jessancapito12diligence

[jessancapito12diligence]

This blog contains all my works/outputs on creative writing. A day to realize, a day to realize because, of all the things that happened to me later on I'd realize that this makes me more stronger than before. This is also to show my creativeness in writing.

I. POEM

> You

> Love My Growth the Way you Love Me

II. ONE ACT PLAY

> Love and Inspiration Turned into Hatred

III. SHORT STORY

> Everything Turns Back

YOU

When I close my eyes,

I see no one, it's you beside me,

A soul for the unending eternity,

It's very tough live without you darling,

You became the reason of my existence,

Make a beautiful longevity in this world.

In this dark world, you're my sunshine,

Brighten my life until the seasons end,

My family became very stable with your irresistible love,

My world is bigger than others,

With your amazing performance,

It's became a garden of love, joy and happiness.

And I've nothing difficult,

Get heavens taste in your gregarious softhearted companionship,

By dreaming it's blessed corollary,

It gives an immense pleasure live in multiple harmony,

Being a lifetime partner for someone,

She isn't a wife to me, reliable friend till the end of time.

My world is very beautiful for you,

Even though it's fogged and murky,

I see things perfectly decent with you,

I feel awesomely delighted spending every single moment with you,

I can touch the blue sky and take long breath,

As I am a survivor of gracious world.

Love My Growth The Way You Love Me

You told me the other day that I'm too blunt, too rough,

That I need to think out better ways to say things before they come out of my mouth

Why create a euphemism or anecdote for something that is already honest

And come to me the way it need to be conveyed

After all these years of showing myself down to make room for pleasing other people.

I'm finally saying the blunt, overly-honest words

That always wanted to claw past my teeth

I won't go back into that box,

I won't bury myself down just to spare your feelings

I can't go back and I won't.

LOVE AND INSPIRATION TURNED INTO HATRED

All of us were excited about the result of our ranking. I was very nervous and at the same time happy because I was expecting that I would get the position I worked hard. When the result was been posted, I was shocked and my tears forms in my eyes. Before my tears fall I’ve wiped it already in order to not seen by other. I went out and decided to be alone, my friends are finding me so that they will comfort me because they know what I feel.

“We’ve finally saw you” my friends while walking towards me.

“What are you doing here”? I asked them. I went out to breathe some air cause I didn’t breathe because of so much hit; I added.

“We know what you feel so don’t try to hide it, were also shocked about the result”.

“I’m good don’t mind it, let’s accept what has been the result we can’t do anything to change it” I’d reply.

“If you want let’s talked our adviser and asked why did it happened” while looking at me.

“No, we don’t need to do that”.

After we’ve talked, we didn’t notice that one of my classmate told our adviser that I am disappointed about the result of our ranking. And then someone came in our place and told me that our adviser wanted to talk to me. I’d decided to follow my classmate towards our teacher.

“Do you have any questions, clarifications and complaint about our ranking?” teacher asked.

“(Look at her) none ma’am” I’d reply.

“Don’t you dare to complaint about the result cause you don’t deserve to be in the position that you wanted” she added.

I was shocked and my tears suddenly appears again but before it fall down I’d already wiped it so that no one can see it. After she told me that I decided to go out and pack my things to go home. The day after, I was alone and thinking about what happened and what she told me while crying when one also of my teacher saw me and try to talked to me.

“Can I sit beside you?” he asked.

“(Sigh) Sir…. While there are tears in my eyes”.

“What happened? Why are you crying, is anything wrong?” he asked.

(Turn around and look at him), thinking if I should tell him what happened. And then I decided to tell him. I discuss him everything that has happened and he also was shocked about it.

“How did it happened?” he also again asked because of his shocked.

“I also don’t know sir, I don’t even see any reason why did it happened. I’ve done everything I can to make it but I failed”. I’d reply.

“I was also thinking that you’ll get the position that you want cause I’ve seen all your outputs and it’s all good”, he added.

“I really can’t understand sir, maybe she does it because she doesn’t like me”.

“Did you already asked your adviser about it?” he asked.

“No, I didn’t. I’m afraid that she’ll got mad at me if I tried to asked her.” I’d reply.

After we’ve talked I’ve decided to pack my things and get ready to go home. Days passed and all the teachers had a meeting. After the meeting, the teacher who talked to wanting to talked to me and he asked someone to tell if I’m available so that we can talk. I’d agreed to talked to him cause I’m not busy that time. When I came to his room, only the two of us are in.

“Good morning sir, why did you call me?” I asked.

“Are you okay now? Does your parents know about the result?” he asked.

“Ah yes sir, I’ve already told them the result”.

“What does their reactions about it”.

“They can’t also believe it, but they said that all we need to do is to accept it cause we can’t do anything to change it”.

“What about you? Are you finally okay with it?” he also asked.

“Trying to, sir”. I’d reply.

“You know what, I will be honest with you. On the meeting I told your adviser that you’re the one who get the award in my subject and before I write your name on a piece of paper she definitely disagreed about it. She told me that you don’t deserve it and she told me to give it to the highest position. I don’t agreed to her but she told me that she doesn’t want to accept it and also told me that being the highest one in my subject is not the qualification of giving an award. I didn’t even try to argue I don’t want to get the argue for long”. He added.

“Its okay sir, I’ll understand”.

After that I didn’t even bothered again to talk to them. I didn’t even tried to talk for long to all my teachers. After completing all the final requirements for the recognition day I didn’t even come to school to attend the rehearsal for the recognition day. Even they’re asking someone to come in our house to make me attend the rehearsal I didn’t even come. I’ve decided to stay at home alone and don’t want to talk to someone even my friends. Until my brother called and asked about our recognition day and the ranking. My mother told him the whole story and told him also that I don’t want to attend even the day of the recognition.

My brother talked to me and said that even if that’s what happened he forced me to attend the recognition. I told him that I don’t want but he didn’t give up on forcing me. He told me that I need to attend the recognition day because his about to go home and want to attend my recognition day. After we’ve talked, the next day my mother remind me to attend the rehearsal even just for my brother. And because of that I also come to school to attend and even if I’m in school for the rehearsal I didn’t even tried to talked to them. All I want is to be alone and to go home as early if the rehearsal is done.

EVERYTHING TURNS BACK

I’m Jessan Capito a 20 year old Grade 12 student taking up Humanities and Social Sciences in GPGSHS. I’m the daughter of Nestor Capito and Melissa Capito. I have three siblings; two brother and one sister. I’m the third among us. My father is a farmer and my mother is a housewife.

I am the funniest and at the same time a weak person in the family. I am the one or the reason why my family always seems to be happy and laugh all day because of my jokes. I’m not the type of a girl whose fun of having party, buying new clothes, make-up, and any things that are social. I love simple things as long as it comes from the heart. Like what I’ve said, I’m a weak person, so from the until now my parents didn’t allow me to play sports like volleyball, badminton, taekwondo and etc. cause they always said that my body won’t handle it. Because of that, I didn’t experience to join any contest of sports in my elementary and high school life.

Our family was so noisy especially if we’re complete. There are times that our neighbor think that were fighting but if they already know what’s happening they will also laugh because of how happy and close our family is. My brother and I was only siblings in my mother because my brother has different father. But this situation didn’t become an obstacle between us instead because of this our family become strong and very close to each other. We’re full of love, care and support of our family. Everything that we’ve want our parents always support us and there proud of us. We love each other as much as we love ourselves. For us, family is always be at first and always be loved.

In my elementary life, I’ve dreamed to become a teacher someday. The reason why I’ve choose that is because one of my elementary teacher inspired me to become a teacher. This teacher is very close to me, she became my second mother and also a tutor to me. She’s the only one who tutored me when I first join a math contest in other school. From then, I always came in to her room to talk about life and so other things. She’s also the one who always reminds me that life is not that easy, that I need to work hard for the things that I want. Like, if I dreamed for something I need to work hard for it and give all my best for that. She’s also reminding me always that I don’t need to force myself to do things that someone expected me to do or those who were belittling me in order to impress them. She said that in everything that I will do, I don’t need to consider them. The important things is that I’m happy with what I’ve been doing and I’m making my parents proud that’s the thing I need to consider as long as I didn’t hurt someone’s feeling.

My elementary days was full of happy memories, joy, and inspiration. I considered it as a keeping memory especially my bonding on that teacher that I loved and inspired the most. But that inspirations turned into hatred when I enter my high school life. At first, the treatment and teaching was so good and this makes me confident to become a teacher cause I’ve also have meet another teacher that inspired me. The inspiration and happy feelings that I was feeling that time starting to turn into hatred. Little by little I’m changing my inspiration of becoming a teacher someday because of the things that happened. It was my third year high school or what we called Grade 9 when I first heard from my teacher that she is belittling me. One of my teacher that time told me that I don’t deserve to have an honor cause I’m not that intelligent and the worst things is, she told me that the reason why I get an honor is because I’m close to all teacher, that maybe I was forcing the teacher to give me higher grades. I was shocked and I didn’t notice that my tears suddenly came out.

I thought that my grade 9 journey was the worst one but I was wrong. I didn’t expect that the worst one is on my grade 10 year. This is the year that I will never forgot in my whole life. I hated everything about a teacher. This is really the time that I’ve changed my mind to not dreamed on becoming a teacher somebody but instead I’ve changed to became a soldier because of what I’ve experience on my teachers on high school life. I

did all my best on that in order to get the ranking that I surely confident that I can make be at that. I don’t miss any activities on all subject especially on my subject adviser. The result of my activities, quizzes and other outputs was good and has a higher score that’s why I’m confident enough that I could get the rank position that I want. But all my efforts was lost, we all did saw the ranking position of honor student and I/we has shocked about the result. I didn’t make it. Many of my classmates and friend got shocked because they’re expecting that I am the one who would be on that position but doesn’t.

After we’ve seen the result, I’ve decided to be alone because of disappointment that I’ve feel. I came in to an empty room while crying because of disappointment. After a while, one of my teacher saw me on that room and decided to and in and talked to me about what happened. I wondered if I should talk to him or not, but at the end I decided to tell him everything cause I trust him and he knows my capability. After he hears all what happened he gets disappointed also, he force me to ask my adviser why did it happened but I didn’t do it. He told me that his also expecting me that I will get that rank because he saw all my works. He didn’t leave till I became okay, he makes me laugh a little bit in order to get lost what I feel on that day. The day after that, all teachers attended a meeting and on that, they talked about the awarding. After the meeting, the teacher that comfort me called me to talked something. When I came in to his room he asked me if I’m okay, I did reply him that I’m doing well. And we talked so many things about recognition, awarding and he even told me that he want to give the award to me but he said that my adviser didn’t agreed to it. He was shocked why my adviser didn’t agreed to it and he did not talked so much. After I heard that I told that it’s okay I will accept all of that.

Days past after completing all the requirements for the fourth quarter this is the time that my tears fell out in front of my teacher. The teacher I told I also inspired is the one who really make me cry. Me and my friends were walking up the stairs when we meet him. Before he pass us by he suddenly told me loudly in front of my friends that I deserve all of that things. I’d stopped walking and slowly turned around to him with tears in my eyes. Before I finished what I’m saying he’d left us with question in our face. My classmate asked me if I did something wrong cause there shocked why does our teacher act like that. Cause all they know that e and that teacher was so close and then it all turned into it. I did also shocked but I did ignored it because after all the things that has happened I felt numb to be hurt by what he said.

Days passed and it was our rehearsal day on recognition but I didn’t bother to go to school to attend the rehearsal. After I waked up my mother asked me if I’m going to attend the rehearsal but I said that I won’t go. I told her that I don’t want to attend our recognition day and I don’t want to see my teachers. She want me to attend even on the day of recognition but I did not reply her that I don’t. I want to forgot everything that has happened and I don’t to see them. She didn’t force me because I was very emotional that time. As the rehearsal goes by, some of my teachers was confused why I didn’t even came out at once in that rehearsal and asked my sister about what’s happening. They also they asked someone to go to our house to asked and force me to attend the rehearsal but I didn’t go with them. My friends also came into our house but the no matter how hard they forced me to attend the rehearsal I didn’t go with them. Until my brother called us, he asked about our recognition to my mother and then mother told him everything. He called me to talked to him and then he told me to attend even at the day of the recognition because he is about to go home and wanted to see us.

After we talked with my brother I decided to attend the rehearsal and didn’t bother to talked to the teachers there. Every time I’m attending the rehearsal they always noticed of how quite I am and they try to asked my friends about my condition but no one told the truth. That time I’d promise to myself that I would not going to be close to any teacher I’m going to meet in my journey of senior high school. And then I decided to study in here far from them to forgot all the things that happened.

At first day of school till how many days I stay away from teachers and I do not want to be close to them as long as I can. My adviser on grade 11 decided to have talked to us and she wanted to share what we have experiences. And then they all know the truth behind my story, the already know the truth why I didn’t even talked to some teachers and why I didn’t want to be close to them. My adviser talked to me and make me realize that I should need to forget all of that. She told me that as long as I am keeping that I will never be happy and I will be afraid to fight for what is right. She advices me so many things and she did help me to get over it.

After we’ve talked, little by little my love and inspiration of a teacher came back. She told me that we can't avoid that kind of teacher, she told me that yes there are some teacher who treat some student like that. All I need to do is let them be and don’t listen with what they said. Instead, I need to do all my best to make them realize that they’re wrong on treating me like that. She told me to do all my best to achieve what I want and dream in life. Because of that, my dream to become a teacher was came back. She inspired me again on how happy to be come a teacher. And now confident enough to pursue my dreams to become a teacher and make my parents proud. I am very thankful to my adviser on making me realize that I need fight for my dreams and make them shocked when I did achieve my dreams.

I’m very thankful for those people who always be at my side to support me in everything that I want. Thank you for all your love, care and support to me. I will never forget you all.