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My heart broke. I moved out of home and into the city and I made new friends and I started to realize that no-one is just good or bad, that everyone is both. I started to discover in a profound, scary, blood-aching way who I was when I was alone, what I did when I did things only for myself. I was reckless and graceless and terrifying and tender. I threw sprawling parties and sat in restaurants until the early hours, learning what it’s like to be an adult, even talking like one sometimes, until I caught myself. All I wanted to do was dance. I whispered into ears and let my eyes blaze on high and for the first time I felt this intimate, empire-sized inner power.

Lorde, A NOTE FROM THE DESK OF A NEWBORN ADULT (2016)

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Sea In Winter / Demi Ev.

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E.E. Cummings, Complete Poems, 1904-1962

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“‘I exist.’ In thousands of agonies–I exist. I’m tortured on the rack–but I exist! Although I sit alone–I exist! I see the sun, and if I don’t see the sun, I know it’s there. And there’s a whole life in that, in knowing that the sun is there.”

— The Brothers Karamazov, Fyodor Dostoyevsky (via 1-800-ghoulster)

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Mary Oliver, “Wild Geese”

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High Cup Nick, North Pennines, Cumbria, England.

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I thought I could stop The incessant hum

By moving from city To city,

By starving clean The body.

The miraculous leveling out Of meaning.

Obsessive archiving and collecting As a means to stop the tremulating drone

Of memory, the diamond-white Rush of doom.

— Cynthia Cruz, “Bell in the Water,” Dregs

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“And earth was honey that babbled and senses were the wind,”

— George Sarandaris, tr. by Kimon Friar, from Modern Greek Poetry; “The Flowers Passed Beyond Sleep,”

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Aracelis Girmay

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level of concern—

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Panic on the brain, world has gone insane

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when everything is safe i will come over and teach you how to DM. this works for now though

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stressed out // nico and the niners // level of concern

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Tyler and Josh said: hanging out with friends IS NOT social distancing. And they were right. Stay safe. We’ll be alright.