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How many times did you try to become small and failed? How many times you binged and told yourself that it‘ll never happen again?

Exactly. Million times. But you are stuck in that vicious circle, you will never make it.

Why don’t be consistent once? Just eat nothing when you don’t have to. Eat a small portion when you have to while avoiding other food completely. You will reach your goals fast af. Compensate the calories with a run. You know how to lose weight but your a lazy fuck. Get your life together and show a little self control. Be perfect, clean up your room, go for a walk, dont eat, plan your day. And stop the fucking excuses.

„Oh my family forces me to eat dinner with them“ fuck off with that shit. Say you feel sick or fucking eat sth with your family. And thats all. Nothing more. Small portion. Sports. Purge. Maybe prepare dinner for your family next time and say you‘ve already ate so much while cooking that you just don’t feel hungry anymore. They wont care anyways unless you’re super skinny. But guess what? That will never happen with your lazy fuck excuses mentality

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Under 150 kcal whole-food, vegan recipes ❤️ SO MUCH FLAVOR! 🌿 no sweets

Vegan Mushroom Stroganoff (120 kcal)

Root Vegetable Salad with Sweet Potato Crunchies (79 kcal)

Slow Cooker Sweet Potato and Kale Soup (130 kcal)

Christmas Spiced Red Cabbage (use vegan butter/oil) (79 kcal)

Charred Onion and Tomato Salad (81 kcal)

Baked Apple Chips (32 kcal)

Chimichurri Sauce, Oil-Free (I would put over large portabella cap for ~+20 kcal) (8 kcal)

Baked Zucchini Tater Tots (104 kcal)

Air Fryer Beet Chips, Oil-Free (49 kcal)

Spicy Cauliflower Cheese Sauce (44 kcal)

Spicy Vegan Salami (111 kcal)

Smashed Salt & Vinegar Potatoes (must omit oil, will cook fine I promise) (148 kcal)

Candied "bacon" pecans (107 kcal)

Pumpkin Spice Hummus (103 kcal)

Air Fryer Pineapple (90 kcal)

Avocado Green Goddess Dressing, Oil-Free (66 kcal)

Vegan Coleslaw (140 kcal)

Cranberry Risotto Stuffed Mushrooms (40 kcal)

Cauliflower Buffalo Wings (118 kcal)

Polenta Pizza Crust (167 kcal ugh)

Cranberry Broccoli Salad with Poppy Seed Dressing (omit chickpeas) (227 kcal >:( but I have to try this sometime)

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i'm gonna do this! anyone want to do it with me so we can hold eachother accountable?

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I think the only thing stopping me from offing at this point is I don’t wanna die fat. 

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when my parents find out that their extremely perfectionistic, shy, academic, disciplined daughter has anorexia: this shit is bananas !

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sorry for bad quality but these pictures have a hold on me 😪😪

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"ED spaces are so toxic" Everyone i interact w on here is so kind were not on the same spaces, i refuse to believe it.

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i want to be underweight enough to get to the "recovery" part, and yes i know how bad that sounds

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having to buy a new binder because i lost weight>>>

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ed tumbler biches after drinking 6 monster ultras in a day

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The feeling of stepping on a scale

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things i’m looking forward to when i reach my gw/ugw

having to keep pulling up my pants

having to buy belts to hold up my jeans

being able to feel every single one of my vertebrae’s

people can easily pick me up without complaining

th1n thighs

being able to read the look of jealousy on girls faces

sharper jawline

my butt hurting from sitting in a chair during class

reducing the usage of body wash in the shower

“when’s the last time you’ve ate?” “go eat a cheeseburger”

being able to wrap my fingers around my upper arm

having control

layering up on clothes

everything looks baggy on me

being the th!nspø

feeling pretty, confidence

not being able to find small enough clothing sizes

finally being happy with the number on the scale

sc@rs more visible

just imagine what other girls are thinking in their heads.. “what does she/he do to get that sk1nny?” “ i wish i were them.”

becoming obsessed over yourself bc of how gorgeous you are

being able to count every single individual rib

imagine that you’ve been handcuffed and you can slip your wrists out with ease

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is it just me, or when you binge at any time in the day, your day is ruined so you binge the rest of the day

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feeling miserable because your hungry>>>> feeling miserable because you ate

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🎀 Sometimes, I don't think I can keep this up. Then I chug water and I feel like nothing can stop me from continuing.

I've lost 5 pounds in 5 days, no workout is this good.

I feel so good when I am empty.

Food doesn't interest me at all.