irenel

[irenel]

And I guess this is the end to our never started story..

[irenel]

I think what I’ve realised is that everyone within my life sees me differently, as much as I tried to have everyone see me in the same positive way it’s impossible. I can’t control people’s thinking, and that’s life ig.

[irenel]

My goal is to get at least one within this lifetime.

Handwritten love letters will never go out of style.

[irenel]

Exactly, it may hurt but that’s life. You can’t force someone’s feelings, thats not love.

Normalize not forcing people to choose you. If they think they can find better elsewhere – let them. Respectfully.

[irenel]

I give up at this point, what is there left?

[irenel]

I finally trust someone, I finally feel wanted but ofc it didn’t last long.

I’m so sick and tired of being left on delivered, being promised it won’t happen again and putting more in then everyone else.

When will it end…

[irenel]

You really are, and I think it shouldn’t be taken advantage of.

you're so lucky when you have someone who genuinely wants to talk to you everyday.

[irenel]

I hate humans.

[irenel]

Sometimes making fake scenarios is the only way I can feel a bit of happiness, even if that burst of joy only last for a small length of time.

[irenel]

Yes, good time to get sick.

[irenel]

And I guess I can never really rely on anyone, because they’re so quick to go when something doesn’t benefit them, leaving me alone.

[irenel]

Why can’t I just have a first lead moment at least once. Why am I always just a side character in even my story.

[irenel]

I need to promise myself that these will be the last moments I put in effort. There’s no point anymore

[irenel]

The walls in my room have formed into my best friends.

[irenel]

And I’m left alone, again..

[irenel]

Just a side character in everyone’s stories as I live with no purpose.

[irenel]

I feel important for a second but that spark of feeling wanted leaves instantly.