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Lately, an overwhelming despondency has enveloped me, rendering me devoid of any semblance of motivation. The very thought of laboring fills me with dread, yet a cruel irony persists, for I am acutely aware of the manifold responsibilities that weigh heavily upon my shoulders, demanding my attention. My time spent staring at screens is an ailment unto itself, as my mind is besieged by a tumult of thoughts, each one contributing to a relentless anxiety that denies me the solace of restful slumber.

Oftentimes, a profound sense of ugliness consumes me. I cannot summon the will to cleanse my visage, to tend to my blemished skin, to bathe, or to exercise my body, caring for it as I ought. It is as though the very world conspires against me, and I am left with the bitter conviction that even God himself has turned His face from me, casting impediments upon my path and driving me into the depths of despair.

To distract myself from these dismal thoughts, I oft resort to gazing upon my phone, seeking refuge in its cold, indifferent glow. Yet, this endeavor serves only to deepen my woes, as I observe the lives of others, seemingly perfect, and I am seized by a cruel envy. I question the very purpose of my toils: why should I strive toward my dreams when it seems as though the divine offers no succor, and my journey is fraught with endless trials and hopelessness?

This incessant internal strife leaves me adrift and desolate. The burdens I bear and the ceaseless pressure to achieve success feel insurmountable. I yearn for a spark to reignite my passion, a reason to persevere, but it remains ever elusive. The world appears to be an unfeeling, hostile place, and I am but a weary soul struggling to find my place within it.

In the stillness of the night, as I lie awake, my thoughts turn dark and brooding. The silence amplifies my fears and insecurities, and I feel isolated, as though no one can truly understand the depths of my despair. The weight of my responsibilities presses down upon me like a millstone, and I find myself questioning the very fabric of my existence.

Why must I endure such hardship? Why does my path seem so uniquely fraught with peril and despair? These questions haunt me, and the answers elude me, leaving me in a perpetual state of melancholy. Yet, deep within, a flicker of hope remains—a fragile, flickering light that refuses to be extinguished. Perhaps, one day, I shall find the strength to rise above these trials and reclaim my sense of purpose and joy.

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Its kind of sad.

I feel like i was always alone and there will be no one on my side.

Ang unfair lang na pag ang kaibigan ko ang may pinagdadaanan, andyan ako palagi sa kanila. I always treat them special.

Pero pag ako na yung kelangan ng karamay, walang gusto umintindi sa akin, ang worst pa mga, kung sino ung pinaka-close ko ngayon, yun pa ang parang naka-abang sa pagbagsak ko palagi.

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Some of the scenic spots i visited in the town of Culion. Breath-taking!

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The story of Culion: an island once a leprosarium

The story of Culion: an island once a leprosarium

When you heard about Palawan, what pops out on most of the people’s minds are beautiful beaches, scenic views, ethereal beauty of the nature or probably names of the places within Palawan such as El Nido and Coron because they are the top tourist spots here in the Philippines.

But I won’t share you what are my experiences on the said places, but rather tell you a story, a heartfelt story about…

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The story of Culion: an island once a leprosarium

The story of Culion: an island once a leprosarium

When you heard about Palawan, what pops out on most of the people’s minds are beautiful beaches, scenic views, ethereal beauty of the nature or probably names of the places within Palawan such as El Nido and Coron because they are the top tourist spots here in the Philippines.

But I won’t share you what are my experiences on the said places, but rather tell you a story, a heartfelt story about…

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what supplies do you use for your art?? (also ur a god at journalling pls keep it up)

muji notebook or watercolor paper

black ballpoint pen (lineart)

steadler permanent marker / indian ink (inking)

van gogh watercolor pocket box (coloring)

thank you so much! <3

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After this pandemic

Try to reach out more to people

Travel and explore more than you have done before but

Be wise on money and save for emergencies

Make experiences

Do things that you haven't done yet

And do not take everything and everyone for granted

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The best lessons that i received in life so far is

To never be afraid to cut ties with anyone when it comes to them affecting your mental health

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Sometimes you have to detached yourself from anything, visit new places and reconnect to nature to keep your sanity. . . . . . . . . #travelphotography #travelph #vitaminsea #nature #naturephotography #photography #travel #travelphilippines https://www.instagram.com/p/B9yvAvRApLa/?igshid=1ke1iw818tmk

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a very late 'welcome 2020' and some tips to be 'better me 2020'

a very late ‘welcome 2020’ and some tips to be ‘better me 2020’

Hey! its been 36 days since we’ve greeted the new year 2020, and here i am sitting in front of my laptop, wondering how it went wrong why i fell out of love writing about the events happening around me, Lol!

since, 2019, last year, ang dami ng ganap sa buhay, to think that the last time i uploaded here was July 2019, and i cant write all what had happened and what are the important events.

So…