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vent part 2 lol

i dont know how much ill use this account know that i wont see him anymore, but i will probably write about the dreams i have about him, omg i dream with him almost everynight??? and maybe i havent thought about him that day but i still will dream with him. its always a dream in wich we are in the school and we talk about everything? its a really comforting dream, gives me insight on why i have such and attachment. ive always had this thing where i feel so misunderstood and meeting people who would seem to understand me its such a big deal to me, i never talked to him but i feel like he would understand me??? i think i keep looking for that like "master" figure to tell me to calm down about my existencial crisis lol

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Vent

skwkf any advice on not seeing your tc? today was last day, although we have to go again in two weeks to sign the notes we got, but we wont do much. and i felt this excruciating pain when we left, i was talking to his assistant bc shes so nice hshsh and i ended up being the last one but he left earlier :(. i feel soooo bad, and i havent even talked to him that much bc im too shy hdkj i thought he didnt even knew my name (i dont think he does tho) but i said i changed the final work of the exam bc i didnt like the first idea and he said que remembered and i blushed hskdj how embarrassing. but anyways, what do i dooo i mean, now we got vacations and i wont even have him again next year and i think im too attached and we havent even talked?????Makes no sense. its just theres something so unique about him, like his eyes and the ways he speaks...if i we had the same age and i knew him it would totally be my type (he already is but lol) and i would probably fall in love</3 i feel this painnnnn if i think about him like goood im gonna miss seeing him, he was comforting? in a way and i want to cry hsjdjf

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HE MAKES ME SO MAD

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tomorrow i see him and next week will be the last time ill see him :( i mean i propably wont see him next year

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about to see him AAAA

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a color: dark green

a season: spring

a celebrity: hugh dancy or james mcavoy

a drink: strawberry milk

an instrument: acoustic guitar

a scent: cocconut and vanilla

a fabric: silk

if my tcs was…

a color: navy blue

a season: snowy winter

a celebrity: cillian murphy or tom cruise

a drink: black coffee

an instrument: antique piano

a scent: old books and musk wood

a fabric: velvet

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how it feels coming home after seeing ur tc:

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yall are so lucky to get to see your tc so often, i get to see mine once a week just for three hours </3

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i think he noticed that i cant look into his eyes...i was blushin, IM SO STUPID my classmates were looking i feel like im so obvious, he looked at me funny. I think that one of the many reasons i wouldnt make a move is because i couldnt stand looking into the eyes of someone who KNOWS im attracted to them, so embarrassing...

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im so sad he didnt looked at me at all today..he seemed kind of angry that i didnt do the homework..obviously, but his eyes omg...although he joked about it, his eyes are so chocolate brown, not like black but like pure chocolate

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im so afraid of anybody finding this blog like how would i explain myself i dont even like him in a weird way i just want to be really good friends or something

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me seeing that yall are texting, hugging, holding hands with your tc while I can't even talk to him anything other than schoolwork because I am So Afraid