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Because this is how I feel.

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[jaydadevine1]

“Mama never told me that when you’re in love, your favorite color changes to the color of their eyes, your favorite sound is the sound of their voice, your favorite place is placed in between their arms. She must’ve forgot. Dad never told me that when you’re in love, time begins to slow, but goes faster then you want, when you kiss them fireworks dont go off, but you are calm and safe, that all you ever want to do is be by their side. He must’ve forgot. They never told me that love was the scariest thing in the world, I didn’t think that it was giving someone a loaded gun and turning around hoping they wont pull the trigger. They must’ve forgot”

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Never faked my "I miss you" and "I love you", Only thing I faked is "I'm Okay".

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Nostalgia right here.

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"Even thought I was birthed by one, I still call a girl a bitch coz i was hurt by one, and that ain't fair, it was deserved by some, but they also gave their hearts to a lover too and got hurt by son." King Kananji, Royal

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Change is apart of life, chapter's close, new seasons begin. But when it all happens at once it's daunting. But heart on sleeve, vibrating higher to the beat of my own drum...onward and upward.

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"Chirpin' everyday, Learnin' every way, Each and every day, Locked in my estate, Trynna find a way, Think it's time to pray, For real (yeaaah), Chirpin' everyday, Learnin' every way, Nothing seems to change, Running out of faith, Think I need a break, Tell me if you'll wait."

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Somtimes you just have to shake your head, let out a deep sigh, and move onto the next one.

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3am is a trip...

3am

I want to dance in a quiet kitchen at 3am with my best friend, because we can't sleep but we don't want to do anything else.

I want to "watch a movie" with you on a rainy day, we both know that we aren't watching the movie but we won't turn it off because it's warm here on the couch, with you.

I want to rush about the house because I woke up late and the dryer never finished and I forgot to feed the cat and I haven't made my coffee yet and I can't find my keys and there you are, standing in the kitchen doorway with a blanket around your shoulders watching me run around like a madman, but I won't care that I'm late because I made sure that I kissed you goodbye.

I want to wipe your tears away when the world gets to you again, because I want to make up for all of the times I wasn't there to do it.

I want my ribs to hurt from laughing because you keep making that face and oh my god I can't breathe from how hard I'm laughing and there's tears in my eyes but I wouldn't trade this moment for the world.

I want to stand with you in the bathroom, holding your hand because after all these years, you still hate needles, but I'll be there telling you that you've got this; you've done this before, you can do it again.

I want to stay in bed with you because it's Saturday, we don't have to do anything today, the curtains are closed, the cat is sitting just past our feet, one of your hands is on my thigh, the other is intertwined with mine between us. I can't see your face but I know that you aren't asleep, I'm warm and I never want to wake up.

I want to stand with you in the corner because there's a lot of people here and it's loud and I'm on my second lemonade and I can feel my shirt tag and my earbuds are in the car and someone else just got here and the music's loud and we've been here for 53 minutes and my phone battery is at 56 percent and it's loud and you just grabbed my hand and we're leaving? oh my god we're leaving, thank you Love.

I want to lay with you on the living room floor on a Thursday evening and I want to whisper to you about my day and I want you to whisper back about yours and then I just want to lazily kiss you because I can and we aren't in a rush and you'd kiss me back because you know it too.

I want to watch you making dinner because you're listening to music and you're having the time of your life singing along and you haven't noticed that I'm watching you so I want to sneak up and give you a hug from behind and I'd scare you in the process but it'd be funny and I'd apologize by kissing you everywhere on your face.

I want to laugh with you, I want to cry with you.

I want to kiss you soft and sweet, hard and fast.

I want to be sick with you, and angry with you.

I want to share our lives.

I want to love you.

I want to love you in this life and every single one before and after.

and I want you to love me too.

I want to dance in a quiet kitchen at 3am with my best friend because we can't sleep but we love each other so it'll be okay.

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I wonder how much of us can’t be put into words.