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no thoughts today only Lanyon

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Hmmm... Want Lanyon keychain so bad...

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I was thinking lately, as it happens sometimes: I have already seen fanfictions where Jekyll and Hyde end up merging and become one again. I really like it when there's descriptions of the quiet in their mind after the fusion, and how lonely they feel after so long time spent being two.

But, the point of view is always more or less that of Jekyll, who misses Hyde. However, if they merge, shouldn't Hyde be here too? Shouldn't it be some typical Hyde's thoughts in the mix?

So here's my thought: I think it would be really cool to read something where instead of Jekyll calling Hyde's name out of inattention, he calls Jekyll's name. Something in the line of:

"Jekyll, you should take a look at that! See how the stars twinkle in the night, when did we see them so clearly, I can't remember, do you have an ide-"

And then he looks back expectantly to some reflective surface, said "... Jekyll?" once more and remembers that he's alone in his mind now.

I'm sure we can add a whole new level of angst with that. Describe how he can spiral once he realises that he's calling his own name for example, idk.

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top 5 things (in no particular order) my irls have said about TGS characters:

1. about Hyde: "he looks like he would love Radioactive by Imagine Dragons"

2. about Jekyll: "this man could consume 98% of the Earth's oxygen in one inhale with that big ass nose. good for him"

3. "imagine for a minute, hypothetically, that Jekyll and Lanyon fused or had a child. imagine the sheer SIZE of that nose."

4. about Jekyll and Hyde: "i have a headcanon. hear me out. imagine if Jekyll's nose size multiplied when he turns into Hyde because they both have massive noses in the mindscape. no no i swear it makes sense just hear me out-"

5. following item 3: "now imagine, for a moment, that this fusion or child also had its own version of Hyde. they get even MORE Nose Per Nose. IMAGINE."

extra - about Jekyll: "side burns and bottoming... this is the kind of greed they talk about in the bible"

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Aha, ik I haven't posted Elias/tgs stuff in forever (and still need to do that promised rundown/intro post for Elias, sobs) ANDDDD it's late af (literally 10 minutes until the 23rd ends for me) BUT, today was officially a year since I had first posted him anywhere!! Happy birthday Elias! My son is one year old,,,, and I've already said this multiple times in other places, but thank you to everyone that has ever interacted with or encouraged me in creating any of the characters or pieces I've ever made. This silly little following I never expected to gain literally means the world to me, and I don't think I'll ever stop being grateful for all the friends I've made, ily guys <333

Otherwise!!! I wrote a last minute little birthday oneshot for him :3 I originally was trying to get the next A Little Identity chapter done but it's been giving me some issues, so I did this instead!! I hope you guys like it, even if it's a bit lackluster lmao

"Happy birthday Elias," he smiled at the other, giving his shoulder a gentle squeeze, "go on, It's your party." With that utterance, tears finally started falling from Elias's eyes, quickly rubbed away with the back of his hand. His party--and it was a real one, not one of those stuffy balls where well dressed folk would kiss up to his family--the only parties he had ever received as Lanyon. But this wasn't even Lanyon's party, this was his, because he wasn't Robert Lanyon anymore. He wasn't above these people--he was an equal, and had been for a full year. ----- I.e, Elias celebrates a full year of being his own person, unexpectedly beloved by the scientists he had come to bond with in that time. (HAPPY BIRTHDAY TO MY SILLY BLOND SON <3)

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Edward Hyde crashout but it's set to Will Wood (as all good crashouts should be)

Song: Cotard's Solution (Anatta, Dukkha, Anicca) by Will Wood and the Tapeworms

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(I'm a bit self conscious about it, but since it's written, I guess I can share my thoughts about the last page.) (Also I'm sorry for any eventual mistakes.)

We're so fucked people.

You see this face?

Of course you see it, and you probably understand perfectly that it is the face of someone that has abandoned everything.

But just look at his face. Please.

He's so tired. He only smiles because nothing can reach him here. He hasn't even the energy to be angry anymore. He has nothing left in him. He's just here, and it's peaceful. And there's nothing else.

I fear that he won't show any emotion in the next page, if not more than just in the next one. He's so deep in his own head, it's frightening. Really. I fear than even if Hyde mentions Lanyon, Henry won't react. Maybe it would light a sparkle in his eyes for one panel, but nothing more. Nothing else. Nothing at all.

If Hyde starts to scream at Jekyll, I don't think Jekyll will do more than whisper. Just simple sentences, very short, but oh so cutting. Sentences where there isn't any alternative than what they offer, in other words complete rejection of any hope. He will just barely listen with the same tired smile on his lips, and then tell Hyde calmly all the reason why the world will be better without them. Why it's useless to try to go back up with everyone. He will probably weaponize what Jasper told him before, and say that they can't be happy since they couldn't believe in someone else's happiness, and therefore they don't deserve to be. He will say that the Society will die anyway, with him or not, and that if they do get back up, the police and half of London will be out there to hunt them til the end of their life. It's not worth it. They aren't worth it, since they worth nothing at all.

And even in his one single tiny little sentence, you can feel his self hatred so deeply it hurts. Because he isn't disappointed when he says "Gave up already, have you?". He isn't because he was expecting it. Why would he expect more of Hyde? Why would he expect more of himself? He's a coward from the very start. Of course he would give up. He had gave up his whole life: he gave up on his love for Lanyon, on his origin, on his own experiment, on himself. He's a fake, and a coward, and he can't do anything. Hyde can't do more than him. Hyde is the plague he brought on himself, and that plague was there the whole time because it's him, it's only him and it's always been only him. There wasn't anything to expect from himself in the first place. Jekyll isn't disappointed because he takes Hyde appearance as a confirmation for his beliefs about himself.

He couldn't imagine for one second that Hyde has something as the moment that he has not: an anchor. A support. The assurance that someone cares for him, that he is loved, and that if he leave, he will be missed. Hyde knows they have a reason to live, and Jekyll doesn't, and he will try with all his might to ignore them and instead tell Edward all the reason they should just die already. End it all.

On an happier note, I see two way for them to get out of this terrible state of mind:

- 1: Lanyon's voice reaches them through the life-line, and somehow he manages to convince Henry that he is worth something. (It's probably unlikely since they seem to be so deep in their mind that they can't feel anything from the outside world.) But it would be very cute.

- 2: When (and if) Jekyll does say (like I theorize) that their situation is helpless and that the moment they take one step out the society they will be sent immediately to Bethlam, Hyde will remember the fake-death potion, form a plan and roll with it immediately. If Henry does start to get angry at a point, I think it would be here, because the peace he had finally found is stripped of him right before his eyes, and he doesn't want to fall into hope's trap again. He doesn't want to come back. And then Edward will finally manage to make Henry listen to him, and they will make the best of plans together. They hug. (Please let them hug.) And then they go out together. End of the chapter!

I know what I said here would probably not happen. I'm not even sure it make sense, but I wanted to share it anyway. Maybe it'll interest someone?

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not very new hyperfixation rediscovered write a poem abt it

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Sometimes it's funny how I could sense a Hyde design without looking at the caption nor the tags???

Like, I randomly scrolls through my tumblr and then an art of a character I've never seen before, but I'll go "huh he looks like a hyde", and then I looked at the tags and I was proven right.

THAT DESIGN DOESNT EVEN HAVE THE SILLY TOP HAT MANY PEOPLE DREW HYDE ON OR THE SPOOKY CRAZY BIG SPIKEY HAIR, BUT I COULD JUST SENSE ITTTNFKDBXKDH

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I stumbled across @arythusa’s The Glass Scientists webcomic early this year and fell in love, so I animated a little scene for fun 🧪

I built a Front and 3/4 Front Jekyll and Hyde rig (fun fact, they’re one rig!) and animated them in Toon Boom Harmony, HalluciLanyon spawning and getting harpooned is a tweaked version of that rig, and him getting bodied was drawn in Procreate.  The layout was also made in Harmony. The audio is from the movie Drop Dead Fred.

I used the comic itself as the ‘model sheet’ to build the rig off of- used various panels for their heights and body parts in place of character, hand, mouth, etc sheets, so many pieces are pulled right from the pages. I also got to experiment with compositing, which was fun!

The art and story of this comic hooked me and I’m so excited to see where it goes! ❣️

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Words can’t describe how much i love these two oh my goddhdhdhs i want to squeeze them together

late valentines post yeah ik, i’ve been in a slump lately😔

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thinking about trans jekyll,,,

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its rather sad that i only had the time to draw something, cause im sick at the moment

well well enjoy anyways

not my best but its ok

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Bro is NOT playing chess 💀💀

I was dying with the flu when making this sorry if it's messy 🤩

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Thinking about….. him ✨