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World of Warcraft

Human level

Fair

On our way to gold shore

Night

Went to a cafe

French girl and devany talking about how French French girl Is

I ditch and skip rocks at river

Friends join me

I go back to cafe

Past bridge over creek

Line up

I get coffee cold brew with caramel and puto in it - Hailey got the same

Girl in my line paid for me

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Dream words

Dave Franco

Shrooms

RV

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Counted bats for a research population that Kya invited me to

Had a blast!

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Dream Words Sun 6/15

Philippines trip

Strait in a beach

Saw alligators (colorful ones) following us as we balance through the strait

Waki (my cousin) was there guiding us through our island

My brother fell in the water and the alligators started following him

I jumped in the water and grabbed the alligators tail and hammer threw them away from my family

Then military showed up

It’s in New Orleans maps - but it’s in DAYZ world? Anyways I hop over to the military camps and start looting guns and equipment

Two guys sneak up on me, thinkin’ they could ambush me, but I start shootin’ them with an AK

one fell down, the other took cover, so I looted the guy I killed and put his armor on me

The guy taking cover is shooting at me, I shoot back at him, but now I feel bolder ‘cause I got a bullet proof vest, and a shrapnel helmet with a visor

I go find him and knock him out with me gun, but he begged for his life, so I let him live as long as he leaves me alone

He did, but then there was a jungle gym dome

I look around it’s my elementary school in Fresno, where the fields are

The dude and I became kids again, and started playing in the jungle gym

Then I woke up

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Kya Mark and I went to protest at this hotel

Holiday Inn

Turns out they were at the RESIDENCE INN

Kya and I mobilized the crew across the street

Started banging

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Dream Words:

Airport

Going with my neighbors Kya and estef

Dancing

Kya and I look alike in the mirror and started sexy dancing

We have a kid

An adult kid living in the slums by the beach

I missed my flight

I have an apartment cause I rented Danny’s

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Messy ass estef

Had a weird convo about sex work

She tryna bang

I’m tryna like yes but also totally killed it

Talking too much about contracts lol

Woke up

Made Turkish coffee for Kya and estef

Worked

Then went to work

Talked about protest

Went home to go to psychiatrist

Went hung out with estef

Then back to work

Got lots done

Worked

Then went back

Hung with mark

Watched LA protests news

Then played red dead

Then went to go bed

Estef txted me about feeld and how she matched and so I asked fuck yeah and came over

I felt so tired

Hung out and body doubled with estef while she cleaned

Talked about dumb shit then fucking talked about Kya and mark

But Kya came home

And we hung out

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UGH I MISS HER

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Can’t get over someone ‘til you get under them

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Hanging out with Sam and friends, at party city

Had a barn hanging out outside with my family

My mom and Dad are chilling bull was about to go to but a cute stopped and protected then

U think it was a bull reincarnated from one b out their friends

I’m trying to redistribute my movie I just finished

Went to party city

Was 3 stories and became a thrift so of bets

It b setting mmmmmmmmmmm

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Just because you love me doesn’t mean you know how to love me

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I need to journal more

What happened today

Memorial Day

Hung out with my brother and Meghan and Hailey

Went to bomb ass Indian buffet

Went to rocket park

Went to my brother and Meghan’s place

Hung out, watched last of us and Mickey 17

Then went to the mall to watch sinners

Then end credit

Kya and Estef came as well

I like how estef came back

I appreciate that Kya and Hailey stayed for the end creds

:)

I went to the restroom to pee and Kya and estef were talking about their day with Hailey when I got out and they showed me their nails

Estef got a pointed one and Kya got her acrylics back and it felt so right

She had it painted yellow :)

My favorite color

Why am I so smitten with her?

She reminds me of Mikaela… the way she communicates subliminally. How these little actions, well, they matter.

She still has both the puzzle ring and the wedding ring on her. I love it.

Why does she occupy my mind so much? So… nice? I’m happy when I think about her.

I wish I can talk to her more.

I need to protect her from me…

I need to protect everyone from me.

I need to protect Mark from me.

“They will blame us, crucify and shame us

We can't help it if we are a problem

We are tryin' hard to get your attention

I'm climbin' up your wall

Climbin' up your wall

Don't go there 'cause you'll never return

I know you think of me when you think of her

But then it don't make sense when you're tryin' hard

To do the right thing but without recompense

And then you did something wrong and you said it was great

And now you don't know how you could ever complain

Because you're all confused 'cause you want me to

But then you want me to do it the same as you”

Putting up walls is different from setting boundaries.

I wish I could change and grow for the better.

I don’t feel ashamed for making mark feel bad about himself and I need to honor my feelings

I want to change though. I want to grow and be a better person.

Ugh.

I need to make music again.

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They are not responsible for your feelings they are responsible for the impact that they have on you.

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Convenience store love

Bodega booty

Her love is like a gobstopper

Mine is like a

Taste so sweet

My love’s like a fruit gusher, burstin’ wild and fast

Sweet flood in the middle, but it never seems to last

Yours is like a gobstopper—layers, slow to show

Hard to crack, but once I’m in, I never wanna go

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[Verse 1] I have a crush on a narcissist She haunts my dreams, I can't resist This time we lit the room with firelight StarCraft, slow songs, and candlelight

She moves like water in reverse Flowin’ forward, still breakin’ the curse Overflowin’, my cup can’t hold The way she chases dreams so bold

[Chorus] She does it the second she thinks it Alone but not lonely, she lives it Time may pass us by, but she— She’s the moment, the lesson, the mystery

And I don’t mind the ringer, not at all Even if there's nothin’ on the other side of that wall ‘Cause she’d climb it just to see the view And I’d walk through it just to understand her, too

[Verse 2] She bought a wedding ring with me A puzzle ring—yeah, irony Cute as hell, yeah, twist the metal And twist my chest, it's sentimental

You’re generous in every way Even when you push me away You face the dark like it’s your friend And you come out brighter in the end

[Bridge] You’re not scared of the why’s and when’s You unravel truths with your bare hands You'd rather break than not understand And I—I'd rather stand where you stand

[Chorus] You do it the second you feel it Alone but not empty, you mean it Time keeps slippin’ by, but still You’re the story I can't help but feel

And I don’t mind the ringer, I don’t care Even if there’s no peace waitin’ over there 'Cause you live for the meaning in the pain And I’d follow just to learn your name again

[Outro] She bought a wedding ring with me A puzzle ring—no guarantee I’m gay as shit and hopeless too But maybe that’s what makes this true

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I like how she goes with the flow but still swim against the current

My cup is overflowing