mind out of the gutter'.

"Wanna try them out?"

To his suprise, instead of giggling at his question, you take two of his fingers, and gently put them in your mouth, almost knuckle deep.

[ilyjerome]

how seongmin pleasures you

oh seongmin x afab!reader ( to1 fm )

genre: nsfw n fluff if u squint . ;p

prompt: .. how seongmin would pleasure you and the overall experience w him

18+ only pls !!

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♡ - he just wants to make you feel good !! yes his pleasure matters but when i say he will spend hours between your legs i mean he will spend HOURS in between your legs overstimulating u n shit .. he loves it when you tug on his hair a bit you can literally feel his smile forming on your clit and atp he’s thrusting the mattress unconsciously just at the thought of you bcz right now your moans sound angelic to him

♡ - this boy is such a tease i cannot express it enough . he’d be fingering you and cooing at you like “aww can’t you take it ? take it just for me . i need to get u ready for my cock :(“ while ur struggling cause his fingers are so fucking long and he knows this so well he’s got the most smug look on his face he lovezzz it when your trying ur hardest for him :(( prolly gives u little pecks

♡ - now his favourite position varies .. it solely depends on the mood he’s in but he loves missionary even if it’s basic he wants to be able to see your face change as he pounds you and give u loads of kisses and you can touch him he just wants touch off you tbh but when he goes doggy he GOES . bro will use no hands sometimes and use his hip power but sometimes he gets carried away if he’s had a bad day or something he will pin you to the bed if your on one and just go inhuman speeds while gripping your hips so hard you’ll definitely get slight bruising the next day !!! he loves music on in the back too !! <33 mostly english songs though like corny liam payne HFHDUD but in the mood it fits i promise

♡ - seongmin has a secret public kink and u cannot tell me otherwise ?? he brings you to his music banks n such just so he can pull you in the unused janitor closet and fuck the living shit out of you while covering your mouth with his big hands and shoving his fingers in your mouth while going so deep in you … whispering sweet nothings in your ear like “my pretty baby is doing so well ~” followed by one of his cute giggles :(((

♡ - his moans are angelic. probably the prettiest noise you’ve ever heard. seongmins voice is more higher than usual but he can make it go low .. like in the cover for abracadabra it didn’t even sound like him ?? but his moans set you off n give you butterflies and he can feel u clench around him every time he moans which just gives him confidence to be louder <33

♡ - now we all know seongmin has a praise kink but i feel like during sex it’s more on the giving side ? yes he loves it when you praise HIM but he loves ASKING you if he’s doing well like he would bend down to your ear “am i doing well~?” dragging out the end of his sentence and kissing ur earlobe .. teasing you if you can’t answer but deliberately going faster // harder so you struggle more to answer so he can bully you a bit <\3 “am i too much for you ? “ - “ can’t even get a word out to seongminnie ?? ;((“ pouting n shit. definitely talks in third person

♡ - pussyslapperpussyslapperpussyslapper idc idc !! he lifts his head up after he’s finished and his chin is glowing with a smirk and your legs are shaking so he just slaps your pussy and laughs at you .. :( but not mean !! he is not mean at all during sex he wants to make sure your having the time of your life :p

♡ - he knows how to move those hips and he knows the power he has so he definitely takes advantage of it like will slam into you so hard and be like “r u okay? :((“ but will give u reassurance a lot <33 he acts clueless and has the cutest expression while his cock is literally balls deep in u help

♡ - bro wants to swap spit with you. expect the most dirtiest sloppiest kisses in the moment !!! like unintentional spit DRIPPING from your chins and he’s holding your face slowly thrusting into you and it’s so relaxing but it feels so good ugh i can’t - loves it when your hands explore his body while your making out too please do that :)

♡ - when your on top his hands are always on your hips or holding ur tits like his big ass bony hands look so good on them he just thinks it’s so perfect <33 most of the time he’s sitting up when u’re riding him to have better access to kiss you and touch you all over but gives you non stop praise too “you’re so beautiful bouncing on my cock :((“ definitely rests his head in your neck and gives open mouth kisses while letting out the most angelic moans you’ve ever heard in your life !! loves pressing his thumbs into your stomach so he can feel himself in you !! and definitely hugs u ;(( and pushes down on you to make you go deeper into him he’s so in love with u JSIDDH his eyebrows r furrowed and he’s a moaning mess while hugging you ugh

♡ - loves it when you cry for him !! just seeing how well he’s doing and you babbling from overstimulation .. it makes him feel so powerful and definitely coo’s at you subtly teasing you about it (he’ll also tease u abt it later) wipes ur tears with his thumb while awwing at you ugh i cant asking if it’s too much or if “seongmin is too big for you” while tracing your waist line and pushing down on ur stomach to feel himself inside of you . when you first start crying / babbling he laughs at you and goes faster he literally gets off to your cries and inaudible words besides his name and keeps going “huh? what?” while basically ramming ur organs !! definitely kisses ur tears too and forehead saying “it’s okay” but he’ll only be like this if he 100% knows if your okay he can tell the difference between crying from pleasure to crying from PAIN bcz he’s so big

[ilyjerome]

TO1 Master List

f = fluff, a = angst, c = crack, s = suggestive, m = mature r = requested

the style of master list is different than my other ones this one is more efficient but I’m too lazy to edit all my other masterlist. all groups I make a masterlist to past this point will be in this style though. I will write for the past members if requested!

Jaeyun:

When you’re feeling down (a,f,r)

Polaroid Love in the making

Hyung line reacting to Making up after a fight (f, a)

Chihoon:

Hyung line reacting to Making up after a fight (f, a)

Donggeon:

Encouraging Notes (f)

Hyung line reacting to Making up after a fight (f, a)

Chan:

*hiatus from writing for him till I makeup my mind*

How Chan would Take Care Of Your After You Got Your Wisdom Teeth Taken Out (f,c)

Hyung line reacting to Making up after a fight (f, a)

Jisu:

I’m sorry what (f)

Hyung line reacting to Making up after a fight (f, a)

Minsu:

Squishy cheeks (f)

J.you:

Boom (f)

[4:46] (f, c) in the making

Kyungho:

Nothing yet send a request

Jerome:

Heated Dare (s,r) in the making

Woonggi:

[7:58 PM] (f, c) in the making

All Members:

Reaction to you not saying I love you back Hyung Line (f, a)

Reaction to you not saying I love you back Maknae Line (f, a)

Reaction to dating an 03 liner

New Members:

I’ve not gotten the chance to get to know them so until further notice I won’t be writing for them, i will try to learn about them but give me time I’m still grieving over loosing members

[ilyjerome]

you’re so pretty. are you single?

pairing; park sunghoon x gn reader <3 (term girlfriend is used)

genre: fluffy ^o^

prompt: your boyfriend comes over drunk late at night unannounced .

drabble <3 lowercase intended, not proofread

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the time on the clock read 02:38AM. you were tired - and sunghoon wasn’t answering any of his calls, he hadn’t been for a couple hours now. you figured he was just having so much fun at that party he went to that you couldn’t attend because you had other plans that day.

all ready for bed, you brushed your teeth and did skincare, heading to your comfy bed until you heard your door slam open all of a sudden - at least it was a reminder you didn’t lock it ?

“sunghoon ? what do you want ?” you annoyingly scoffed at him - it was late and he hadn’t been checking his phone all day. he had worried you and he’s just shown up at your door ?

he didn’t answer you nor look at you, his frame was leant against the doorway and he was looking at his shoes - “sunghoon !” you said louder this time while speed walking over to him - hitting him as soon as he was within your reach.

he didn’t even move, just let the impact hit him and his shoulder went back.

his eyes slowly met yours and he scoffed, a smirk appearing on his face as he scanned you in your pyjamas with your hair up and no makeup on.

“gosh, you’re so pretty. are you single ?” sunghoon was slurring the end of his sentences, his breath reeked of alcohol too .. his comment made you giggle - until he asked again. “are you single ? i’ve never seen someone this pretty before” .. “sunghoon.. i’m you’re girlfriend and we’ve been dating for almost 2 years.”

“oh. then i have good taste” he chucked to himself - trying to balance himself and give you a hug - “my girlfriend is soo pretty !!~” his voice cracking, “let’s get you to bed yeah ? i’ll make you some nice food in the morning to help you with your hangover.” you spoke as you moved his arm around you so you could take him to bed :)

let’s just say you didn’t get much sleep that night.

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[ilyjerome]

cute things to1 does <\3

members included - boyf og!to1 x gn reader

genre; fluffiest fluff

new members not included ! i don’t know them well enough to write for them (i will in the future :))

(seongmin’s are copy&pasted since i did something like this for him individually - you can find it on my navigation post (pinned) :D

not writing 4 chanhyuk because of his situation.

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chihoon (fm) ⋆ ˚｡⋆୨୧˚

loves when u sit on his lap . not sexually ! just having u there when he’s working or smthn.. but he does need his alone time !! but he finds it calming and sometimes you fall asleep on him and it just makes him so happy <33

plays w ur hands … idk why but !!!! i can see him doing this often , just sitting by each other and plays w ur hands ? it relaxes him a bit and you love it so u’re just giving him a extra reason bcz he loves pleasing you like if ur sitting w the rest of the members theres a 98% chance ur hand is in his lap and he’s playing w ur fingers <3

nose / forehead kisses .. now if you were in public i’m not so sure since chi doesn’t seem like the pda type (excluding the holding hands ofc) but if you two were alone i feel like he would do this as a sign of affection and be all shy abt it :((( just being so cute :((( and he gets all giggly after awww i can’t - and esp if you were sitting on his lap while he’s working he’d just give u a kiss from time to time :(

jaeyun ⋆ ˚｡⋆୨୧˚

 this boy is a romantic idc. superrr sweet in everything he does n always cares for u. <33 like he gives random affirmations like “you’re so beautiful” n looks u up n down or smthn lmaooo loves loves lovesssssss making u feel loved. always does little things for you like make u meals or little acts of kindness like tying ur shoe laces :((

cannot take his eyes off u sometimes like it makes you so flustered but he’s always like “but u’re so pretty” i can’ttt tell u how much of a romantic this man is i will say it everytime !! u catch him staring a lot. he’s just super happy to have someone who loves him as much as u bcz he loves u so much :(

always holding hands ! jaeyun isn’t a very touchy type but i feel like he would just like to know you’re .. there ?? idk how to explain but always holding ur hand would make him feel happy and give him energy <33 like if ur in public you’d just be walking around holding hands and you showing him things and he squeezes ur hand when he laughs or smthn :( and sometimes he rubs ur thumb or swings ur hands a teenyyyyyy bit !!

head pats !! like . if you get all excited about something he’ll give u a head pat or if you do well in something you’ll get a head pat and it’s !! so !! adorable !! he follows it up w a giggle 99% of the time <\\3 like he finds u so cute / is so proud of you and gives u a head pat . this is so cute i can’t - prolly ruffles n messes up ur hair too and u’re busy trying to fix it and he’s laughing at you :(( just a little thing in his love language

donggeon ⋆ ˚｡⋆୨୧˚

kisses. he loves having all of his senses filled with you, touch, smell, taste, everything. even if its a small peck on the cheek or a whole ass make out idc i tell u this boy is the most caring n sweetest boy u’ve ever met. and and !! he will s h o w e r u with kisses if u haven’t seen each other in a while !!! and if ur squirming he’ll just keep going <33 i see donggeon as the cutest member within this typa stuff u cannot tell me otherwise !!!!!!!!!!!!

so we all know he loves working out atp. like on bubble he always tells us when he’s leaving to go workout and he’s gone for a couple hours .. but he’s gonna be all sweaty after right ?? you’ll be waiting for him @ the gym or wtv like “u’ve been working out for ages c’monnnnnn” and he’ll try to hug u like “okay okayyy” or mock u while giggling and u’re trying to push him away cause he’s all sweaty but he’s trying to hug u .. that’s just so cute like he wont stop until he can hug u . he finds it so adorable when you start pushing his chest bcz he’s so sweaty and u don’t wanna smell bad JDNEJDH

A F F I R M A T I O N . similar to jaeyun, this boy will not stfu about you. calls you pretty every second. smiles like a lil kid on xmas day while staring at you. genuinely thinks you’re the prettiest person he’s ever laid his eyes on but he loves it when you give them back he gets all shy and prolly hits ur shoulder AJJEJWIE he’s just so sweet to you and cherishes you so much please give this boy lots of love <3 he will give it back 101% more

jisu ⋆ ˚｡⋆୨୧˚

holding ur face ! i don’t think jisu is very open to touchiness like he needs to be in a certain mood to accept it well but .. if ur both just laughing or you do something cute he kinda just leans in and holds ur face like cheek area ?? idk how else to explain HELP but his thumbs behind ur ears n :(( like he’s so happy in that moment he just does it and you love it sm but sometimes he gives u a peck on ur nose :(( he just loves you so much pls love him

pulling you into hugs - now hear me out i’ve noticed jisu is quite touchy w daigo recently so this is just .. so cute to me . he does this sometimes and it’s so ;(((( like u two could just be talking and he’d start by just playing w ur fingers and rubbing ur hands swinging them a lil and he just pulls u into him !!!!!!! ;(((((((( and if ur sitting down he’ll pull you into his lap by ur waist and tap his fingers on ur waist dips :( he loves talking to u while doing this just having your skin touching he loves it

matching plushies . like the squirtle ones ? yeah he gets those for you both like it can be little keychains or those super big ones you see on tiktok vacuum sealed JSUDJF but no whenever you have a movie night or whatever you bring your plushies or jisu tells you too it’s so cute it’s just a little thing you two have <33

minsu (fm) ⋆ ˚｡⋆୨୧˚

feeding you . even if its a grape or a whole ssambap he will do the airplane for you JDNDID he does this kinda (?) often with the members so i can easily see him doing it w his s/o and he just love love lovezzzzzz seeing ur cheeks fill up w food he thinks you look so adorable and he’s smiling so wide asking u “is it good?” - “do u want more?” SJAJSJ he’s so caring to u and wants u to eat well <333 (p.s do it back even if he says no he loves it secretly.)

this boy is so touchy indoors. when it’s just you two , he wants to be all over you he wants to cuddle and give you kisses all over your face !! he finds your presence so healing and just wants to hold you and maybe watch youtube or tell you about his day or listen to yours .. definitely cooks something for you both too just so he can feed you ^^^^^^^^ he wants to be your jacket istg :(

jeyou ⋆ ˚｡⋆୨୧˚

the subtle things . even if its just giving u a small massage or bringing u a drink he loves subtly taking care of you seeing a smile on your face cause he brought you greek yoghurt too when you weren’t expecting it brightens his whole month icl :( even squishing your cheek for a second ahh he will melt he loves u sm ;( coming back from going out w his members 99% of the time he’s gotten you a little gift wether that be food or even a pair of matching socks. he wants to pamper you <3

he whines JUST to seem cute .. like if you wanna cuddle or something he’ll be like “ah y/n seriously” and complain but he’s literally walking with you to cuddle ?? he whines and pouts basically for your attention PLS he’s so annoying BUT he acts completely clueless when you call him out for it like ???? he’s doing it just so you wanna do those things MORE he knows you love him being cute </3

he’s gonna squish your cheeks wether you like it or not :/ he just finds it so cute with your cheeks puffed out and lips are pouting ugh . it’s so cute it’s gross . but he’s gonna do it out of the blue all the time and probably pull on your cheeks and tease you about it … *cries*

kyungho ⋆ ˚｡⋆୨୧˚

holding ur waist !!!! he just loves holding u ;( he prolly walks w u while doing it too LMAO - like if ur just standing doing smthn he’s 101% holding u by ur waist or he randomly snakes his hands around u and squeezes u JDBRJD kyungho doesn’t seem like he’s always up for affection but i think this is just a cute lil thing he does w u :’) probably rubs ur waist dips too asking u abt your day and occasionally u get a kiss on the cheek if he feels like it

F O R E H E A D K I S S E S . this man is so cute ?? like he’ll grab the back of your head and pull you closer to kiss your forehead :((( he does this so often too like if your waiting in line to get drinks he’ll do that and probably hug you by putting his arm around the back of your neck <333 he leans on u too … he’s such a big teddy bear pls

seongmin (fm) ⋆ ˚｡⋆୨୧˚

he’s definitely got a lot of pet names for you but more alongside the basic ones like “baby” or “darling” he literally calls jaeyun darling ?? and he calls jeyou “my pretty baby” stopppp be prepared to get showered in pet names and compliments if you look good (to him u look good everyday even if u just got out of bed and have a severe case of bed head) <33 prolly showers u w kisses too or the tightest hug ever :p - you can’t breathe so you’ll have to slightly tap him like “seongmin .. i can’t breathe “ JDBEJD definitely exaggerates his gasps to make you feel better if your showing him a new outfit his eyes widen and he covers his mouth he’s in awe over u rn

randomly intertwines ur hands …. :( like you two could be having a conversation and (example) ur sitting in his lap facing him telling him about your day he will just grab ur hands and intertwine them w his and he’s nodding listening to everything u have to say but if ur days bad he’ll order food or cook some for you ;( or you two can just cuddle while watching a movie as long as your there he really doesn’t mind *crying*

loves making sure you eat well !! will feed you and do the airplane whatever it takes to make you eat and the airplane just adds cuteness and we all know seongmin is a sucker for cute things +10 points for a jordy spoon FHJRJR lovezzzz eating with you or just cooking a simple meal for you both and he loves it when you join in cooking so <33 but u two always need something sweet after so sometimes you go out to the convenience store to get snacks or ice cream ;(( like a lil date

woonggi (fm) ⋆ ˚｡⋆୨୧˚

is obsessed with your hair ? like even if he’s just touching it playing with it or literally braiding it he loves touching your hair and finds it so fascinating <33 gives you new hairstyles and asks if you can sit in front so he can play with it JFHRJR you love it tho <\33333

WILL join in on gossip. like you could be telling him what’s happening within ur friend group and he’s over here giving the most dramatic responses the neighbours can probably hear him gasping and going “REALLY???” ugh hes so fun

café dates <33 going out for a drink and just talking and even getting to walk around is just you two . like that’s you !! especially if one or the other has been busy and you can easily catch up and tell each other about what’s been going on :))