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asking uni prof. who think they are God's gift to earth something when you have slightly fucked up is so embarassing

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they should invent an apartment that has huge windows but is never too hot and is near everything i like and all my friends but is also quiet when i want it to be and costs zero dollars or perhaps they pay me to live in. and they save it just for me so i dont have to look for it :)

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ugh. forget everything i’ve ever said. unless you thought it was smart or funny in which case remember it forever

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literally half the reason i tag stuff on here is so i can go back and browse my own blog. i am my blog’s #1 fan

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what helps me the most is physically writting down my feelings and yet and yettt i act like i am being sent to a guillotine every time

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one thing about me is that I'm looking stuff up. you mentioned something and I don't know it? I am pulling out my phone and googling that shit. an actor? theoretical physics? a world leader? a vocabulary word? I am on the wikipedia page as we speak

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Light, shadow, and reflection in the heat wave

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UFO Photograph ~ Switzerland (1975) by Billy Meier ~ The flying saucer that would later hang in Fox Mulder’s office

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the thing about pasquale is he would've hated to have made it .he was not only used to suffering he embraced it and if he somehow became a part of nadia's world and not vice versa he would hate it and wouldn't know how to behave

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Nobody talks about how it's actually really hard to do it scared and bored

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“We are living in a culture entirely hypnotized by the illusion of time, in which the so-called present moment is felt as nothing but an infinitesimal hairline between an all-powerfully causative past and an absorbingly important future. We have no present. Our consciousness is almost completely preoccupied with memory and expectation. We do not realize that there never was, is, nor will be any other experience than present experience. We are therefore out of touch with reality. We confuse the world as talked about, described, and measured with the world which actually is. We are sick with a fascination for the useful tools of names and numbers, of symbols, signs, conceptions and ideas.”

— Alan Watts

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'you think too much about everything'

okay well you don't think enough and it shows

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me when i go walking on sunny days and end up on a tree lined street and look up at the gaps of sunlight and miss you more than anything

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His children. What a responsible father. And the one I carried in my belly?

Washing Machine Heart, Mitsky // My Brilliant Friend // Elena Ferrante, The Story of the Lost Child

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THE GOOD PLACE (2016–2020) S02E04 | Existential Crisis

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THE NANNY (1993-1999)

4x14 | “The Fifth Wheel”

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the ear nose and throat being all connected is so heinous