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it's interesting how you were both here a year ago, and we were messing around at the thanksgiving dinner table. you were in a rush to finish your science homework, and she was watching glee up in her room.

it's interesting how two years ago, we all were here. me, you, dad, her, mom. i miss those days.

i think it's pretty sad how someone can influence another to make a choice that takes their life. 

it's almost been a year since you passed away, and everyday you're my motivation to do better. you always wanted me to exceed, and do more. i never did, but heeyyy, i have been lately and it's all for you. :D 

i love and miss you, both of you, all three of you. <3 

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it's interesting because when i met you, i didn't know i would fall in love with you. i didn't know that falling in love with you meant i'd constantly feel stupid. it's also really interesting how much you SAY you want me to stay here, but honestly, if I left you wouldn't even care/notice because you're soo busy. it's funny because i never thought you'd be the judgmental type, the type to only hang out with someone because they're asian? it's like you're trying really hard to fit in with them. me < your group of korean friends (even though you're viet, you're not even korean??) plus, they're all super judgmental too. i know you're going to completely leave me for them sooner or later, so I don't know why the fuck I'm still here?? the simplest things you do can make me feel like crap. 

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i really just wish i never met you 

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i think if i went along with this, it'd just kill me, i'd be happier, but it'd kill me everyday 

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kill me

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why why why why do i love you so much

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WARNING!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! THIS BLOG CONTAINS ”ADULT LANGUAGE”!!!! PLEASE UNFOLLOW IF YOU CANNOT HANDLE WORDS SUCH AS, ‘BRIEFCASE’, ‘MORTGAGE’, ‘ECONOMY’ OR ‘OFFICE’

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best thing i never had!!!!!

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why did i even talk to you that day why why why

like i remember that day perfectly

i was listening to "can we fall in love" ((ironic how i'm in love with you)), we were in the library and you sat next to me. I remember the first thing I ever said to you was "woaaa, you're smart." and after that I was like struggling and I kinda just wanted someone to talk to because my bestfriend had just left me that week, so I kept bringing up stuff about asians and idk. i remember we'd always sit in the library next to each other, and then we'd walk around together. and i remember when i was alone in the cafeteria because I knew NO ONE here, you ditched the group you were in, just to sit with me. i remember looking over at you and you were whispering in your friends ear, then you came over to sit with me. i remember when it started raining suuper hard when we just got out of the library, and you held my hand and we ran. we looked really stupid, and it was like i didn't even care about getting soaked in water. i remember when i lied to you and said I went to your taekwondo to see my friend, but I was really there for you. i left without saying goodbye, and when you got home you messaged me saying "why did you leave? :(" and idk it just felt nice that you noticed because i'm not the cutest guy but you're like really cute and like you're no dannie riel or whatever but that's why i love you. you have this nerdy side, like you look really nerdy and idk that doesn't really define you because you're super awkward and cool and i don't know i love you so much but i'm so scared to tell you like i'm too scared to even hug you but hey thats life 

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it just now hit me, that when we were talking today, you didn't say my name, you called me some other guys name, which means he was on your mind, which means you'd probably choose me over him? which means idk why did i even make you cookies lol i feel like eating them instead of giving them to you now

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when you make a post directed to your crush and some white girl comes along...............

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