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once you stop caring about looking embarrassing, looking "like an idiot", looking stupid, and looking cringe, you get your life back. i'm saying this as a PTSD survivor with Dissociative Identity Disorder and severe generalized anxiety, not a neurotypical writing hokey fake positivity posts. i've been in these trenches for decades. i know what it feels like to constantly worry about how everyone else is looking at you and thinking about you. i wasn't living. i wasn't interacting with my life. i wasn't interacting with the real versions of people who were living and breathing all around me.

worrying about how other people perceive you is not living your life. you're living in a constructed version of reality that only exists in your head. the more you interact with it, the less you interact with the real, breathing world that is evolving and changing around you. we experience millions, if not billions of different and unique experiences throughout our lifetimes. every waking moment is a new experience waiting to be acknowledged and interacted with. you will never truly know how someone feels until you ask them- but the big question here is why does that matter to you?

someone else's feelings are theirs. they are deeply personal and have nothing to do with your own feelings. someone else's feelings do not change or overwrite your own. they are not a reflection of who you actually are. everyone has a different interpretation of people, events, and things. everyone. one person may think what you did was embarrassing, the person next to them may not have even noticed what you did or said, and the person next to them might have thought what you did was cool or even just normal. you don't know how they feel unless they tell you. let go of it. don't fuss over it.

worry about your life- your real life. the one you can impact and change, not the one that only exists inside of your own head. don't hold yourself back over potential thoughts and feelings. other people's thoughts are their own. they're allowed to have them. you can't turn people into thought criminals like that. live your life. you have to choose to move on in order to actually do so. it doesn't just come to you- anxiety doesn't just go away on its own. you have to choose to take these steps toward bettering your life. and you will thank yourself. trust me. it will be worth it.

your life is worth living, experiencing, and enjoying. you deserve a life that isn't cowering in fear.

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Actually I know I promote smoking like no tmr but SERIOUSLY younger trans men and enbies who would consider top surgery in the future stay the fuck away from tobacco products until well after surgery, the chemical dependanty is easy to start and is HARD TO END. And to get top surgery you will be required to quit nicotine 6 months in advance because the chemicals in cigarettes prevent your body and lungs from healing properly, leading to a higher risk of complications or infections. I myself have struggled to quit and it's still actively something I'm struggling with because it's so incredibly hard to quit. Don't prevent yourself from a better future because of immediate pleasures yk. I want y'all to get that surgery. At least it's not the same for weed tho u only need to kick that for a couple weeks so just stick to pot and be responsible

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Happy pride month 🥰

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having drunken 2am food with a friend of mine and the cursed sentence came into my head of

"actually that's what 2am is for, getting your holes filled- and it simply depends on what end and what friend"

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It me! 🏳️‍⚧️😘😎🔥����

Happy trans day of visibility! I'm genderfluid and trans masculine- and my pronouns are it/he! 🏳️‍⚧️❤️ 🩵🩷💟🩷🩵

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dragon melting glass in its mouth and blowing bubbles with it

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idk who needs to hear this rn but suffering is not noble. take the tylenol

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drew over something i wrote for a class and liked :] sorry the cars are lowkey ugly, its because I fucking hate cars and cant be bothered to learn what they look like beyond ominous hunks of metal

edit: transcript of the poem by itself under the cut

6 Tips for Crossing the Road

Look both ways

The road is for cars. 

Make sure to look for them before crossing. Even when you have the right of way, cars have a lot of safety features and you have none. 

Use designated crosswalks 

The road is for cars. 

So is the crosswalk but, under brief and temporary conditions, you can use it too! Never jaywalk, never walk in the road, just hope there is a clear and functional sidewalk. 

Cross at the light

The road is for cars. 

There are rules and signs for them, but that can only go so far. Walk quickly and hold your breath and hope that the light doesn't turn. Make eye contact with drivers as their cars teem with potential energy, rumbling with disdain at the inconvenience of your crossing. Try to ignore the cloud of exhaust that you are in and they are above. 

Leash your pets

The road is for cars. 

Obviously. 

To you, it may be natural to sacrifice so much space to them but to your dog, it is not. His instinct is to explore freely. You must curb it. Modern US car models have such high hoods that the average child, let alone dog, is obscured. Even on the sidewalk, hold the leash tight because the sidewalk (if you are so blessed) is next to the street and the threat still looms.

Look out for road kill

The road is for cars. 

And no one was there to leash the deer. 

Or the raccoon. 

Or the cat. 

Did you know that the most reliable sample method for wildlife in an area is looking at the roadkill? 

Remember these tips

The road is for cars. 

Cars are everywhere. In the city. In the suburbs. In the country. In the woods (the US Forest Service manages more roads than the entire Ministry of Transit in China.) Cars are everywhere because there are roads to bring them there, which is great if you are a car and want to get from place to place fast without worrying about the in-between. 

Unfortunately, you are not a car. 

You are an animal. 

You are in-between. 

So remember to look both ways. 

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It would be so lovely to spend time transcribing these stories/histories, I'm sure it's already being done but that just sounds like a nice way to spend a day

And what do I know, maybe some families don't want them transcribed, or recorded beyond oral history. But it's a lovely thing to daydream about, spending all day listening to stories

Something that I get chills about is the fact that the oldest story told made by the oldest civilization opens with "In those days, in those distant days, in those ancient nights."

This confirms that there is a civilization older than the Sumerians that we have yet to find

Some people get existential dread from this

Me? I think it's fucking awesome it shows just how much of this world we have yet to discover and that is just fascinating

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"that time of the month" "monthly visitor" "feminine hygiene products" GRRAH!!! SHUT UP SHUT UP!!! PERIOD!! MENSTRUATION!!!! TAMPONS!!! PADS!! MENOPAUSE!!!!!!!!!!!

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The worst part of having roommates is being unable to take your everything shower at 2am like mother earth intended

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Pic by @kirakat-xo 🥰

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Something I find incredibly cool is that they’ve found neandertal bone tools made from polished rib bones, and they couldn’t figure out what they were for for the life of them. 

Until, of course, they showed it to a traditional leatherworker and she took one look at it and said “Oh yeah sure that’s a leather burnisher, you use it to close the pores of leather and work oil into the hide to make it waterproof. Mine looks just the same.” 

“Wait you’re still using the exact same fucking thing 50,000 years later???”

“Well, yeah. We’ve tried other things. Metal scratches up and damages the hide. Wood splinters and wears out. Bone lasts forever and gives the best polish. There are new, cheaper plastic ones, but they crack and break after a couple years. A bone polisher is nearly indestructible, and only gets better with age. The more you use a bone polisher the better it works.”

It’s just. 

50,000 years. 50,000. And over that huge arc of time, we’ve been quietly using the exact same thing, unchanged, because we simply haven’t found anything better to do the job. 

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do you ever just suddenly feel the weight of more years of exhaustion than you’ve been alive

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(repeated like a mantra while rubbing my temples) i will stay silly and not allow the world to make me bitter and cruel. i will stay silly and not allow the world to make me bitter and cruel. i wi

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There once was a doctor named Freud

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they say they love insects but they hate wasps and mosquitoes