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Oh, okay. I was worried that you wouldn't speak to me again. Yeah? How did it go? Is everything okay with you two, or...?

I wasn’t… I apologized to Shane.

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Hey. I'm Blake. You look familiar... do you work here or am I going crazy?

Evening babes.

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I wasn't not talking to you on purpose. I thought you were avoiding me.

You not talking to me is ridiculous.

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Everything's pretty ridiculous right now.

This is ridiculous.

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i always feel like i should apologize for some reason. like, the whole drama thing i feel bad for it??? like, i'm over thinking it but i feel bad for everyone else not involved? i'm going to shut up.

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I don't want to. But I don't want to lose Shane, either, and you know that I'd have to choose, and I can't.

You can’t leave me….

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Then what will?

That won’t help.

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Yes and no. Right now I feel like I deserve a punch in the face? But I also kind of want to cry, and that's probably the stupidest thing to do. 

Wanna talk bro?

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I don't know what else to do! I... I just want things okay, but nothings okay. You know it, and I know it. We can't just fix it, we tried that and things got worse.

You can’t just leave….

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Screwing up my life. What about you? Have a good shift?

Finally off. So what’s everyone up too?

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I'm stepping out of the picture. If I'm not there, I'm not a issue, right?

Doing that won’t help with anything. When you said you knew what to do what did you mean?

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...Shane, d-don't. It's not your fault. I don't blame you. It's on me.

Your not the reason Blake! I am! I’m the one who asked her who she liked! I’m the one who caused this.

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I know... I'm not really sure if this is a good idea, but nothing else I can think of seems to work. I'm sorry...

I can’t tell you what to do but you know what I want.

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That's what I don't want. Her to hate me. I don't... I don't want to be another one of those people. I didn't mean to make things bad between us, or between anyone else, for that matter. I'm just going to... butt out.

I’m mean she’ll be okay eventually. This has happened to her a lot. She’s probably hate you for awhile but..

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The not being able to fix it part. I can't accep that, okay? I can't when I'm the reason that caused this to happen in the first place. I just can't let it be the way it is, okay? I'm sorry.

It’s not a problem that you can fix! What do you not understand about that?

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Nothing I do will make anything better. Nothing. I can't make you happy and make Shane happy at the same time. I tried and it doesn't work. You both mean a lot to me and you both can't stand the sight of each other. I don't know what else to do. 

You can’t just say that, Blake. That won’t make anything better.