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I so badly and desperately want to be in my son's life but I can not bring him into my familys world I can't do that

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all you seem to care about is yourself and I get you're going through a rough time right now but that doesn't mean you get to treat me like shit. I'm dealing with plenty of my own shit right now but I'm still going out of my way to help you

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I'm so tired of you at this point honestly

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I kinda feel a little like I'm gonna pass out

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i should just go home, get out of andrews hair. i was supposed to come to help him and make him feel better and now im just a burden on him he doesnt need. i should just go home and stay in bed itll be better for everyone

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i miss him i need him here i cant breathe i cant breathe i cant breathe i cant breathe i cant breathe i cant breathe i cant breathe i cant breathe i cant breathe i cant breathe i cant breathe i cant bre

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I still can't breathe

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every since he said that I feel like all the air has been squeezed out of my lungs. i can't speak. i can't breathe. i want to go home and curl up in bed but Matts there and I can't tell him until I'm sure. I don't want him to leave

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I hope you all fall in love with someone who never stops choosing you and I hope you feel at home when you look at them

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I think the last time I took my meds for my shoulder before this morning was like, Friday maybe? I've been trying to deal with the pain on my own and skipping pt because I want to do this on my own. I'm not a baby, and I am not broken. I am fine. I am okay.

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i can’t believe i kissed him last night

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i want to kis s him so badly fuck

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God I want you so bad but you have so many better options

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I haven't stopped working in almost seventeen years how am I supposed to do this