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He’s just so nice and kind and gentle with me <3

I want him to hurt me <3

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~goals~

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Some Apps Which Help Me!

I've been doing this for a few years and have tried every app and website! When I relapse, I come back to the same few, here they are!

-https://www.fatcalc.com/rwl (Great for seeing how long it will take you to reach a certain weight which certain cals, but won't go under 1,000 cals so estimate)

-Lifesum (Best food tracker I have found and great for logging daily weights, I like the food scanning ability and you can track food by the gram if you have a food scale)

-Zero (Great fasting tracker with a ton of great communities you can join, good if you like to compete against others)

-C25K (I use this when I'm running because cardio is the best for weight loss, talks you through running and walking intervals)

-Tumblr (OFC to share and learn more, talk to others who also experience similar thinking patterns)

-YouTube (Surprisingly has a lot of restriction content if you search the right words)

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Th1nspo that keeps re-occurring in my dreams. (Not mine, DM for removal🖤)

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⊹ ࣪ ˖ʚskinny armsɞ˖ ࣪ ⊹

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I want that

that euphoric feeling i got when we’re laying in bed and he ran his hand down my stomach and said, “did you get skinnier? ..you got skinnier”

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the fact that i thought starving myself was gonna fix all my problems.

like babe, it caused more problems… lmaoo

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I am so biteable and yet, I am not being bitten. A travesty.

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She is me, I am her

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yknow. I keep forgetting that I have lost nearly 40 lbs. I my head, I'm still at my hw. no matter how much I lose and how much I restrict. I look the exact same. I'm still fat. I'm still ugly. I just wish it actually felt like I accomplished something. but those 40 lbs barely mean anything, bc I've still got to lose so much more. I just wish I could see actual progress.

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