ivyangel

[ivyangel]

i literally don't know what to do...?

I find myself in these depressive episodes that often get triggered by small things, and everytime I get in one, I feel horrible. One of my close friends has noticed and tried to help me but I feel so disconnected and I feel like I blew our hangout, I didnt feel all there but I tried. I also tried to briefly bring up what was bothering me, and she said she didn't know what to say and dropped it, so I left it alone. I felt worse so I told her its nothing with her but I feel off and itd be better if I was alone for a few days.

My other friend, whom I have known for nearly decade, just lost her house. I wont get into her familys situation, but they definitely did not do anything to try and not get kicked out (for years.) She is staying with me now, just for a week, the rest of her family in some hotel, and I feel so upset by it. I am not really upset with her because shes still a kid, its not her fault, but I am really upset at her mom, brother,and parts of her. My friend has never taken initiative to better herself, and shes now graduating later than she should have because she dropped out of school even though shes been promising us that shes trying (i found out she wasn't really!)

My mom just came to talk to me, and tell me I need to get over whatever is bothering me and see it from her perspective because she lost her childhood house. She never really cared to ask what bothered me until today, im sure so I would happy to welcome my friend.

I haven't been rude to her, but I don't have it in me to talk or care about anything. Am i wrong for this? My parents say I can talk to them but they either say im selfish or threaten to bakeract me.

[ivyangel]

“Forgive yourself for not knowing what you didn’t know before you learned it.”

— Maya Angelou

[ivyangel]

“Just because you don’t understand something, doesn’t mean it’s wrong.”

— Lemony Snicket

[ivyangel]

do people ever get tired of being negative and looking for issues??? like.... what ?