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Hand carved kudzu leaves.

I’ll start making block prints with this design tomorrow.

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subtle signs of a dissociative disorder:

looking in the mirror and not recognizing your reflection

feeling unfamiliar with your own body

feeling like your hands are not yours

feelings of confusion, numbness, un-reality

feeling unsure of where you are or what's going on sometimes

feeling like nothing is real, or like the world in your head is more real to you than the world outside

spending time diving into the world inside your head almost like you can live in there instead of reality

remembering past events very vaguely, only remembering few moments and the rest is blank, or having trouble recalling past events at all

having holes in your memory, days, weeks, or months missing

feeling emotions that you don't think are yours

having trains of thoughts that don't seem like you, and you don't feel like you would think in that direction

having conversations in your head that you do not have to figure out what the other side is saying, instead it comes at you as a surprise when they speak

losing your emotions about certain events, even when you can remember them and place them in time, you just feel  nothing about it, even though you remember feeling something previously

losing the memory of people from your past, forgetting friendships, relationships, and conversations you had completely, not remembering who you are to someone or what once was

having topics that are forbidden to think about and you feel your entire thought process halted and turned to nothing if you try to think in those directions

feeling like you've changed completely from who you were few years or even few months ago, promptly forgetting anything about your past version of yourself

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In the intricate dance of existence, we navigate textured waves and imperfect lines. Moments of uncertainty may falter our steps, but remember, dear soul, you are never alone in these trembles.

Amidst mental illness, worry, and grief, hold onto a serene hope. You remain beautiful, resilient, capable of weathering storms. Trust in your spirit's unyielding strength to guide you through highs and lows.

Brighter days emerge from shadows. Find solace within, acknowledging your journey. Embrace the peace that comes from being an embodiment of hope. Let your spirit carry you forward.

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The way the lines weave and contrast with other colors.

Convergence, 2023, 40" x 30", Acrylic on canvas

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Beautiful colors.

“Reverb” 2021, Oil and gold leaf on panel, 30x30 inches

www.stephaniescott.art

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Within the past five months, something incredible has happened. I've rediscovered my passion for painting, and it has taken hold of me completely. The works I create now are a fusion of vibrant hues and defined edges, embodying a unique style. Inspiration flows from the nostalgic color palettes of the 60s, 70s, 90s, and the soothing pastel trends of yesteryears.

But my journey has been far from easy. Battling an autoimmune disease, depression, and anxiety has been my reality for years. Countless doctor visits, endless prescriptions, and a never-ending series of blood tests have marked the past 12 years of my life.

Yet, my art has a purpose beyond personal expression. I want it to exist because I know I'm not alone in this emotional anguish and physical pain. Many of you, too, face similar struggles. And so, I'm baring my heart and soul to give voice to what we often find too difficult to speak about openly.

Mental health and chronic pain should never be taboo subjects. By sharing my art, I hope to bridge the gap, to spark conversations, and to let others know they are not alone. Together, we can break the silence and bring light to the shadows that surround us.