imthebiggestfuckup

[imthebiggestfuckup]

I don’t wish a great life upon you. But I also don’t wish a bad one. I wish you live. I wish you your greatest moments. I wish you a breakdown in the kitchen at 2 in the morning for whatever reason. I’m done carrying around this anger towards you. I don’t have that kind of energy anymore lol. I’ve learned and I’ve moved on. Forgive but never forget

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I can say all day long how angry I am and how bad we were together in the end, but do you remember when it was good?

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I think I’ve finally passed sad and am now just angry

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My body hurts. You’re the only person who knows what I mean when I say this... idk how to fix myself this time

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I literally am crying over the fact that I told Becca I was uncomfortable with her doing something so she’s not going to do it... and she didn’t tell me that me being uncomfortable with something wasn’t a valid enough reason to stop. She didn’t try to tell me that she’ll be left out if she doesn’t do this. I know she isn’t going to go behind my back and lie to me about it...

You know what’s funny? You still think we broke up because I was uncomfortable with you transitioning… when in reality it is because anytime I opened my mouth about anything it was ‘you don’t know what you’re talking about’ ‘if you aren’t going through it you have no input’… anytime I suggested anything it was that I didn’t know what I was talking about. You think we broke up cause we were toxic for eachother but in reality I wasn’t giving you exactly what you wanted so you became very toxic… You think I just need to go to therapy when in reality I just needed my fiancé to listen to what I was saying. You think that I was the bad guy when in reality I bent over backwards to accommodate you and you didn’t do shit for me… do you remember when me being uncomfortable with something turned into not a good enough reason? Not just about smoking with someone I didn’t want you smoking with (and then lying to me about it multiple times) but when I didn’t want to have sex so you laid in the twin bed next to me and got yourself off… that’s why we broke up… we broke up cause you didn’t not respect me anymore. I became just another person. You did not care how I felt anymore cause your problems over took mine… they always had but The difference is that I had had enough. I don’t think you’ll ever truly understand but I hope for anyone else you date that you keep this in mind… maybe one day you will truly change. And this probably doesn’t even make sense fully or is all over the place but here it is…

So maybe that’s the part of yourself you should apologize for bb

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You know what’s funny? You still think we broke up because I was uncomfortable with you transitioning... when in reality it is because anytime I opened my mouth about anything it was ‘you don’t know what you’re talking about’ ‘if you aren’t going through it you have no input’... anytime I suggested anything it was that I didn’t know what I was talking about. You think we broke up cause we were toxic for eachother but in reality I wasn’t giving you exactly what you wanted so you became very toxic... You think I just need to go to therapy when in reality I just needed my fiancé to listen to what I was saying. You think that I was the bad guy when in reality I bent over backwards to accommodate you and you didn’t do shit for me... do you remember when me being uncomfortable with something turned into not a good enough reason? Not just about smoking with someone I didn’t want you smoking with (and then lying to me about it multiple times) but when I didn’t want to have sex so you laid in the twin bed next to me and got yourself off... that’s why we broke up... we broke up cause you didn’t not respect me anymore. I became just another person. You did not care how I felt anymore cause your problems over took mine... they always had but The difference is that I had had enough. I don’t think you’ll ever truly understand but I hope for anyone else you date that you keep this in mind... maybe one day you will truly change. And this probably doesn’t even make sense fully or is all over the place but here it is...

So maybe that’s the part of yourself you should apologize for bb

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Jk your shit is gone

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Happy anniversary I guess

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Am I allowed to tag my ex or like... is that too much 😂

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“Call me and tell me you miss me. Call me and tell me I’m on your mind as much as you are on mine.”

— (via flame)

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