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continuing the salaryman kdj series...

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i am a Sucker for scenarios where someone encounters their younger/other self and has the opportunity to give them the compassion and understanding they haven't received.

but I am also, and possibly even more, a Sucker for scenarios where someone encounters their younger/other self and uses it as an opportunity to externalize absolutely horrifying levels of self-loathing

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fake orv poster based on the one from the movie "the invisible man"

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I had a stroke earlier today and made this. YHK vs orv fanfiction. Enjoy ✍️

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love these fools💖

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Sparkle On! It's Wednesday!

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At your beck and call (rendering this gave me five headaches but thats ok

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the weight of the world

aaaaa yoohan yoohhan arurgrrghg yoooohannn oauagghhhh aughh euughhrhrhh yoohannn yoohannnn when the yoo and the ha

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kim dokja's thoughts about yoo joonghyuk during the 41st shin yoosoung fight really sort of epitomize his accidental cruelty during this period of the novel to me. shin yoosoung states that she 'hates [yoo joonghyuk] for living alone in this world', because it prevented them from forming a real relationship - a reiteration of orv's theme that isolating yourself will only hurt yourself and others. this isolation and it's detrimental effects are something kim dokja recognizes in yoo joonghyuk and is quite insistent on preventing it. he tries to get yoo joonghyuk to see the world as real again, to see his companions as true friends rather than characters simply repeating their lines. but the way he does this is somewhat suspect. he places people like lee seolwha in front of yoo joonghyuk and does his best to smush them together like a kid playing dolls. he repeats lines he knows will affect the character yoo joonghyuk. he places building blocks for a happy ending. and due to a parallel isolation to yoo joonghyuk's own he himself stays out of this plan to make yoo joonghyuk friends, content to play a vaguely paternalistic role from behind the curtains.

but of course this does not work, and yoo joonghyuk ignores the pieces placed in front of him to loudly declare kim dokja his companion, sending shin yoosoung into a rage. of course this should be exactly what kim dokja has been gunning for - yoo joonghyuk is acknowledging others as real again, he's made friends, kim dokja should be glowing like a proud father. except the chords he struck somehow made the wrong tune and now kim dokja's involved where he shouldn't be! so kim dokja continues telling yoo joonghyuk how to feel. he couldnt actually care about kim dokja, he must be lying. he must be wrong. no one could actually care about him. the plan is working but kim dokja pretends it isnt! he barrels into yoo joonghyuk's life and makes him care again and then denies it ever happened! its hypocritical! its cruel! orv shows 41st shin yoosoung and says look at what happens when you deny someone companionship, when you hold yourself apart, and then kim dokja does just that in the next breath! it's horrible, what kim dokja does to yoo joonghyuk here. and it's a cruelty that will continue the rest of the novel.

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The most unrealistic part of orv is that dokja's special interest is actually helpful

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Small sketches with Kim Dokja

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how uriel spent her time in isolation

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i love how kdj is cringe as fuck. he loves his dumb novel and his dumb modifier and hes easily impressed by the showmanship of the jttw ads and he loves his dumb car and he loves his cringe protag and he loves superhero movies.

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happy birthday as well to my love!!! my sweet!!!! the loml HSY!!! 💜🍋

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