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[je-suis-lainey]

I think my roommate cursed me

okay, backstory.

so i moved into this apartment in January and its been great, most of my roommates are nice and we all hang out together. in the middle of February, we had another girl move in with us and while she was really nice, she just had an off vibe about her. she had just gone through a divorce, and a really messy breakup, so we kinda overlooked the weirdness and moved on with our lives. but weve all be talking this entire time about how shes really nice, but we all hate her. i have no idea why, i want to like her a lot, but everytime she talks to us, its to bitch about something. like she comes to us to talk and she talks about her problems and then leaves. doesnt take any of our advice, and has even admitted to me that she doesnt talk to her therapist about these things, she only dumps it on us. anyways let me get to my point.

Once i was talking to her about spiritual shit and how i was thinking about veiling and stuff. she IMMEDIATELY starts braiding her hair and tells me that youre supposed to do that to "trap somebodys energy" or some shit. the exact moment she touched her hair, i felt this wave of hateful and sad energy right at me and it was like overwhelming, i couldnt breathe for a hot second. I told her about it and she was like "oh sorry, i didnt mean to do that" like some kid who only has to say sorry bc her mommy made her. that was like the first couple days she moved in and ever since then i havent felt welcome in any room shes in. I started failing my classes, my chronic pain got worse, ive been more depressed and confused, and the weirdest part about it is that i havent had a period since shes gotten here. see its not hugely regular, but 25 days late is insane even for me. I feel like shes draining my energy the more time i spend with her.

Shes moving out in a month or so, so hopefully itll be okay but im afraid whoever she sells her lease to will be the same or worse. I live in a very religious area, and im queer and a baby witch. Ive been trying to think of ways to protect myself but i dont know what to do, id appreciate any help or validation that im not crazy.

[je-suis-lainey]

headscarf/ head coverings

Ive only been into pagan/ witchy stuff for a couple weeks, and i dont know if this has anything to do with it, but i keep looking at myself in the mirror with a hood on and it just feels right. i dont have any other reason like everyone else does, like protecting my energy or something, it just feels like something i need to do, it feels complete. i used to cover my hair with a blanket a lot as a kid and i dont know if i just think it looks cool or if its something i need to do. I guess im just looking for someone to tell me im not crazy, or this is a sign of a deaity reaching out or something, i just feel weird wanting to use a head covering without any specific reason. im also in between religions rn and i dont know what to do with that either.