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Summer is now end.

We experienced a lot of challenges. 2 of our loved ones died during summer. Instead of having fun at the beach or having some vacations, we didn’t know the time that we will lost our lolo and tito. I thought our summer we will be happy but I was wrong... Siguro kaya binigyan n’ya kami ng ganitong pagsubok to test our faithfulness to Him. To become steadfast in His words and to my religion.  Our school year started now - I hope this is the new beginning for us and new blessings. 

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Some people don’t believe in heroes but they haven’t met my Lolo!

Naalala ninyo noong nagpost ako about kay Tito Bayani, who’s now deceased? Last month lang ‘yun and isang buwan na siyang patay. Until now, those happening are still fresh in our mind. ‘Di pa kami masyadong nakaka move-on.  Weeks passed by, nagbakasyon ako in my cousin’s house. Naging masaya ‘yung 2 weeks kong pagbabakasyon kase panay ang gala namin kasama mga pinsan ko. 

One day before akong umuwi, nabalitaan namin na may lagnat si Lolo which is suprisingly for us kasi ‘di naman siya nagkakasakit nang gano’n, puro ubo’t sipon lang tapos ubo lang ang naging resulta sa check-up niya pero kung titignan mo siya parang hindi lang ubo yung sakit niya. I know he’s ill. He’s weak. Parang iba.... “Marjorie, umuwi kana. Baka hinahanap kana ng Mama mo.” he said “Hindi po Lolo. Ako po bantay sa inyo.” I replied. Nasa kwarto niya ‘ko para bantayan siya kaso dumating si Mama at pinauwi din niya ko.  Pero nung kinaumagahan, hindi na siya nakakausap. You can see the depth of his breath, hirap na hirap siya so my mother and her sisters decided to call an ambulance.  (fast forward) We all worried. Ang sabi kasi ng doctor na heart attack si Lolo and need to put a ventilator to help him breathe pero bago ‘yon, papatayin ka muna sa sakit dahil may ipapasok “lang naman” na tubo sa ‘yong lalamunan tsaka nilagyan siya ng nasogastric intubation para doon na kumain. Napakasakit na makita ‘yon para kay Lolo and I saw it with my two eyes. I saw the tears in his eyes. I pity him so much for that and my heart breaks into pieces. 2 weeks namin s’yang nakitang nag susuffer sa sakit nya; heart attack, lung infection and pneumonia was never easy for an 87 years old patient.  Talagang lumalaban s’ya sa sakit nya... gustong gusto nya pang mabuhay. Hanggang sa nailipat na siya from ICU to private room. Kami nang mga pinsan ko ang bantay pero hindi ka dapat matulog dahil from evening to morning gising ka dapat. It was hard for us to see our Lolo suffering from so much pain. He shouts every minute, his bones are too weak, he’s shouting “aray” or “masakit” everytime a nurse moved him to prevent bed sore.  Until the day comes, he’s now free, he doesn’t feel pain, no more suffering and the last thing.... He’s with God now.   Mahal na mahal ka namin Lolo. Sorry if I didn’t tell you that I love you so much before your last day in this world.  May 11, 2017

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Night swimming with the best people!!

Title palang alam mo nang kinikilig ako! HAHAHA!  It was indeed fun! The word “fun” isn’t enough to explain what I feel right now. Sobrang na enjoy ko yung night swimming although hindi kami nag overnight. It didn’t became boring. Hmmmm alcohol and night swimming, it’s a winning combination!  With the person I love, hehe sobra sobra yung kaligayahan ko. Super to the nth power! Hahahaha till next time!!!!  I also conquer the fear of slides! Hindi ko talaga gusto yon. I have fear of heights eh medyo mataas and mahaba haba yun, but with the help of him, I slide several times! Yehey! I don’t expect it that will happened. Thank you very much. 

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Seriously, I am really flattered when someone compliments me like this. Thank you! :))))))) Gusto ko naman ng violin. Pero wala akong pera pambili. So sad. 

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Paalam.

April 04, 2017   2:35 pm Masakit mag paalam sa taong kailangan ng umalis. Masakit mawalan ng taong minamahal. Lalo na kung kamag-anak natin. Hindi naman natin hawak ang mga buhay nila at ang Diyos na ang bahala kung ano ang purpose ng pag-alis nila.  April 3 ‘17 nagsimula akong magsulat dito. ‘Yun nga lang,  ‘di ko naman inaasahan na ganito pala ang mangyayari sa amin. Mawawalan pala kami ng mabait at makulit na tito. Nakakalungkot lang dahil nakita ng dalawang mata ko ang kanyang pag hihirap sa mundong ito. Ilang oras din siyang naghihingalo bago sya mawalan ng hininga. Napakagaling ng tito ko kung alam ninyo lang. Lagi nyang ipinamumukha sa lahat na okay lang sya at wala siyang dinadaing na sakit. Napaka tatag niya.  Madami na siyang napagdaanan na hirap kaya siguro gusto ng pagpahingain ng Diyos. We all know that God has plan for everyone. Kaya panatag na rin ang loob namin. Masakit man pero kailangan tanggapin. No more pain na ang tito ko. Malaya na siyang makakalakad sa langit. Kasama na niya ang aking Lola na kanyang Nanay. Memories will last forever. Mahal na mahal ka namin Tito. You’ll forever be in our hearts. 

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8:21 pm // April 3 ‘17

This is my second tumblr account. You can check my another account if you can find it. Hahaha. I just wanna post here my random thoughts because twitter have only 140 characters, so I can’t put all my dramas. :(((((