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I confuse people. i have a happy personality and a sad soul. i'm bold but shy. i love deeply but sometimes i feel heartless. i'm healing and hurting at the same time. i'm dedicated to growth, but i self sabotage

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“She is a poem if you hold her right.”

– Jay Vespertine [Inspired from L. Zuniga]

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I let you into my heart, and I watched you destroy it.

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“Strength grows in the moments when you think you can’t go on but you keep going anyway.”

— Unknown

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“It always takes two. For relationships to work, for them to break apart, for them to be fixed.”

— Emily Giffin

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“So, if you are too tired to speak, sit next to me because I, too, am fluent in silence.”

— R. Arnold

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letting the people around me

take advantage of the kindness and love

that i have deep inside me,

letting them take pieces of me

every time they needed one.

trying my best to prove everyone

of things i can do,

until my body feels exhausted,

almost giving up

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“I’m independent and strong, but sometimes…just sometimes, it’s nice to be taken care of.”

— Samantha Towle

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It's exhausting...

to understand people who don't understand me.

to listen to him, and he won't listen to me.

to care for him and not to be taken care of.

to be worried about him and not get worried even a tiny bit about me.

to love him, so dearly, and cannot get the same love I'm giving.

to always be there for him and never for me.

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I cannot even say what I'm feeling right now...

Too scared I will get judgment and opinions I can't accept.

Too many questions needed to be asked but too afraid to tell.

What do I do?

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“Don’t let Negative and Toxic people rent space in your head.”

— Zig Ziglar

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A disaster to be exact..

“But never have I been a blue calm sea. I have always been a storm.”

— Stevie Nicks

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“I wonder how many times each day she dies a little.”

— Libba Bray, A Great and Terrible Beauty

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And it's exhausting..

Too many thoughts for one brain, too many anxieties for one heart.