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I’m sorry tumblrverse for abandoning you for so long. But look what I made (granted he’s almost 5 months old now)

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I realize I never updated here. I spend all my free time sleeping these days. We got to see the little blueberry on ultrasound last week! Measuring right on time with a heart beat of 153.

🎉We’ve officially ‘graduated’ from our fertility clinic and I’ll move to my maternity Dr. (Literally the building next door but still!) I have a butt load of appts coming up and retesting my TSH because they upped the meds again. We should be getting our genetic screening done around 12 weeks and we’ll choose to find out the sex of the baby then too!

Obviously sticking with optimism for now, I know we’re by no means in the safe zone but this feels pretty darn good.

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Hi Tumblr world, I’ve been hiding out because IVF is a TRIP and I just need to yell into the void (no one IRL gets to know this for another week!) and be excited that…

I’m PREGNANT!

My beta HCG had to be over 50, and it was 101 today! Thursday they want to see it double then I can book my first ultrasound for 4 weeks from now. I can’t even comprehend that this is happening…

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every person can feel freddie’s presence in their souls when they sing MAMAAAAAA UUHHHH, I DONT WANNA DIE, I SOMETIMES I WISH I’VE NEVER BEEN BORN AT ALL with all the air in their lungs i’m not joking

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After I get my new job I’m getting my nose pierced

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Lorde vs other celebs on hot ones

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anyway if anyone needs me on november 19, i’ll be laying on my floor listening to the 10 minute version of “all too well” and feeling all my feelings.

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Putting in my two-ish weeks notice at the end of this week.

DONE with shitty (manager) people. I’d rather work at McDonald’s. I actually feel bad for my littles and their families though

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Just need to shout into the void that I posted this (disturbing yet hilarious to me) magnet on my IG as we are on the mainland for the weekend and a somewhat close friend messaged me and ASKED IF THIS WAS A WAY TO ANNOUNCE IM PREGNANT ???

What in the actual flying fuck. Me, a very loudly proclaiming infertile will not be vague posting about a pregnancy. I will be shouting it from the god damn rooftops if I’m pregnant.

Instantly blocked.

All negative and stupid folks will be blocked with no explanation. I’m so done.

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Imperialism kills.

They stole the land and killed the children.

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I have only told 2 people IRL because it feels so far away but we had our call Wednesday with the clinic and we’ve decided to move onto IVF and we were approved!

I never thought we would do IVF. Despite us not expecting to have issues with fertility to begin with, I though IVF was a big scary expensive monster. It still is to be honest-but after the almost hour long phone call with our oh so patient and lovely Dr she made me feel comfortable and confident in the process and our chances of success. She gave us the highest possible success rate at 70%! I’m flabbergasted.

My ovarian reserve is stocked full of eggs so she anticipates 20-40 eggs from our egg retrieval. Who knows how many will fertilize and mature but damn, that’s a great number to start. Of course there’s always a chance my body doesn’t respond to the meds but I exceeded the response when we were stimulating them with Letrozole before so I feel good about the injections working well. The act of injecting myself (or having M do it as most partners do) is a different story. M is worried sick about it and I might just do them myself to keep the stress off of him, although I’m sure after our class on how to do it he will take a stab at it (get it, cause it’s needles?!)

Anyways I had to blab this all out somewhere because I have slept like crap the last two night letting my mind run rampant about spending all of this money, and the trips to the main land, and finally FINALLY having a baby! Which by my calculations if embaby #1 is successful would arrive July/August 2022. We decided to take some times off. Read: I need a mental, physical, and emotional break. So I have a few tests to get done and we will start protocol in September!

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so can we start hunting down white liberals now or what