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2024/05/30 - Weekly Essay

Stressed. At this point in my life, I cannot use any other words besides stress. It is finally hitting me that finals are coming up in a week, and I'm cooked. Okay, but to be completely honest, my stress doesn't really affect me until the night before a test, so I'm honestly vibing right now. I'm not going to lie, I think I'm honestly at a really good point in my life. Overall, I think my freshman year was honestly the best thing that happened to me, or at least, I can't imagine it going any other way. I've met such great people this year, and it's honestly crazy that I was lucky enough to meet them in my lifetime. I think I emphasize a lot that a big part of my life is friends, but genuinely, reflecting back on my high school years makes me appreciate how well this year went overall. Like yes, there were definitely bad aspects, especially this quarter! But overall, I wouldn't wish anything to be different. I'm at a point where academically, socially, and mentally, I'm doing a lot better than I expected to (perhaps I should work on physically too). I got into a club I wanted this quarter, and yes it's not the biggest accomplishment in the world, but I am quite proud of myself. The organization led me to develop a lot of skills I didn't think I needed, and whether it was instilled in me in a healthy or unhealthy way, I still developed some skills. My biggest focus this quarter was to be happy and enjoy life, especially in a healthy way where I can balance school and friends, and I feel like I did the best I could. In the upcoming months, I want to definitely develop more professionally, so I will probably join more organizations to get that. OH! I need a job. That's the new goal. I'm cooked. My spending rate is exponentially higher than my rate of earning, and my bank account is not looking very cute because of that. As for the aspects I need to improve, I definitely will say my spending… and GYMING MORE. No, guys, you don't understand, I'm literally so unfit EL OH EL!!

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2024/05/19

I MISS MY FAMILY BRUH like i went home for my cousins graduation for a day and i miss them smm anyways i got a haircut after and then ate w my family AGHHH and then i got back tỏ school I SPENT SMM time w sissy OKAY also lemme just say even tho we fight a lot i love that mf quite a bit and ughhh lowkey miss her anyways today was also a vv sleepy day for me like i got a haircut bro i fell asleep in the chair. I ALSO HUNG IUT W FRIENDS and bro they all saw me sleep the whole time LMAO rip oh well but i slept kinda early not rlly either way oh well I SLEPT at least and i ate dim sum btw ANYWAYS 8/10 day!! [18:26]

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2024/05/14

IM TIREDDDD also ps this was in my drafts too GUYS MY PHONE TWEAKING IDK WHY IT POSTS TO DRAFTS BRUH anyways i woke up at like 10?? idk i've been waking up earlier than 11 that's fs and some emails AND OH CLASS LOWKEY I CANF DO ANY WORK i've been lacking sleep but oh well either way i gotta walk 5 miles today LMAOO RIP but but i j studied today and met w some interviews ALSO ALSO seryn today went to get an açaí bowl w mia +caught up w friend on ft AND ID SAY TODAY WAS LIKE 5/10 i'm just tired LMAO [19:55]

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2024/05/15

GUYS I KEEP DRAFTING THE DANG POSTS THIS IS GETTING ANNOYING BRUH anyways slightly hate tumblr but oh well anyways guys i ended up sleeping late again... like 5 BRUH I ENDED UP UAPPING W FRIENDS TIL 5 AL ITS SO BADDDD but anyways it's wtv HAHA i'll have self control tn.... i'll see LMAO but it was j lots of interviews today thank goddd i got a lot in and writing emails OH OH BUT WE HAD DINNER W TEACHER TODAY and guys i rly rlly rlly love my chem teacher she's so sweet omg like getting to know her outside of school AHH i loved it sm but anyways i met w sean and guys hes funny i won't even lie LMAOO like it felt like yapping for an hr and idkk probs one of my more memorable interviews LIKE we talked and i'm ngl he's funny guys LMAOFH but i interviewed steve next and bro he's rlly cool too omg like everyone said they had good convos w him and i think i did too?? maybe i talked too much but either way he was rlly laid back and chill HAHA also seryn today went to bplate and they are a subway sandwich and met w 30a chem professor!! but today for me was like 8/10?? NOW FOR LOCK IN [23:55]

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Weekly Essay - 2024/05/15

In terms of being a friend, I think I focus most on being the type to make those around me smile. I used to think about this question a lot, at least I didn't believe there was a trait about myself that people could've liked. I'm aware I'm not the quietest person, especially with a mouth like mine, it gets quite difficult. I'm definitely not the most exciting person, for my hobbies literally include reading and journaling. The only thing I felt like I had for myself at one point was my personality, and it genuinely never felt that much to begin with. However, the more I kept pondering on this thought, I realized that I shouldn't be dismissing all my traits and deeming them as something "bad". Hence, I think ever since coming here, I believe that I'm the "yapper", well, at least I like to believe I'm able to bring everyone's energy up with my personality. In the Alpha Xi Class, I do believe I am one of the more talkative ones, whether that's annoying to people or not. I realize now a big aspect in life that makes me happy is seeing people smile, or at least visibly seeing that people do enjoy that I'm around. It's comforting in the sense that I feel like I have a sense of purpose. Also, being one of the more energetic individuals, it's funny to see people around me also get energy from talking. Honestly, I think its just important to have at least one person with some energy, at least it feels like I can rally up people when they're tired. I also think I make a lot of sarcastic comments poking fun at people around me, and seeing them banter back is something I especially enjoy. I like to get people out of their shell a lot, so overall, I'd just say I'm the really energetic friend. [15:37]

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2024/05/13

hi hi so i slept at like 3-4 i think?? idk i woke up tho and ate bcafe and i did a little bit of essay writing but ngl.... i wanted to surround myself w ppl again LMAO so i texted my friends to come so that we should ll hangout HAHA anyways we locked in kinda for her a bit but then we talked for a while again HAHA anyways after i have a meeting w my fam to practice the dance and guys we kinda ate omgg BC BRO I CANNOT DANCE OMG anyways after after ngl i was j stressed for the night but oh well and hmm the day was like 7/10 [22:58]

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day 25 - 2024/5/10

woke upppp at like 10-11 and then u worked ISH but barely and hmm i ate rende west again GUYS UTS SO BAD I GET IT SMM anyways me and seryn made our jp vid AND guys it's so funny help and anyways i met w sean for our meeting and lowkey wished we talked more but oh well LMAOO it was fun playing card games and WINNING KINDAAA like i lowkey lost a lot but i'm literally not going to admit HAHA either way sean was pretty cool HAHA anyways i had my meeting w edmond after too GUYS THE TTEOKBOKKI WAS SO GOOD OMG and in the car edmond has some good ass taste w music but i didnt expect him to full on know so many austin and ally songs HAHA anyways we went to johnnys after and that's all so it was def an 8/10 [20:38]

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day 24 - 2024/05/09

HELLOOO okay i woke up at like 11 GUYS IM SLEEPING SO LATEE i wanna wake up at 9 but physically i cannot LMAO but i just went to some classes online and did work BUT GUYS I WAS SO WORRIED ABT THE SOCIAL like i genuinely thought no one was gonna show up HAHA on top of literally thinking i didn't get enough snacks and sheet ANYWAYS a lot more ppl came out than i thought AND IT WAS SOOO FUN like we played spikeball and football well at least i did HAHA and it was vv cute i think and that night OH OH i hung out w friends til late and we played among us and then the class and i went to frat row to help ppl get home safe from parties AND THENNNN we finished off w some good ass in n out LMAOO SO ALL FUN TOFAY there was like no work done BUT i still say 9/10 [23:49]

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day 23 - 2024/05/08

hi hi i woke up at 11ish?? yeah ate lunch w yasmine omggg and it was so fun like i'm genuinely rlly happy i got to talk to her more bc i rlly wanted to get to know her more HAHA anyways after i j did some work and got dinner w my ash I LOVE MY BIGG but we ate for like two ish hrs and then i had dinner w amanda wong and then i rushed back and talked to my alumni HES SO FUN GUYS MR EVAN LEE IS LITERALLY SO COOLLL but i just did laundry after and procrastinated til 5am?? idk OH AND I SLEPT OVER W JES I MISS HERR AND THEN SLEPT SOO DAY WAS EHH PRODUCTIVE so probs 7/10 [22:33]

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#selfcare

I WENT TO AN ESCAPE ROOM W MY FRIENDS missing a few of them sadly but still it was vv nice to finally hang out w most of them again after so long HAHA and we finished escape room in literally 45 mins but that sheet was scary bruh

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Weekly Vlog #4 - Why I'm Thankful for my Big [16:35]

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beautiful portrait of my jp - ily seryn mwah ur welcome 🫶🏻

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Weekly Essay - 2024/05/08

Throughout high school, I've always been fixated on perception, from what people thought of me and how I saw myself. I was what you deemed a "people pleaser", from trying to earn the best grades to impress a teacher to fixing parts of my appearance because my parents were unhappy with it. It felt like a constant cycle of changing myself for others to fit their expectations, to the extent that I was completely neglecting my own happiness. However, having serious issues with one of my favorite teachers both humbled me and changed me. When your entire mindset is fixated on being liked by everyone, and a person you deem as extremely important starts disliking you, it shatters you. I thought I did everything correctly, however she didn't like me. She hated every aspect of me, from how I got good grades despite maintaining a social life, to how I dressed up for class even though it was purely supposed to be an environment to learn for her. Either way, my confidence in myself plummeted because I couldn't get her to like me no matter what I did. However, I did end up confronting her and asking for an apology, but what I found most amusing from that experience was I never got that apology. The difference is though, I didn't care that I didn't get closure, I just moved on. That's when I realized things were not "that deep", as well as the fact that this woman would never like me anyway, so why was I trying so hard to gain her approval? Therefore, what I'm most proud of is my ability to do things for myself now. Although not big, I like to think that I'm happy with myself and that's all the validation I need. I earn the grades for myself now, dress for myself, make friends that actually like me for myself, and I act, again, like myself around everyone. No longer did I fixate on trying to impress different people, mainly because I came to the realization that no matter what, there will always be someone who doesn't like me, and that's fine. It's a cliche topic to write about, but I'm extremely grateful for this realization, especially because I genuinely wouldn't be able to function in college without this mindset.

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day 22 - 2024/05/07

hi hi everyone i slept at like 4 again BUT it was j bc i stayed up late catching up on work + w friends but i ate lunch w gina OMG it was a small picnic and i literally had so much fun ALSO my girl shared some crazy stories and it was fun to hear them HAHA after i met up w lonnie guys idc if she reads this but my girl is so cute HAHA like convos were so comfortable at least PERSONALLY i had fun and omg we went brandy shopping and guys my money ITS GONE ISTG anyways right after i went back to ww w jonathan shyu and LMAO we went to meetfresh at some point and i ordered this dessert expecting smth small BUT IT WAS GIANT HAHA so me and jshyu ended up sharing and GUYS ik jshyu lore that's actually insane ALSO he's a rlly fun person i def want to get to know more in the future anyways anyways i called my mom for thirty mins today and ahhh i love her like i genuinely miss my mom sm :(( anyways right after i decided i wanted a break again HAHA so i went to an escape room w my friends GUYS I GENUINELY HAVE MISSED HANGING OUT W THESE MFS like woahh AND we did escape room in under 45 mins PLUS no hints but guys that escape room was scary as sheet OKAY I'm rambling now but today was a rlly good day and i think I'm motivated to finish this week off HAHA so 9/10 YAYAY [23:57]

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day 21 - 2024/05/06

frick me guys i'm not sleeping earlier ughhh yk what i realized i do a lot of self sabotage to myself LMAOO like in my head i don't deserve sleep since i haven't been getting anything done but guysss i'm like burnt out LIKEE idk i'm just sick and tired anyways today was good i woke up FINALLYY hung out w my loves from rieber and then we ate popcorn chicken and rende west too GUYS IMMA GET FAT FROM RENDE WEST FOOD ISTG i need to diet asap bro anyways meetings were meh i was j tired tbh like my head hurt sm today but it's fine and then i watched a bit of hunger games rn HAHA so that's why i'm awake OH FINNICK IS FINE BRO YALL DONT UDNERSTAND okay okay moving on imma sleep by 6.. hopefully GOODNIGHT OHOH and i got some tasks done not much but day over 4/10?? maybe 6?? 7?? idk it was meh tbh [23:38]

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day 20 - 2024/05/05

okay okay woke up kinda late lowkey BUT THATS BC I SLEPT LATE anyways we got up and went straight to santa monica WHERE WE PICKED UP TRASHHH anyways after i ate rende west THAT SHIT HIT BYW and then after i studied a bit and tried to update my drive but then we had lambda dinner and it was so nice omg like finally i get to converse w some of themmm ANYWAYS i'm super sleepy now so rip but anyways 8/10 okay but lowkey highkey idk i'm getting burnt out LMAOO like i've been tired these days but it's probs j bc i haven't gotten a break 😅😅 like i literally miss my friends smm GUYS I HAVENT GONE HOME and idk anyways small vent bc idk LMAO maybe 4/10 [23:54]