immortalityalone

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I’m not gonna add anymore to it, the post says enough lol

[immortalityalone]

Oooof This. For real!

“I had your back because you caught me when I fell, but I didn’t see you push me.”

— tara love / fake friends really bite you with your own trust

[immortalityalone]

Your feelings and words were all a pack of lies. You move on from one guy to the next like a filthy parasite. And I hate you for it, for making me believe I actually meant something to you. If I could choke slam you onto thin ice and drown us both, I would.

[immortalityalone]

The truth is

I know I love you

But it doesn’t matter.

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I still get lost in her eyes. Looking back at the time we spent together. It meant so much to me, but meant nothing to her.

“I get so lost in your eyes, I can’t find my way out.”

— tara love / drowning in you

[immortalityalone]

““Beware of her,” they say, “for we remember how carelessly she trampled over our hearts and how easily her laughter swept away the pieces.””

— tara love

[immortalityalone]

We fall in love with the fantasy they promise us, so we stay while they tear our reality to shreds.

[immortalityalone]

Walking the streets at night, thoughts of you invading my mind, why won’t you stop invading my thoughts? Why can’t I stop thinking of you? You don’t want me, you don’t love me, so why do I continue to hang onto to the rockface that is my love for you, and just plunge into the gaping abyss below? I don’t know. I love and o hate you, for making me feel should dreadful feelings for you. I loved you so much, so immensely that there honestly were no words to describe it. I saw you as my life partner, my soulmate, my wife, my best friend, my everything... and yet you treated me just like any other fuckboy, not worth your time, not worth a single call. No one, and I repeat this, no one, in this life or the next or the next will ever love you, as purely, as I do. Once did... Now my love for you is intermingled with darkness, a darkness I can’t escape from. Maybe, in the next life, we can try again, and succeed next time, to create the loving family we truly wanted, or at least, I thought you wanted.

D.

[immortalityalone]

I ache everyday I get up, the balls of my feet to my heels ache for minutes on end, until I get used to the pain and it fades away. I almost ended my life over her, I spent few nights with the muzzle of my 9mm pressed against my temple, crying, sobbing... here I am still struggling, living, without her, without you. I continue to live, not for you, but for myself. Because I worth so much more than what you put me through. I have so much love and kindness to give, I gave you all of me, and it wasn’t enough. Now, I hope you give everything to someone else over and over again, and they deem you the same, unworthy. Karma will keep punishing you, I’ve forgiven you, but the universe has not.

[immortalityalone]

I had to share this. This is so fucking true.

[immortalityalone]

“Answerless questions can destroy you. Move on.”

— David Levithan

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Why do I feel so lost? All I know is that I have to go wherever you’re not.

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Never fall in love again. Never let history repeat itself.

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Little did I know that the last time I’d ever hear you utter that you love me, that you were coming back, that I held you, and believed you down to my core, only to find out that your words were just lies. I look at the pictures we took and we both look so genuinely happy... It’s a shame. I know we could have been so much more.

[immortalityalone]

I wish I didn’t love you. 

I wish I could go back to the day I met you. 

I would’ve done things differently. 

Because you never loved me and I always knew that. 

But I couldn’t stop holding out hope for some pathetic reason. 

It was like fighting a war I was gonna lose. 

I was the lonely solider on the bloody, forgotten, field and you 

were the final gunshot to my chest. 

You were the death of me. 

[immortalityalone]

“The soul will heal itself, but our heart tends to ache and our mind likes to scream.”

— tara love / breathe for a second, even if it’s difficult