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Finally took the time to colour

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"i'll never say it, but i hope you know."

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finally contributing to sangihun nation

art is mine!! album is not!!

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sorry still thinking about him

run aylus

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it hurts so bad to know that Sangwoo didn't allow himself to cry in this scene

Look at him, there *are* tears in his eyes and he did jolt when he heard the gunshot and you can even see him swallow, probably to hold back his tears or to keep his vomit down.

He didn't even *want* to betray Ali.

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The stars align, but not for me.

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I have absolutely no words to describe how psychically, physically and spiritually impactful this scene was and still is on me. Despite this, I feel I could describe in keen detail its significance from a character perspective. [warning for unscripted and unfiltered fixation rambling]

The way Gihun centralises himself in situ with Sangwoo’s morals. The way Sangwoo is immediately angry at him for even suggesting he would hurt Gihun, but biting his lip back when he realised that Gihun actually considers that scenario in his anger. Gihun’s unwavering gaze momentarily breaking through Sangwoo’s hardened facade, his eyes flickering as he dodges Gihun’s stare, unable to form a response. Sangwoo is such a deeply complex character (as is Gihun ofc) but in such a way that all his thoughts and moral code is obscured through the lens he wants others to see, meaning it lacks full truth on the surface. His appearance is so strictly crafted to what he wants others to perceive that he loses himself in it and when Gihun punctures that presentation it wounds him. Gihun sees through him, and says the exact thing that breaks the camels back. Sangwoo is vulnerable in that knowledge. They are both so vulnerable in this moment, but it’s the central moment that Gihun’s understanding of Sangwoo is projected at him without a veneer of kindness. He wants Sangwoo to feel guilty, and he succeeds in this; despite how firm Sangwoo is in his own part that he plays in the games and his lack of copability for his actions, he stutters under this question. Gihun targets the one thing he knows Sangwoo isn’t able to keep that front for.

Himself.

Gihun has grown up with Sangwoo, seen the pits of poverty with Sangwoo and is now face to face with him and all that history under the impression that Sangwoo’s willingness to kill under these circumstances will extend to him. It doesn’t. And that defined Sangwoo’s one stake in the game;

(Bit of personal interpretation here because I’ve been so solid in my idea of Sangwoo’s true intentions when traversing the game for 3 long years)

Gihun being alive to see the money that he knows he’d never live to use, even if he left victorious.

I adore them. I hate them. I can’t stop thinking about them. They are so deeply important to me. I. Them. They.

It’s 5am, I need rest.

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do not like how this came out but we ball ig

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Original

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started thinking abt Kieran survives AU to cope w/ the events of chapter 4

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The Cast of the Golden Hour

( x )

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WAAAH ARTHUR MORGAN MY BELOVED

C'MON, KEEP ON DANCING MORGAN

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I WAS JUST THINKING ABOUT THIS!!

also this is my delusion talking butbut what if Bill motioned Javier to run/follow him??

i need to know at what point did bill and javier stop running together. we see them running away with each other instead of sticking around with dutch snd micah to kill arthur and john. when do they split up? what was the breakup like. my boys....

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playing through the mission today and spotted him... do you SEE bill trying to tap along to javier's music?? do you SEE the lack of RHYTHM this man has?? yet he's still trying to tap along for HIM!! AHHH!! (new headcanon potential)

i'm reading so hard between the lines that the lines don't even exist anymore because oh lord bill... you're trying and javier adores you for that i swear

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on my hands and knees i am so soft for willscuella i need more