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transfem denji. transfemji if you will

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this is your gentle reminder to stop fighting against your adhd and instead structure your life around it

buy a pack of chapsticks and put one in the pocket of all of your coats and jackets because you always forget to bring one and chapped lips is sensory hell

leave important things where you can see them. if they go in a box or a drawer you will forget they exist

put any appointments or deadlines in your phone calendar As Soon As you get them. set a reminder for a week before, a day before, an hour before, as many as you need as often as you need them.

when that little voice in your head says "i dont need to write that down, ill remember it" that is the devil talking!!! write it down anyway!!

plan for down time. have a few hours at the end of every day to just do fun stuff like engage in your hyperfixations. even if you didnt get all of your work done that day, have the rest anyway. you probably spent the whole day beating yourself up for not doing what you Should be doing, so you still need the break.

if you never eat vegetables because its too much effort to chop and cook them, get the frozen or canned shit. it doesnt go off for ages and you just have to microwave it. theres no point buying fresh vegetables if they just keep going off and being left to rot in the bottom of your fridge

if you struggle to decide what to have for dinner every day, take the decision out of it. choose a set of meals and eat those on rotation until you get sick of them, then choose some new ones and do it again.

its not stupid if it works! our brains literally have a chemical deficiency. you are allowed to accommodate yourself. go forth and stop making your life more difficult than it has to be because "this shouldn't be this hard". it is hard, so make it easier.

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I know its the bare minimum from non trans people but seeing cis lesbians loving trans women as much as cis women and treating us exactly the same as eachother gives me hope

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GOOOD I NEED A GF, I NEED SOMEONE TO CUDDLE WITH AND LOVE AND KISS AND SPEND TIME WITH

god i'm so lonely i want to die

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it’s ok blåhaj, mommy and mommy are just wrestling right now

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t4t lesbian kisses to brighten up your feed!! :3

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petting her while we watch videos on my laptop🥺

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Automaton. Bones and nerves, flesh and soul, disconnected in an abominable system. Dead man's steps, forgotten steps, forgotten life, empty life. Death in life.

I am an intruder, a servant of death wandering in the kingdom of life. Unknown nature, beast of infinite secrets.

Instinct, cold; ape.

A thousand torn and obsolete masks, obscene dances that please no one. Here's the question: What purpose does an actor serve in an empty theater? A master of deception, lying to himself.

That and many more are the truths about me, told by many demonic tongues, swirling in my head.

so many of the transfems i know spent their time pre-transition performing a kind of lifelong exercise in self-deprivation, the goal of which was to find out exactly how little a person needed to live. they starved themselves, dressed carelessly, shunned friends, and hollowed themselves out so as not to be burdens on anyone but themselves.

i see it now, too, in the girls around me. i'll ask if they want care – a home-cooked meal, relaxed company, sex without the expectation of reciprocation – and they say no, no, thank you, i don't need it; what would you like, what do you want, because in their head they're still doing that awful calculus, still training themselves to disappear in the eyes of the people around them.

i don't think i'd have died without transition – not in the conventional sense, at least – but to take that leap, i had to stop thinking of myself as a human experiment in fuel-efficient living and start nurturing the anemic, atrophied flame of desire in my heart. i had to learn to eat well, to exercise, to style myself beautiful, but harder than that, i had to learn to ask the people around me to work on my behalf in order to enrich my life and give me the things i wanted.

and i did it; i learned. and it was agony, but courage is a muscle you can train, and every day i get better at accepting gifts with the hungry gratitude i never learned in my years and years as a sad, scared, lonely boy.

so be patient with the trans girls in your life. better than that: be proactive, attentive, generous; be forceful, if you have to, and learn to distinguish real discomfort from the terrified reflex of self-denial that so many of us once learned to rely on.

and if you are so lucky as to love a trans girl, you must insist upon her. you must insist upon her happiness, her comfort, her pleasure, and her rest, because she may still not yet know how to make those demands for herself. if you can devote any amount of energy to becoming an engine that nurtures the flame of even a single tgirl then there is a place for you in trans heaven, which as far as i'm concerned is the only one worth going to

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*parent who spent 18 years trying to reassure themselves that you were normal* i just didn't see any signs

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dreams

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trying to politely explain to a mech pilot that the skintight plugsuit she wears in the cockpit makes the erections she gets whenever she murders another mech incredibly easy to see.

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petting her while we watch videos on my laptop🥺

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clumsy shy transfems I love you

transfems who are dysphoric about their face hair I love you

transfems who don't know how to shave their legs properly I love you

transfems who have never done makeup I love you

transfems who are scared of being raised too manly to be fem I love you

transfems who are afraid they'll never be who they truly want to be I love you

I love you

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boy who’s confused why lesbians keep hanging out with him until it’s too late and she’s wearing a skirt now.

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Hating TERFs is not misogyny, most of them are wretched disgusting souls that take pleasure on the suffering of trans and other queer people.

Advocating for them is the same as advocating for alt-right people and conservatards.

The thing here is that, obviously they're going to try and make themselves look like the victim. It's the same shit white supremacists do, with le guait genosaid.

The focus of all those movements on trans women and "women's rights" is not a coincidence; is just a psyop to use the WRA against trans people.

They dont care about women's right anymore, they don't care about sexual liberation, all the sex is scawy and if you're not a lesbian, you're a disgusting traitor. The thing here is that their movement is extremely toxic, like all radical movements!

Having a vagina between your legs doesn't make you right all the time, and for fucking sure it doesn't make you a good person, but you're a simple person, aren't you? And bio-essentialism is way easier for your small mind, it's as easy as saying "AMAB BAD afab good".

For me, it is no surprise that the TERF thought process is the same as the rightoid thought process, they're dumb people desperate for simple solutions about complex problems.

But whatever, it is to expect from a group that thinks a multi-billionare white woman is an "opressed and silenced hecking epic activist".

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the princess and the maid get to spend all day sucking each other off while us serfgirls only get to spend small portions of the day sucking one another off. something must be done about this.