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hello just popping in real quick

to my moots: if you would like to stay in contact dm me and i’ll give you my personal social media

to anons: sending me hate/trying to guilt me for taking care of myself and for leaving isnt going to make me stay or keep writing. if i continue to receive mean, hateful, or backhanded asks i will take my writing down. my mental health is not ideal and what you guys have been sending me is AWFUL. i don’t know what i did for you guys to be so hurtful but im begging to please leave me alone and remember that im a fucking person

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this post is long overdue.

i’ve drafted and deleted and drafted and deleted this so many times and it’s a hard one for me to do. but i need to be honest with myself and with you guys and that’s just that i dont want to write anymore. for a really long time i’ve felt unhappy in this community. the expectations are high and the rewards are low. the pressure to write is so high that the writing process and content is no longer enjoyable and then when i am able to post something it barely gets any reblogs or any comments. some people are okay with that but i’m motivated by feedback and without it i dont really see a reason to post anymore.

i also want to say that the bts tumblr community is one of the most toxic places i’ve ever been a part of and too many people on here are negative and fake and it’s been bringing me down for a while. i could rant about it forever but the interactions i’ve had with these people are what’s driving me away from tumblr. it’s the reason i left all of my networks, it’s the reason i dont reach out anymore. and no one reaches out to me either so that says a lot.

i haven’t written in MONTHS. it’s been 5 months since i even posted a fic. i have no desire to, i just do not find joy in it anymore. and i know my mental health has a big part to play in that but i’ve also just found more enjoyable things to do with my time. if i do write i dont think i will be posting again. and if i change my mind then great! we can forget this whole thing happened LMAO.

but right now i just have a lot of emotions going on and im not really in the right place to get into it. i’m going to focus on my mental health and invest in things and relationships that dont make me feel like how i’ve been feeling this past year

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sorry i’ve been mia i’ve been putting in 62 hours working my full time and part time job 👁👄👁

i didn’t even realize it was that much until i just calculated it

anyways how’s everyone doin

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101 #my beret kink would’ve been a better movie than the one about dotty dogs tbh.

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ok but dismantle the idea that you should finish your writing as quick as possible. some of my favourite books (stand-alones. with series i cannot choose) were written over the span of many years. the secret history was written in 10 years and the same with the song of achilles. all the light we cannot see took 9 years to write. almost every fan fiction takes the span of a few months to create and even then they aren’t perfect. lotr took 16 years for tolkien to compose. jkr took six years to write the philosophers stone. victor hugo wrote les mis in the space of 12 years. yes, many good books and stories are written over the course of a few months, but everyone’s different and it might take some more time for you. all im saying is that all these amazing books have changed and shaped literature and they weren’t written in a day. so take your time, it dosent matter if your work dosent turn out to be a masterpiece, you can perfect it day by day until you’re satisfied. don’t feel compelled to rush

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jinho ☽ dr bebe ☾ 200229 for @wabisaba

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as long as you’re happy, babie 🥺

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“Dynamite„ pixel game GFX by Arméo

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I am telling you girl

There is nothing like a man who loves nature.

Mr Kim Namjoon

I love you

You have me wrapped around your fingers .

I love the way you speak, you think.

I love your sexy brain.

Kim Namjoon is everything:

Boyfriend Material, Husband Material, Dady Material, Father Material.

You name one thing he isn't.

Namjoon can destroy anything he wants be it haters or .....

(you can fill in the gaps)

But honestly it makes me so happy when people loves Namjoon. I really think that he don't get the appreciation he deserves. Kim Namjoon is so pure.

I really like how all the BTS members love him so much. (Specially Jungkook)

I am here in your ask because

KIM NAMJOON OS DOING THINGS TO ME .

PLS HE WAS MY BIAS SINCE DAY 1 AND NOW HE DOESNT LEAVE MY MIND.

I DREAM ABOUT HIM

can you imagine

Today I dreamt I met all of the BTS members and when it was Namjoon's turn.

I was just staring him and he smiled.

HE SMILED .

HE SMILED

Ok bye-

THERE IS NOTHING LIKE KIM NAMJOON. NOTHING.

this is such a sweet love letter to our bestest boy. namjoon deserves all the love and then some. he deserves to be appreciated. imagine having an idol that 1. recognizes his faults 2. tells us how he's going to improve 3. follows through??? with those words??? actions behind the words???? 4. reflects 5. forgives himself

he is so admirable to me in so many ways. he completely changed my life no fucking joke. i would not be into kpop if it wasn't for him. i took one look at namjoon and said "damn...who IS that???" he will ALWAYS have such a special place in my heart. my original bias, my first bias. i think he is so overlooked and i wish people gave him more credit as a human. i could go on and on. thank you for sending this ask it made me smile :( im manifesting more namjoon dreams for you!!! forever in love with namjoon's smile

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very few characters actually have adhd in media, and when they do, what people mean by that is just that they fidget a lot, not that they have adhd. the only character with adhd I can think of where I’ve watched/read it and I’ve gone, “oh, this character actually has adhd” is Jake peralta from Brooklyn 99. so, here’s my take on how to write adhd, with examples from Brooklyn 99.

I’ll do the best I can to separate them into three categories; the three things people look for in adults with ADHD, which are rejection sensitivity dysphoria, an interest-based nervous system, and emotional hyperarousal.

I’ll also randomly bold and italicize bits so people with ADHD can actually read it.

Rejection Sensitivity Dysphoria, or RSD

Rejection sensitivity dysphoria makes people with ADHD overly sensitive to criticism, even if they perceive a rejection and there actually isn’t one. Their emotions are also very strong generally. Because of RSD, people with ADHD become people-pleasers and can develop anxiety because they’re so eager to please.

For me, RSD makes me cry an embarrassing amount for any little reason. in your writing, make your characters overdramatic, criers, and/or people-pleasers. They’ll have trouble saying no. They may also be over competitive, as their perceived rejection may include losing.

how does Jake show this in b99? When Jake comes up with a catchphrase and Rosa says it’s terrible, jake is far more hurt than he should be. He hates losing, and he gets overly upset whenever someone says they don’t like him or don’t trust him, etc. he’s also a people pleaser who has trouble saying no.

An interest-based nervous system

An interest-based nervous system includes hyperfocuses and an inability to pay attention. It stems from the fact that we can’t make as much dopamine as neurotypicals. This means that while neurotypicals get dopamine after completing a task, people with ADHD don’t. That means that people with ADHD don’t have any reason to do tasks, especially those they don’t like. This leads to executive dysfunction—people with ADHD will know they have to or want to do something, but they can’t seem to do it. people with ADHD hyperfocus on things that bring them dopamine. I was obsessed with warrior cats for three years. But hyperfocuses can also last a short amount of time—I’ll have a drawing idea in the middle of class and won’t be able to concentrate on anything else before I finish it. this is where our impulsiveness comes from. we can leap into things we think will give us dopamine without thinking, which can lead to injury. We also tend to tell people personal things they don’t want to hear because of this, and don’t have very good boundaries. Our voices can also get very loud or we can interrupt people frequently because we’re so impulsive. When people with ADHD hyperfocus, they can forget about anything else. I’ll forget to eat if I’m busy reading a Wikipedia article about feminism in the 1850s, and won’t go to the bathroom or drink water either. It’s also important to note that taking away distractions doesn’t help, because we can do things like pick at our skin and daydream—something that people with ADHD do a lot of. Because of executive dysfunction, people can call people with ADHD lazy or irresponsible.

people with ADHD can also be extremely indecisive. im not entirely sure why—being unable to process something new, or being so impulsive that we go from one, to the other, back to the other one, all over again.

people with ADHD also have poor memory for important things, but tend to remember random bits of trivia. Poor memory leads to object permanence problems, which means people with ADHD can forget to call a friend back for weeks, forget that they need to read library books in a closed cabinet, or forget that the vegetables they got will go bad. People can sometimes say that people with ADHD don’t care about anything because of this.

people with ADHD can also be prone to depression because of under or overstimulation. Boredom feels painful for people with ADHD. If we’re overstimulated, we can experience sensory overload—if things are too bright or too loud, if too many things are touching us at once—often it’s not because the thing is too intense, but because too many things are happening at once.

We also have something some people call dolphin brain, where we jump from one thing to another. From the outside, it looks really random, but I find that when I’m talking to another neurodivergent communication is generally easier. For instance, someone with ADHD might see a bee at a baseball field and tell their team about the time they saw whales at seaworld because their little brother was also stung by a wasp there. people will see no connection on the outside, but it makes perfect sense to the person with ADHD.

in b99, jake regularly stays up all night solving cases and watches documentaries on random topics. He’s also very distractible—when they’re trying to find the person who sent Captain Holt death threats in the train yard, Jake says he and captain holt should take a train trip together sometime. Jake says that he’ll forget Amy if they don’t work together because he’s like a goldfish.

Emotional hyperarousal

This is the only thing people tend to include when writing characters: the fidgeting. People with ADHD tend to need more stimulation than others, so we’ll do things like draw during class and chew on pens.

people with ADHD can also have apd, or auditory processing disorder. we tend to watch shows with subtitles on and may take a second to process what you’re saying, or hear it wrong. The subtitles thing may be partially do to creating just the right amount of stimulation, but if I don’t have subtitles, me and my other friends with ADHD will watch tv with the volume turned up very high. People with ADHD also can have a hard time interpreting other people‘s tone and have a hard time controlling their own. They can be bad at social cues and have poor manners because we don’t pick up on that stuff.

in b99, Jake fidgets with things a lot. In the intro, he’s picking up and examining a figurine on his desk, likely because he was bored with paperwork or some other task.

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the long awaited return of “easy peasy lemon squeezy”

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Closing Announcement

Students of Bangtan University,

After nearly a year of running this network, the admins have come to the conclusion that it’s best if we close the network indefinitely.

The admins simply don’t have the time to keep up with our admin duties anymore, and we felt that it would be best to close the network officially rather than leave our members feeling confused and alone. While we know that we’ll miss the amazing community our members have helped to build, we recognize that good things must eventually come to an end. We will always be grateful for the memories that we shared with our members. 

We understand that this has been a safe space for a large group of people, and we want to emphasize that while the official discord server and network are being shut down, we encourage our members to continue cultivating the friendships they made while in the network. This network’s purpose was to serve as a bridge between writers, and we hope that these relationships continue to grow and thrive outside of Bangtan University. 

The admins have each prepared their own closing statements regarding the network if you’re interested in reading. If not, please know that we sincerely wish all of our members the very best in their future endeavors, and we thank you all for being a part of something so special to us. 

Sincerely,

The admin team

Admin Yearbook Signing:

Lainey (@ughseoks​​​): when i first came up with the idea for bangtan university, i never imagined that it would grow to become such a vibrant community. it was only meant to be a small side project to focus on during the stressful beginning of my freshman year of college, but it soon began to mean something entirely different to me. it gifted me with a safety net filled with kind, loving people who were always there to cheer me up and make me smile. i’ll forever cherish the wonderful memories i made with the members of the network, and i’ll never forget how you all managed to make the network as comforting and welcoming as it was. although i’m no longer on tumblr, you all are more than welcome to message me on discord anytime. i love you all so much 🤍 thank you for everything. 

Hazel (@sungiest​​​): I am so happy to have been a part of BU and the community that we have all built together over this time we’ve had. I’m taking away so many positive and happy memories from this experience and i hope that all of our members can say the same. I wish everyone of BU the best and to never hesitate to reach out. Love you always xoxo!

Bean (@jinned​​​): i want to thank everyone who came into this community with the intent of bringing support and positivity. The memories i’ve made in this network are ones i will cherish for a long long time and i’ve met some amazing friends through this network alone. You are all so loved and cherished and i can’t wait to see what you’ll all be working on in the future. I may not be on discord anymore but you can always message me on tumblr. Bim will live in our hearts forever. Long live bim. :bimsadge:

We encourage members to submit an ask with a personal message to “sign” our yearbook 🤍 We will post all of the asks we receive with a special hashtag.

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