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crying bc i love natalie tran / communitychannel

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Also bc I have always been fairly private, even when I had way more followers and was way more active on my original tumblr. Like I shared stuff, but there was stuff I was like “yeah I’m not posting that.” Though if I think about it, I used to share so much more. But anyway the point is that as I’ve become older, I’ve become even more private about it because the world doesn’t deserve to know all this about me!

And I know that if I get rid of tumblr and only use fb and ig as my main social media, I won’t have a place to just type out some #feelings because I would NEVER do that on fb (and on ig it would just be to like a certain extent lol, only so much #radicalvulnerability allowed), but I think that’s okay, because every time I open a new post to share feelings like that I either end up deleting the post before posting or like, not even writing it at all lol.

But I don’t doubt that I’ll eventually blog somewhere else and finally live out my longform dreams on a consistent basis (I do have a blog associated w my yt/ig/teacher vlogger life, but I don’t really update it much).

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Also anytime I think about why I use this sideblog instead of the main blog connected to this account, I get slightly annoyed bc I remember a man is the reason I did that (bc he was being creepy and kept looking me up, if you don’t remember the #drama). And posting to a sideblog is kind of annoying, so that’s another reason lol.

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considering closin out on this tumblr, tumblr altogether (except maybe to keep up with my mutuals? that would probably taper off too though) soon

I never use it anyway, and every time I have a thought I might want to share I think to myself “But I don’t want to put out my good ideas on tumblr.” And it’s not satisfying anymore. I am Old (not really) and while “real life” isn’t to the point where it has taken over everything, there are other avenues where I want to spend my time I think. Like, I purposefully follow a tiny amt of people and that’s fine.. but it’s just one more place to refresh (and see no new content), instead of meaningful? Like I don’t even mean any ~deep meaning, I just mean like... any purpose lol.

I don’t doubt that I’ll find my way back to blogging (I haven’t even really done that on tumblr in like years anyway, tbh) in the future, but it’ll probably be... something more substantial than tumblr.

I’ve been like thinking about this for a while on and off, not really seriously, but as I’ve been writing this post out, I’m feeling more like yeah.. I’m gonna just... stop using tumblr slowly soon.

SO

if we are mutuals and we’ve followed each other for a long while (pretty much everyone I’m in mutuals with on this tumblr) you are totally allowed to ask me for my facebook or instagram

(I know it seems like I could just post my instagram on here directly but it uses my youtube username and like, I don’t want all my disparate social media, especially one that could eventually be used as like a professional resume sort of thing with one thats so casual, easily linked to each other. got to make the googlers work hard)

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Thank u Stance App. Totally made leaving a message easier. Resistbot seems pretty overwhelmed rn, so if you’re fine with recording your voice but don’t want to call your reps in real time, use Stance App!

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So many of y'all have like 0 empathy for children it’s honestly terrifying

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Here it is: Best stuff first

Extremely handy if you follow a lot of people and hate missing anything good. 

Best Stuff First moves the best stuff on your dashboard—mhm!—right up to the top. 

It’s rolling out this week on iOS and Android, and comes with this Help Center article.  

Thanks! ✌️

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Depends on the lore but tbh these are some good questions to think abt in worldbuilding lol

Like in Buffy when everyone had fled town, vampires could cross thresholds without permission bc the homes were abandoned/no longer really homes

What she says: I’m fine

What she means: Can vampires enter rented spaces? I don’t own my apartment, so do I have the rights to invite a vampire into my house, or does the landlord? Or does anyone have the power to invite a vampire into any residence? Vampires can enter public spaces without invitation, but what about hotels? What about small businesses where the owners live in back or on the floor above? What public spaces even remain in the hellacape of late capitalism?

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nothing makes me feel more dumb than taking my car in

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@susurrations

Oh my goodness, congratulations!!!!!!!

thank you! <3

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pls no evil eye but

and this is okay to share bc the only people i know irl who follow me already know basically so its fine lol, thank u for this quiet little corner of the internet so I don’t have to feel like people will be peeking at my life when i dont want them to i just want to record nice things !

We visited a venue today and we didn’t sign anything, but we both like it, and I am hoping it’s the one we settle on. It’s beautiful and small and quiet and, I think, very us. It’s not loud or extravagant and the reception area is tiny and we could actually afford to pay it all ourselves, though I think my dad is going to try to pay maybe. It was a nice day and it was a nice drive there and it was wonderful and nice and just great. And also I enjoy long drives with L anyway, so that was a nice part of the day, too. I don’t think anything has completely hit me yet and there really isn’t enough going on yet to make it really feel like it’s all happening, but that’s what happens when you take forever to act on what was said, maybe. And also, in a way, I wouldn’t have it any other way, because that also feels very us. I’m a little surprised that I don’t feel any sort of “I can’t believe this is really happening, things are actually moving along on this planning front” feelings, but I think that’s because we are kind of very comfortable where we are and everything feels like this is the right pace to move along at and that just makes everything feel better and more certain. I’m happy.

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I’m really proud of myself for sticking through the whole first month of Insanity without modifying the calendar at all, but I don’t think I’m going to do the 2nd month just yet. Like, I pretty much could never wake up in time to do the first month’s workouts before work and would have to do them after work, and I dunno that I wanna do that with the longer videos in the 2nd month.

I’ve been taking it easy with stretches and yoga for a few days. I just did Adriene’s “yoga for teachers” and it made me think maybe what I’ll do is figure out some sort of 15-25 minute cardio-focused workout that I can do in the mornings bc I’ll prob be able to get up in time for that before work and then wind down after work with a long yoga video.

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do kids these days know about grace kelly by mika

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i’m rdy 2 b married so that i can disappoint white people with my non-colorful wedding dress in my wedding pictures

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Malayalis outside Kerala don’t say “Hi. What’s your name ?”, instead, they say “Natil evideya ?” and I think that’s beautiful. 

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Going to own up to this. I can’t talk about it, can’t say much, but. I spent all of tonight (it’s 7:35 AM as I write and schedule this for prime time hours when I am likely to be out cold) sleuthing about the Fictionpress account. Hardcore fucking sleuthing. And for a while I thought I was going to have something I could use to really tear into and disprove some new updates, but then I got to the end of the rabbit hole. And at the end of the rabbit hole, I found proof that it is genuine, and I also found Tara herself. I won’t go into any more details to protect her privacy, but I do need to own up to the fact I was wrong about this profile. Not necessarily about my evidence, just the conclusions I reached with a lot of it–cynicism got the better of me there. I’ve also apologized to marauders4evr for going off on her quite so hard when early on it seemed she was the perp.

I, This Charming Mothman, was wrong about XXXblakblodytearz666XXX/Fokenprepz. But, I am right about My Immortal being a trollfic and nothing we’ve seen here disproves any of the arguments in my 14,000 word essay on the matter, which you can find here. This shit is still my wheelhouse and I am still more knowledgeable on the topic than any one human being should be, and the author’s decision to be evasive about answering things is not evidence one way or another, which leaves my arguments to stand. But as the world’s leading My Immortal scholar (as named by other people, I swear) I put my complete faith and endorsement behind XXXblakblodytearzXXX as the real author of My Immortal.