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@antwontanner2214 Me and my sis from another mother #hilarieburton 😁😁❤️❤️❤️

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Love this show

#a serious show about murder

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What happens once you kill yourself? Because I'm ready to go.

You wanna know what happens once you kill yourself? Your mother comes home from work and finds her baby dead and she screams and runs over to you and tries to get you to wake up but you won’t and she keeps screaming and shaking you and her tears are dripping onto your face and your dad hears all the screaming and runs into the room and he can’t even speak because the child that he loved and the child that he watched grow up is gone forever and finally your little sister runs into the room to see what all the fuss is about and she sees you dead. The person she looked up to and loved. The person she bragged about to  her friends, the person she wanted to be just like when she grew up, the person that made her feel safe. But she’s never really going to get to grow up and smile and laugh and love because she’ll always be consumed with this feeling of missing you. And now there’s something missing from your family and they can barely look at each other anymore because everything reminds them of you but you’re gone and hurts more than anything. and you think that your mom never cared because she was always busy and yelling at you to finish your homework and clean your room and forgot to say I love you sometimes but really, she loved you more than anything and she doesn’t leave the house anymore, she can’t even get out of bed and she’s getting thinner and thinner because it’s too hard to eat. Your father had to quit his job and he doesn’t sleep anymore, every time he closes his eyes he sees his baby dead, and the image never goes away no matter how much alcohol he drinks. And at school your best friend sees that your seat is empty and she gets this sick feeling in her stomach and that’s when she hears the announcement. You killed yourself. And suddenly she’s screaming and crying in the middle of class and no one even bothers comforting because they’re all  busy sitting there staring at your empty seat with tears dripping down their cheeks and all she wants is for you to hug her and tell her it’s gonna be okay like you always did, but this time, you’re not there to do it, everything is dark now that you’re gone and her grades are slipping, she barely goes to school anymore and she ended up in hospital after taking too many pills because she wanted to see you again. the girls who used to make fun of the way you dressed feel their throats get tight, they don’t talk to each other anymore, they don’t talk to anyone, they’re all in therapy trying so hard not to blame themselves but nothing works. and your teacher who always gave you a hard time stares blankly at the wall, she quits her job a few days later. And then your boyfriend hears the news and he can’t breathe, he still calls you a lot just to hear your voice and he talks to you on facebook but you never message him back, he can’t fall in love again because every girl he meets reminds him of you, he’s never going to get over you, he loved you and he cries himself to sleep every night, hating himself and slicing his skin because he couldn’t save you and he’s never going to hold you in his arms or hear you laugh again. Now everyone who knew you, whether they were a big part of your life or someone you passed in the hallway a few times a week, they carry this aching feeling around inside them because you’re gone, and they miss you, and they don’t know why you left but it must’ve been their fault and they should’ve stopped you and they should’ve told you they loved you more and that feeling is never going to go away. And so you killed yourself

but you killed everyone else around you too. 

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Has anyone else ever noticed that the only season of One Tree Hill without any type of car accident is season 7? S1- Lucas's accident with Keith S2- Nathan crashes the race car S3- Rachel and Cooper go off the bridge in the limo S4- Haley gets hit by Daunte S5- Nanny Carrie runs over Dan S6- Peyton's car gets hit while she's pregnant S8- Lauren crashes the car with Jamie and Chuck & Brooke tries to save them S9- Julian leaves their baby in the car on accident while he's in a meeting

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No it doesn't! I definitely need to now! Geez!!

High chairs are not safe

So I made chicken nuggets for dinner, right? I know, lazy. But that’s how I’m feeling today. Anyways, as I’m making my 3 year old daughters plate I hear her scream from the dining room-she’s usually over dramatic but for some reason I felt this time was serious- so I go to check it out. I find my 10 month old daughter sitting in the middle of the dining room table. SHE CLIMBED OUT OF HER HIGH CHAIR, CRAWLED ACROSS THE TRAY AND WAS JUST SITTING THERE STARING. Babies are so fucking weird. Like what the hell? HOW DID SHE EVEN DO THAT? Did I mention the high chair was as tight as it could go? WTF?

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Love them both ❤️

“We taught Taylor how to be a spy.” -Luna @EllenPompeo

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High chairs are not safe

So I made chicken nuggets for dinner, right? I know, lazy. But that's how I'm feeling today. Anyways, as I'm making my 3 year old daughters plate I hear her scream from the dining room-she's usually over dramatic but for some reason I felt this time was serious- so I go to check it out. I find my 10 month old daughter sitting in the middle of the dining room table. SHE CLIMBED OUT OF HER HIGH CHAIR, CRAWLED ACROSS THE TRAY AND WAS JUST SITTING THERE STARING. Babies are so fucking weird. Like what the hell? HOW DID SHE EVEN DO THAT? Did I mention the high chair was as tight as it could go? WTF?

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Omg lol

so i was watching the rugrats movie for the first time in like 10 years and

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My favorite quote from my favorite show!

Quentin Fields was a basketball player. He was also a son. A brother. Somebody’s teammate.  Somebody’s friend. I never knew Quentin Fields and I guess now I never will. Did you ever wonder what it would be like if you weren’t you anymore? If you were suddenly gone how would your world react? Whatever you imagined was wrong. There’s nothing romantic about death. Grief is like the ocean: it’s deep and dark and bigger than all of us. And pain is like a thief in the night. Quiet. Persistent. Unfair. Diminished by time and faith and love. I didn’t know Quentin Fields but I’m jealous of him because I see how his absence has affected the people that did know him so I know that he did matter to them. And I know he was loved. People say Quentin Fields was a great basketball player. Graceful. Fluid. Inspiring. They say on a good night it almost seemed as though he could fly. And now he can.

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Reasons why my kids are fighting with one another:

Someone looked at someone else “in a not nice way”

Someone was being annoying

My daughter is singing in a voice that my sons deems to be too high pitched

My son is playing with a toy he doesn’t like, just so my daughter can’t have it.

My daughter is touching my son’s things and he doesn’t like it.

When I asked them to clean-up the play room , my son didn’t want my daughter to clean-up any of his toys. Then he got mad because she wasn’t helping him clean. 

We went for a swim and when my daughter jumped in the water, my son felt that she intentionally tried to splash him and get him wet. Despite that fact that they were both in the pool and already wet.

Then my son was mad because my daughter was swimming too quickly

My daughter got upset because my son was using her towel. So I had two kids fighting over a wet towel while a nice fresh dry one was sitting on a chair. 

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Girls vs Boy

Sitting in my recliner watching my 10 month old, and my best friends one year old argue over a bottle. My child being the sassy shit that she is stole it right out of his hands, he started screaming, she gives it back, and then my 3 year old takes it away from him and gives it back to her sister. And he just cries. He doesn't try to get it back, he just sits Indian style with a look of pure horror on his face as he screams and screams and then....oh wait Octonauts is on. *pays attention for 30 seconds* and oh, he's screaming again. Oh lovely now I have to change a poop.

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To you..everything's funny, you got nothing to regret, I'd give all I have honey, for you to stay like that.

“Your little hand’s wrapped around my finger and it’s so quiet in the world tonight…”

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how do i uninstall anxiety

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ME. Beware little midgets 👀

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Baby fever?

I have this problem where I already have a 3 year old and a 10 month old and for some reason I still have baby fever? I don't understand it because I love sleep & I already don't get any. I hate shitty diapers & I already change 1-6 a day. My life already revolves around two midget shedevils...SO WTF IS MY PROBLEM?

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*Watching Bad Blood music video*

C: Mommy that's me, right? *points to Taylor Swift and puts up fists in a I'm going to knock your ass out motion* Mommy: Sure honey, that can be you. She's 3.