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Lilia and Silver doodle 😋

Because I love them

BOOK 7 BROKE ME.. I was so excited to finally get to my favorite dorm, and they just stomped on my heart a million times..

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the fucking pulling-his-hood-down-before-introducing-himself im gonna lose it goodbye i am not okay

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MY BABY........

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cw: churned out another hyperspecific scenario instead of putting my indulgent makeout fantasies onto paper, oopsie poopsie😔sorry for the angst mixed with your silliness, it will happen again. lightly beta’d (thanks @jessamine-rose). established relationship shenanigans++some headcanoning on jamil's home life when he was a kid.

jamil viper is not your go-to person for home movie dates. whatever you put on, he's out like a light by the thirty minute mark.

unless he's with kalim. then he can slog through a feature-length film with his eyes closed. the guy's constant chattering could surprisingly be processed through the haze of jamil's light nap.

of course, you're quick to notice this little quirk of his. it's routine that you offer your lap as a headrest instead of your shoulder.

"i-if you're comfortable with doing that, that is." you hastily add, suddenly unable to meet his gaze.

and like clockwork, he can't resist teasing you. "how could i refuse?"

it takes a bit of shifting around, you scooting over to make space for his legs, then adjusting the blankets while also making sure that he has a clear view of the tv screen - even if he won't need it.

(there's something…familiar about this. the dialogue and music all blurring together into a comfortable buzz, the different colors of light bathing his skin with their glow.

watching tv was a sort of solemn family activity. his parents, even in the comfort of their home, even with over-the-top soap operas playing, were cold and dignified viewers. nonetheless, they allowed him and najma to cuddle against them. they made sure that their two children were thoroughly blanketed in warmth and comfort, that neither of them would end up sore from the four of them being all crammed together onto the little sofa.

and then he got too big to be carried back to bed. and then he became kalim's attendant full time, moved out of their place in the servants' quarters to room with kalim. and then all that remained was the pavlovian urge to succumb to sleep when faced with a tv and a movie.)

by the time he stirs, the end credits have finished rolling.

jamil blinks up at you, his limbs heavy with sleep. "is it over?"

"mhm. will you have to go now?" your touch is gentle as you brush aside the stray strands of hair from his forehead.

he thinks he should return to scarabia, but one hour of good rest with you was intoxicating.

was it wrong to squeeze out just a little more time together, if it so thoroughly rejuvenated his spirit?

"i can stay for a little longer," he reassures you, cupping your palm with his and pressing a kiss to the side of your thumb.

so the both of you linger in this moment of quiet affection, without the noise from the tv as a buffer. then you pipe up, "your eyes…"

"hm? what about them?"

"…oh, um, on second thought…maybe i shouldn't say it." your knuckle brushes against the curve of his cheek in a light bid to drop the subject. "it's a bit of a random thought."

"then just spit it out." jamil likes the fluster on you. likes pushing your buttons, likes how your eyes glittered with fondness in spite of it all.

"did you know that your eyes…aren't closed the entire way when you sleep?"

he should have realized that there's a reason why ignorance is bliss. that curiosity killed the cat. that one should let sleeping dogs lie and all those similar sayings and so on.

"oh." jamil wants to scream.

what happens instead is that he turns onto his other side and buries his face into the hem of your shirt. the warmth of your stomach permeating through the fabric like ice against his burning face.

"i'm sorry! it's kinda cute, i think."

"shut up," he manages to grit out through the waves of cringe.

he hears you laugh as you pat his shoulder in consolation.

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I was very into dnd over the past months so i did a world build of what if Jamil is in dnd. Ofc i mixed my OC and some of my friends’ dnd characters

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I can finally show the art for the zine

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melmel sketch

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Before book 4 interaction.

This so random lmao…..

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Part 2 💫

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the promised scarabia b screenshots (from the scarabia manga)

SORRY I HAD TO MAKE A SEPARATE POST FOR THIS CUTIE BECAUSE WHAT IS THIS...

How can a single mob student be so adorable... 😭 I am convinced that this is the reason why Twst doesn't give mob students eyes... The devs KNOW the mobs would become way too powerful and usurp attention from the main cast boys/j

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When you awoke, there’s a box by your side.

You carefully open it to see…a key?

It was small, made of metal, and green with a symbol you were far too familiar with by now.

“It’s yours.”

You look up, startled to see him awake.

Lilia’s not a morning person, so to see him awake without a fuss? It made you wonder if he was up this entire time waiting for you.

“What’s this key for? Your heart?”

Lilia laughs as he pulls you close.

Covering your hand with his, “Khee hee~ You already have my heart.”

A hand entangled into your hair; thumb loosening the muscles on your neck.

You lean into him as he continues, “You’ve been patient with me, precious.”

You knew the words he meant to say.

He is Lilia Vanrouge.

He’s a fae who loves to play pranks.

He played games well into the mornings.

But he was also a fae with secrets.

One who held wounds deep into his soul.

He might smile and jest, but there are stories he will never tell.

To have that Lilia Vanrouge offer you a key to his room.

A room that would normally be his sanctum.

You know what such a move means.

You might have joked before about the key to his heart, but was the truth so far? When he allowed you free entrance to come and go as you please?

You pressed kisses from his shoulder to his neck before nuzzling under his chin, feeling him slightly tremble from the sensation.

“You are worth the wait.”

You kiss the corner of his mouth and feel it curl upwards.

There’s the smile you love so much.

Beautiful.

He’s a night fae, and you will always adore the way the moon’s light reflects off him.

But the beauty from the rays of morning light is not to be denied either.

His magenta eyes and pink streaks are emphasized, especially now, from the hints of brightness that peaks through his curtains.

His fanged smile radiant, even more so than the sun.

You tighten your hand that’s entwined with his: the one with the key between you.

Cupping his cheek with the other, “Thank you.”

You kiss him.

I love you.

He holds you by the neck, deepening the kiss.

I love you too.

I am still not over that Valentine’s gift as you can tell 💞💞💞

I love the different ways you can say “I love you.” Yes, there’s always words, but been a bit obsessed with the ways you can express them in actions.

And who is Lilia Vanrouge if not a fae of actions? 💞💞🥰🥰

Also it’s funny but my brain never cooperates with me I swear. 😂😂

Me: I want to make a funny and flirty story.

Brain: 😎 no, we go deep feels.

Me: …..fiinnneee 😶😑

I’m rather proud I was able to write kisses without imploding lol

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episode of scarabia manga!!

***Manga spoilers below the cut!!***

Let's welcome our new Yuu, Oujou Yuuna~!! She is a very bubbly girly girl thst dresses in gyaru fashion. sdfhlbasofvypvfeq SHE WAS ISEKAI'D WHILE ON HER PHONE... What a way to go... (Her dream is to be a model in Tokyo; this seems to be what her audition was for. She comes from a humble family of rice farmers.)

I like that we finally get a super femme Yuu; it confirms that the Twst boys would treat girls like a regular ass person instead of being weird about it.

She is very girly!! Wears a lot of makeup, curls her hair, does her nails, and has a super cute phone that she keeps on a beaded strap. It has Grim pawprints and a kitty charm on it!! I also like that this is a unique spin on the "photographer" aspect of Yuu. Yuuna is a photographer in her own way! There's a scene where her lashes get messed up (after splashing around in water) and she stops to fix it.

WAH, THEY GET ALONG SO WELL Yuuna goes along with Ace's teasing like it's nothing and happily takes selfies with everyone! She also has her own unique nicknames for each of the NRC boys.

Here is our absentee father abandoning us--/j

Jack with his cacti freaks me out… Is bro not scared he will get pricked, especially when he’s holding them like THAT. asdkhlbabdusoafasd RUGGIE HAS SO MUCH FOOD FOR THE KDIS BACK HOME, IT'S INSANE.

They’re keeping the trend of blurring the faces of OB Boys’ trauma sources.

Twins being the twins…

OKAY.

That’s scary 😨

Kalim, please never ever become like this fr, kk thanks 💀

asfkjlbofvavix SHE LOOKS LIKE A POKEMON TRAINER HERE... AND GRIM IS THE POKEMON USING FLAMETHROWER

YOU DUckING WeirDO, JaMIL 😭 LEAve HER AlOnE…

This is really uncomfortable to read in the manga format because the framing of Jamil when he’s using his UM makes it feel like he’s caging Yuuna in 💦 Good job, mangaka for conveying how unsettling this is.

Yuuna and Grim are sooo cute when they’re eating 😭 I love all the detailed shots of the sky and Kalim’s scepter too… They’re having so much fun together! (The calm before the storm, lol)

Ominous shots…

I love how they sort of have Jamil and Kalim posed similarly, almost as if to imply Jamil’s the shadow pulling Kalim’s strings. The way Kalim’s scarf is thrown back… It reminds me like wind enveloping someone or a snake strangling him. Resembles his countdown art too.

Probably just me projecting though 🤷‍♀️ cvshsvejendks This was so much to digest, AhHHHhHHHHH

Bonus: SCArabiA B-kuN WITH EyES!!!!! (He gets many more shots in the manga, but unfortunately Tumblr has a 30 image limit… JUST KNOW tHat thEY EXIST…)

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Doodles

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Seventeen - Heathers | Scarabia animatic 🐍☀️

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I love thinking about what JamiKali’s dynamic would’ve been if things had gone differently. I feel like both Jamil’s and Kalim’s personalities would really shine in ways we haven’t seen before of them (though maybe later, who knows! There going through a lot of development in the main story so here’s to hoping 🤞)

Ramblings/analysis under the cut

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This song, Seventeen, speaks of a desire to JUST be seventeen years old, to be normal, to not have damage and scars dictate all you are. I found this song very fitting with Jamil and Kalim, because they’re seventeen, but neither had the opportunity to ever just be normal teenagers. They’ve both gone through a lot, they’re “damaged”, but that doesn’t make them wise, or special, or different. They’re still just teenagers, not yet emotionally developed, young, and not capable of carrying so much weight on their shoulders. The line “we don’t choose who lives or dies” I find particularly applies well to Jamil’s whole, ahum, incident, but also in general to Jamil’s desire to be in control of things (which of course stems from his desire to be in control of his own life, so one could argue that he wants to be in control of whether he lives or dies).

Sometimes I feel we tend to forget how young the twst characters are. Even Leona, sitting at 20 years old, I’d consider relatively young, which just makes everything they go through that much sadder. They’re so young, and though there will never really be an age where it’s easy to handle this sort of stuff, as a teenager it’s even harder because life is already so complicated and difficult for them (speaking as if I’m not a teen myself lol).

Kalim in this song/animatic pleads to just be normal, to do normal teenage things, to set aside all the complicated feelings that have been bubbling under the surface for both of them, all the stupid things their lives have thrown at them, and to just be seventeen. Not the Housewarden and Vice-Housewarden, not Master and Servant, not an Asim and a Viper, but just Jamil and Kalim, just two seventeen year old boys.

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Soooo it’s been a month… I promise I’m not dead and I also haven’t lost interest in twst, I’ve just been hyperfixating on other things, plus I’ve been really busy with school. Drawing can be really hard sometimes :(

I kinda pulled a Wiege (Alien Stage) by including some weird AU of some sorts huh! What a fun episode Wiege was, I totally didn’t sob violently! Also!!! The Scarabia manga has FINALLY released and its so cool!!! Well worth the way. The new Yuu is a Gyaru, and she’s so cool! I had my doubts on the artist they chose, but honesty they really delivered, I’m really happy with how the manga looks :)

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Hello again

Hope everyone is doing well

These were done as pencil commissions

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We got Scarabia student B content I'm sobbing rn😭😭😭

(got the pic from @skibidibabygirl )

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