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Chapters: 19/19 Fandom: Supernatural Rating: Explicit Warnings: No Archive Warnings Apply Relationships: Dean Winchester & Sam Winchester, Bobby Singer & Dean Winchester & Sam Winchester, Bobby Singer & Dean Winchester, Castiel/Dean Winchester, Dean Winchester/Other(s) Characters: Dean Winchester, Castiel (Supernatural), Bobby Singer, Sam Winchester Additional Tags: Alternate Universe - College/University, College Student Dean Winchester, Professor Castiel, Openly Gay Castiel (Supernatural), Closeted Dean Winchester, Bisexual Dean Winchester, Mental Health Issues, Dean Winchester Has Self-Worth Issues, Castiel has Anxiety, Bobby Singer is Dean Winchester's Parent, Armchair Therapy, Phone Sex, Blow Jobs, Dirty Talk, Dirty Jokes, Identity Porn, Massage, Come Marking, Explicit Sexual Content, Sexual Humor, BDSM, Euphemisms, Slow Burn, Emotional Hurt/Comfort, Subdrop, Spanking, Orgasm Delay/Denial, Panty Kink, Underwear Kink, Foot Jobs, Praise Kink, Self-Esteem Issues, Self Confidence, two-person love triangle, two-person love rectangle, canon compliant racism, Dean Winchester Has Issues Series: Part 1 of talk Summary:

As a grease monkey turned college freshman, Dean's constantly three seconds away from being stressed out of his mind. It hardly helps that he's finally figuring out his sexuality in his thirties.

What might help with that stress is a little phone number (and a big credit card bill). If he can't figure out how to be bisexual in person, he can at least give it a go over the phone, right?

(It's probably a bad idea, but he really can't help himself.)

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Chapters: 18/18 Fandom: Supernatural Rating: Mature Warnings: No Archive Warnings Apply Relationships: Castiel/Dean Winchester Characters: Dean Winchester, Castiel, Sam Winchester, Bobby Singer, John Winchester, Hannah (Supernatural), Pamela Barnes, Jimmy Novak, Claire Novak, Missouri Moseley, Lisa Braeden Additional Tags: Time Travel, DCBB 2015, Dean/Cas Big Bang Challenge 2015, Slow Burn, Canon Divergence, POV Dean Winchester, mentions of dean/other, Alteration of s10 lore, Homophobic Language, Rimming, Blow Jobs, Hand Jobs, Anal Sex, god these tags are a blast, Pining Dean, Preseries Dean, Mutual Pining Summary:

Dean’s your typical half-orphaned, monster-killing 22-year-old until a trenchcoated stranger crashes into his back windshield one September night, claiming he’s an angel that knows him from the future and that he’s on the run.

Frigging fantastic.

(Or, in which Castiel gets stuck in Dean’s timeline preseries and Dean kind of hates it—until he doesn’t.)

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Chapters: 10/10 Fandom: Supernatural Rating: Explicit Warnings: No Archive Warnings Apply Relationships: Castiel/Dean Winchester, Minor or Background Relationship(s) Characters: Dean Winchester, Castiel, Sam Winchester, Eileen Leahy, Jack Kline, Claire Novak, Kaia Nieves, Various Others Pop In As Well Additional Tags: Angst with a Happy Ending, Heavy Arguments, Found Family, Dean missing Cas, Dean being a dumbass and an asshole, Cas being a dumbass and an asshole, Dean's tendency to be explosively angry at times, Cas once again trying to do the right thing, except he doesn't value himself enough, so canon basically, Post Finale minus the Love Confession, I erased it sorry, you're gonna have to trust me on that one, two idiots yearning, I don't even know if I can tag this as miscommunication, it's more just the Lack of Communication, because it's Dean and Cas, that does get resolved though rest assured, Phone Conversations, Dean and Jack actually fixing their problems from Canon, first they have to acknowledge them tho sorry about that, Dean and Jack having a complicated familial relationship, Jack representing temperamental toddlers everywhere, Cas and Claire having a complicated familial relationship, Dean locating his happiness and holding onto it, Dean and Cas being stupid about each other, Sam and Eileen being smart about each other, Dean and Eileen Friendship Supremacy, Jealous Dean Winchester, Supportive Sam Winchester, Dean's sometimes violent thoughts, A Study in Missing Someone, Cas telling Dean like it is, Explicit Smut, Blowjobs, Fingering, FaceFucking, Finger-facefucking? aka Dean's Oral Fixation, Dean learning to let himself make a life he'll enjoy, Dean being good with kids, especially those like him, Jack being A Ray Sunshine, Claire being a little shit, Sam being a genius, Eileen being The Best as always, Dean and Cas being terrible at leaving each other alone, Humor, Love wins because I say so Summary:

Brittle and battle-worn, Cas looks at him over coffee one morning and says, "I need to go," and Dean instantly knows that he's not coming back. 

He's not really sure how he knows it, but he does. It settles into the pit of his stomach, curling hot and tight like something he instinctively wants to tear out with his bare hands. He takes a breath, and it gets stuck in his throat, hitching there. It hurts, hurts, hurts when he finally exhales. 

"Yeah," Dean says, "of course you do," and he nods jerkily as he looks down at his phone. He doesn't say goodbye. He doesn't look up from the screen when Cas gets up and leaves the room. He doesn't finish his coffee, or move for a long time. 

By nightfall, Cas is gone.

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Chapters: 1/1 Fandom: Supernatural (TV 2005) Rating: Explicit Warnings: Creator Chose Not To Use Archive Warnings Relationships: Castiel/Dean Winchester Characters: Castiel (Supernatural), Dean Winchester Additional Tags: Drunk Driving, Suicidal Thoughts, Car Accidents, Alcohol Abuse/Alcoholism, Seatbelts everyone! We're going for a ride on the magic trauma bus!, beep beep, Post-Canon Fix-It, 15.20 doesn't exist in Ms.Frizzle's cinematic universe, despite the tags there are no Magic School Bus references in this fic, Homophobia, John Winchester's A+ Parenting, Childhood Trauma, Dean Winchester Has Self-Worth Issues, Castiel/Dean Winchester First Kiss, Getting Together, Love Confessions, Frottage, First Time, Dean Winchester Has Daddy Issues, Concussions Summary:

After having drunkenly swerved to avoid a deer on a post-hunt drive back to the bunker, Dean accidentally crashes the Impala into a lake. Sitting numb and dazed behind the wheel as icy black water creeps up his legs, he has no intention of moving until an epiphany makes him want to survive.

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Chapters: 1/1 Fandom: Supernatural (TV 2005) Rating: Explicit Warnings: No Archive Warnings Apply Relationships: Castiel/Dean Winchester Characters: Castiel (Supernatural), Dean Winchester, Sam Winchester, Eileen Leahy, Jack Kline Additional Tags: Background Relationships, Post-Canon Fix-It, First Kiss, First Time, Love Confessions, Mutual Pining, Emotional Hurt/Comfort, Alternate Universe - Canon Divergence, Top Castiel/Bottom Dean Winchester, Angel Castiel (Supernatural), Angelic Grace Sex (Supernatural), Angel Wings, Wing Kink, Awkward Kissing, (they figure it out), Explicit Sexual Content, Oral Sex, Body Worship, Anal Fingering, Anal Sex, Rimming, Self-Esteem Issues, Communication, Fluffy Ending Summary:

The table has gone quiet, and Dean’s already got a bad habit of forgetting that anyone else in the world exists when he’s got Cas’ focus like this. To him, the whole universe narrows down to the two of them, sat across from each other at the kitchen table, Oxford to boot, eye-to-eye.

“You’re gonna stay. Sam’s movin’ out, onto bigger and better things, yadda yadda, half-retired family man sorta shit, and you’re gonna stay here with me.”

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Cas comes back.

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Chapters: 4/4 Fandom: Supernatural Rating: Explicit Warnings: No Archive Warnings Apply Relationships: Castiel/Dean Winchester, Minor or Background Relationship(s) Characters: Dean Winchester, Castiel, Sam Winchester, Jack Kline, Eileen Leahy, Claire Novak, Kaia Nieves, Alex Jones (Supernatural), Jody Mills, Donna Hanscum, Patience Turner Additional Tags: Mutual Pining, Slow Burn, Canon-Typical Violence, Coming Out, Didn't Know They Were Dating, Domestic Bliss, Fluff and Humor, Fed-up Sam Winchester, Oblivious Dean Winchester, Eileen Leahy is THEE moment, God is a child and that child is Jack, except he looks grown, Temporary Character Injury, Flirting through religious metaphors, The SPN Ladies being present and lovely, Dean being pathetically head over heels in love, Cas lets go of his restraint, Sam dropping hints that Dean is in love with Cas to Dean, some smut sprinkled in later, the art of learning to want, the growing pains of moving out, finding peace and trusting in hope, oh and holding hands!, Hugging! Cuddling!, kissing!, So much kissing, dates that aren't called dates, Pining, so much pining Summary:

Freedom is just one adjustment after the next.

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Cas hums again. "I think you already have. It's been months since everything settled. All that's left to do is...get used to it, and perhaps—" His voice stalls out, uncharacteristically, and his gaze roams Dean's face with intensity. When he speaks next, his tone is a little raw. "Perhaps what one does with peace is...whatever they want."

"What if I don't even know what that is?" Dean grumbles, arching an eyebrow in challenge. "'Cause I know damn well you don't just mean good food and a good bed and time in Baby, not simple wants like that. You mean—ya know, the big things, the wants we didn't get to have before."

"Yes," Cas agrees. "If you're not sure, figure it out."

"Easier said than done."

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Chapters: 8/8 Fandom: Supernatural Rating: Explicit Warnings: Creator Chose Not To Use Archive Warnings Relationships: Castiel/Dean Winchester Characters: Castiel (Supernatural), Dean Winchester, Sam Winchester, Jack Kline Additional Tags: weird boy best friends, John Winchester's A+ Parenting, if 'you want to fuck me so bad it makes you look stupid' was a fic, cas is the reason, more emotionally taxing than uh. than the summary might suggest, Internalized Homophobia, thick thighs save lives, big hand appreciation society, dean winchester was a camp little boy. and id die for him Summary:

what if instead of a very sincere and earnest love confession dean just found out cas was gay? no confession, no god-jack endgame. just post-s15 stupidity. just dean being deranged.

the dean downloads grindr for cas fic

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Chapters: 14/14 Fandom: Supernatural Rating: Explicit Warnings: No Archive Warnings Apply Relationships: Castiel/Dean Winchester Characters: Dean Winchester, Castiel, Jo Harvelle, Bobby Singer, Charlie Bradbury, Zachariah (Supernatural), Cole Trenton, Gabriel (Supernatural), Missouri Moseley, Background & Cameo Characters Additional Tags: Alternate Universe - College/University, Mature Student Dean Winchester, Deaf Dean Winchester, Interpreter Castiel (Supernatural), Mechanic Dean Winchester, Slow Burn, John Winchester's A+ Parenting, Dead John Winchester, Dean Winchester Has Self-Worth Issues, Discrimination, workplace harassment, Character Development, Pining, Mutual Pining, Idiots in Love, Supportive Sam Winchester, American Sign Language, Stubborn Castiel (Supernatural), Stubborn Dean Winchester, minor injury, Found Family, Miscommunication, Sheltered Castiel, Virgin Castiel (Supernatural), Castiel Needs Dean Winchester, Things aren't always easy for Dean but wow does he make them harder..., Smart Dean, brief mentions of past Dean/Other and past Cas/Other, Ableist Bullshit, Blow Jobs, Intercrural Sex Series: Part 1 of All Signs Point to Love Summary:

“People out there, Dean? They’ll chew you up and spit you out. You gotta learn to exist in the hearing world, or you’re never going to get anywhere. Learn to deal with it,” Dad had said, over and over.

Dean knows it's bullshit.

But that doesn’t mean it's easy to do any different, even with his Dad long gone.

Fighting the world and with something to prove, Dean Winchester goes back to college, years after he initially dropped out. After a lot of persuasion from his found family, Dean agrees to have an interpreter assist him with his classes.

Enter Castiel Novak, a gorgeous ASL interpreter who might be even more stubborn than Dean.

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Chapters: 1/1

Fandom: Supernatural

Rating: Teen And Up Audiences

Warnings: Creator Chose Not To Use Archive Warnings

Relationships: Castiel/Dean Winchester

Characters: Dean Winchester, Castiel, Sam Winchester, Rowena McLeod

Additional Tags: Post-Season/Series 11, De-Aged Castiel (Supernatural), Caretaker Dean Winchester, POV Sam Winchester, Oblivious Sam Winchester, Sam discovers destiel, mentions of bodily functions, Dean/Cas Big Bang Challenge 2018

Summary:

After a botched witch hunt, Cas ends up an infant; it's strange to see their once all-powerful, indestructible friend so small, so helpless.

It's even stranger to see Dean look at Cas like that--like he's cradling the whole world in his arms.

Sam's trying to track down the witch, or find a cure, to get Cas back. But it's kind of difficult with all these intruding thoughts that never go away; the kind that make him step back and question everything he thought he knew of Dean and Cas's relationship.

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Chapters: 7/7 Fandom: Supernatural Rating: Teen And Up Audiences Warnings: Creator Chose Not To Use Archive Warnings Relationships: Castiel/Dean Winchester, Jessica Moore/Sam Winchester, Dean Winchester & Sam Winchester, Jessica Moore & Dean Winchester, Charlie Bradbury & Dean Winchester, Jo Harvelle & Dean Winchester Characters: Dean Winchester, Castiel, Sam Winchester, Ruby (Supernatural), Jessica Moore, Bobby Singer, Benny Lafitte, Tessa (Supernatural), Becky Rosen, John Winchester, Pamela Barnes, Jo Harvelle, Ellen Harvelle, Jody Mills, Ash (Supernatural), Charlie Bradbury, Anna Milton Additional Tags: Disability, Depression, Suicide Attempt, Minor Character Death, AU, Hurt/Comfort, Car Accidents, Community: deancasbigbang Summary:

Dean Winchester was twenty-six years old when a car accident killed his father and left him paralysed from the waist down. A year and a half later, Dean is in a wheelchair and lives in a care home in Kansas, where he spends his days waiting to die. It's only when Castiel Novak starts volunteering at the care home that Dean starts to wonder if a changed life always equals a ruined one.

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Chapters: 1/1 Fandom: Supernatural (TV 2005) Rating: Explicit Warnings: No Archive Warnings Apply Relationships: Castiel/Dean Winchester Characters: Castiel (Supernatural), Dean Winchester Additional Tags: Alternate Universe - Canon, Angel Wings, Wing Grooming, Winged Dean Winchester, Flying, Human Castiel (Supernatural), Human Castiel in the Men of Letters Bunker (Supernatural), Flying Lessons, Castiel Has Self-Worth Issues (Supernatural), First Time, Love Confessions, Profound Bond Gift Exchange: Hot Entity Summer (Supernatural), Domestic Fluff, splash of angst for spice, trickster shenanigans, Castiel/Dean Winchester Wing Kink, Wingfic, First Kiss Summary:

Dean's facing a long summer cooped up in the bunker with nothing but his own brand new eight-foot angel wings for company. And Cas, of course. But the former angel is acting super weird about this whole thing, and Dean can't figure out why. He could sure use some help from the expert, though.

(In which Dean learns to fly, and Cas remembers what it's like.)

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Chapters: 1/1 Fandom: Supernatural Rating: Explicit Warnings: Creator Chose Not To Use Archive Warnings Relationships: Castiel/Dean Winchester Characters: Castiel, Dean Winchester, Rowena MacLeod, Sam Winchester Additional Tags: Temporary Amnesia, Amnesia, Memory Loss, Episode: s12e11 Regarding Dean, Post-Episode: s12e11 Regarding Dean, First Kiss, First Time, im not telling you who tops! figure it out Summary:

what if 12x11: regarding dean had cas in it? that's what this fic is.

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Chapters: 7/7 Fandom: Supernatural Rating: Mature Warnings: No Archive Warnings Apply Relationships: Castiel/Dean Winchester Characters: Dean Winchester, Castiel (Supernatural), Sam Winchester, John Winchester, Jo Harvelle, Bobby Singer, Ellen Harvelle Additional Tags: Non-Hunter Winchesters (Supernatural), Alternate Universe, Alternate Universe - Modern Setting, Fake/Pretend Relationship, Homophobia, Homophobic Language, Stanford Era (Supernatural), Smoker Dean Winchester Summary:

After three years away, Sam's finally coming home for the holidays. Only, much to Dean's surprise, he isn't coming alone.

--

“Who’s this?” Dad asks, confused.

“Right,” Sam says. He huffs out a breath as he draws up his confidence. “Dad, Dean, this is Castiel. My boyfriend.”

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Chapters: 1/1 Fandom: Supernatural (TV 2005) Rating: Explicit Warnings: No Archive Warnings Apply Relationships: Castiel/Dean Winchester Characters: Dean Winchester, Castiel (Supernatural), Sam Winchester, Charlie Bradbury Additional Tags: Alternate Universe - Celebrity, Ice Hockey Player Castiel (Supernatural), Mechanic Dean Winchester, Famous Castiel (Supernatural), Online Dating, One Night Stands, to more, Dean Winchester Has Self-Esteem Issues, First Time, Explicit Sexual Content, Top Castiel/Bottom Dean Winchester, Dom/sub Undertones, Kink Discovery, Sharing Clothes, Like Dean is specifically wearing Castiel's jersey, Strangers to Lovers, Explicit Consent, Porn with Feelings, Possessive Castiel (Supernatural), Hotel Sex, Marking, Sub Dean Winchester, NHL | National Hockey League, Charlie Bradbury & Dean Winchester Friendship, Idiots in Love Summary:

When Dean agrees to meet with an anonymous stranger from a hookup app, the last thing he’s expecting is for his low impulse control to bring him face-to-face with the NHL player he has been crushing on for the last year.

It’s almost as unlikely as the potential for it to turn into anything more than a one-night stand.

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Chapters: 1/1 Fandom: Supernatural Rating: Teen And Up Audiences Warnings: No Archive Warnings Apply Relationships: Castiel/Dean Winchester, Eileen Leahy/Sam Winchester (background) Characters: Dean Winchester, Castiel (Supernatural), Sam Winchester, Eileen Leahy Additional Tags: Time Travel, Pre-Series Dean Winchester, Married Castiel/Dean Winchester, Post-Finale, POV Dean Winchester, Internalised Homophobia, if finale denial were an olympic sport i'd be going for gold, Baby Jack Kline, Suicidal Thoughts Summary:

A 26-year-old Dean is transported to 2021 and confronted with the unfathomable - a future where he is happy, safe, and loved.

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“Aren’t you gunna say it?” he asks tentatively, as if he’s crazy for picking up on the obvious.

“Yeah, you’re me. Past me, anyway,” the other Dean replies. “I wanna know from when.”

“What are you talking about?”

“Time travel,” the older Dean states as if it’s so obvious and ordinary. “It happens.”

“To who? Marty McFly?”

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Chapters: 5/5 Fandom: Supernatural Rating: Mature Warnings: No Archive Warnings Apply Relationships: Castiel/Dean Winchester Characters: Dean Winchester, Castiel (Supernatural), Sam Winchester, Jody Mills, Eileen Leahy Additional Tags: POV Dean Winchester, Fake/Pretend Relationship, bitchy cas, Castiel Comes Out (Supernatural), Sam the long-suffering witness to destiel antics, Dean learns it's okay to be gay, Gay Chicken, Internalized Homophobia, Dean struggles to be normal about gay people, Random homophobic man who looks like John Summary:

A high-stakes game of ‘gay chicken’ and the easiest $300 Cas thinks he’ll ever make.

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“I bet that you couldn’t go around letting people think we were a couple without correcting them,” Cas says, grinning. "I bet you a hundred dollars that you couldn’t last two weeks."

“You know what, screw it, I could do with a laugh,” Dean says. "So what, we pretend to be a couple for two weeks or until one of us cracks?"

“Until you crack.”

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Chapters: 9/9 Fandom: Supernatural Rating: Explicit Warnings: Creator Chose Not To Use Archive Warnings Relationships: Castiel/Dean Winchester, Kaia Nieves/Claire Novak, Eileen Leahy/Sam Winchester Characters: Dean Winchester, Castiel (Supernatural), Sam Winchester, Eileen Leahy, Claire Novak, Kaia Nieves, Jody Mills, Donna Hanscum, Jack Kline Additional Tags: 15.20 doesn't exist in Ba Sing Se, Dean stirs his coffee with a knife, Tattooed Dean Winchester, theft as a form of foreplay, Dean and Claire are besties, Castiel and Dean Winchester in Love, Eileen is the best, Sam being a cockblock, Dean being horny on main, Top Castiel/Bottom Dean Winchester, discussions of trauma, in the context of therapy, Dean talks about homophobia and physical abuse and s/a, not really talked about in detail, but enough that the author wanted to include trigger warnings, Fix It Fic, post-cannon, dadstiel, Dean being a dad, the passing of seasons unsubtly being used as a metaphor for Dean's healing journey, Claire and Dean get matching tattoos because I said so, Fluff, John Winchester's A+ Parenting, Masturbation, Anal Sex, Mutual Masturbation, Hand Jobs, Blow Jobs, Dirty Talk Summary:

Two months after Team Free Will beats Chuck, Jack brings Cas back and Dean wants so badly to respond to Cas's confession in the dungeon, but to do that he needs to shed a lifetime of trauma, self hatred, and internalized homophobia. After moving in to a farmhouse with Cas, Dean secretly starts going to therapy every Thursday afternoon. He also starts working on getting the tattoos he always wanted in an effort to reclaim a body that he's only ever seen as a tool.

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 Cas stole Dean's favorite Zeppelin shirt, Dean steals it back, Cas steals it again. A shirt-theft war like nothing you've ever seen ensues. The entire family takes sides. Is it foreplay? Yes. Is it good clean family fun? Sometimes. Are Jack's god powers used unwisely in the name of the Zepp shirt battle? Yeah, probably. Is Dean messier than a sloppy joe? Nooooo, not at all.

 This fic starts out like it's going to be Serious Business (and parts of it are), but it's mostly ridiculous fluff and Dean finally allowing himself to be soft.