jisawakward

[jisawakward]

do not 'oh it's just mascara' me i mean ANYTHING if you would hesitate to leave the house for a certain occasion without applying a certain thing to your face then you wear makeup for that occasion

[jisawakward]

Somehow it feels like tumblr is accidentally the perfect social media site, because none of the things that I love about it make sense as features the way we use them. Tags are for organization, but we also use them to have our little thoughts in without raising them to the status of main text. The queue makes sense for keeping a steady stream of Content going if you're trying to Build a Social Media Presence, but really we use it just to bank posts we want to reblog without flooding everyone else's dash. You can't see how many followers anyone else has, which I just have to assume was an oversight because it flies in the face of everything about social media, and it's great because you can never quantify anyone's Influence so everyone's essentially on the same level. There's no way they planned for giffing to become such a Thing, because before tumblr, gifs were practically relics of the early internet days, a novelty, usually kind of tacky, and now they've become a sort of folk art form. You can reblog an entire conversation, not just a single post, so there's a whole genre of humor that exists here that can't really propagate like that on any other social platform. Honestly this website is just a little freak of nature that cannot possibly have been intended, and that's why no media company has been able to figure out what to do with it, because it makes no sense within the larger social media ecosystem. I love it.

[jisawakward]

agnostic is lowkey the funniest belief system it's just like yeah idk it's none of my business

[jisawakward]

I Do Know Some Things, Richard Siken

[jisawakward]

[jisawakward]

LIFE IS STRANGE (2015) ↳ dev. Dontnod Entertainment

[jisawakward]

being a only child is like. I'm the eldest. I'm the responsible one. I need to live up to their expectations. I'm their baby. I know everything. I don't know anything that matters. I'm their golden child. I'm their biggest disappointment. I'm nothing like my parents. I'm the worst version of my parents. I'm the exact copy of my parents. I miss them. I can't stand being on the same house for more than a week. They love me. They regret me. I get everything they can offer. I get their whole attention. I can't do anything wrong. I can't fail. I inherited every flaw they have. I'm a mistake. If they fight it's my fault. Everything is my fault. I'm not that important. I'm everything for them. They don't need me the way I need them. They raised me and can't look at me on the eyes without seeing their mirror. They can't accept I'm not like them. I'm nothing without them. I'm my own person. I can be everything I want to be. I can't cross their beliefs. When they die I'll be alone. I have been alone since I was born.

[jisawakward]

forever jealous of people who grew up with their siblings. “but they’re so annoying” i do not care. i had to unironically play monopoly by myself.

[jisawakward]

"My mother gets worried and angry when I sleep without eating, but she doesn’t seem to care when I tell her what’s eating me alive."

—An ungrateful daughter, Sadiya Ajaz

[jisawakward]

Shout out to everyone who is just so tired So so exhausted So very very tired so very fatigued so sleepy and tired So

[jisawakward]

today has been asssss

[jisawakward]

i have fucking baby fever, or something, bc why tf did i have a dream last night about having a baby. a whole ass baby. i do not need a baby. i do not desire a baby.

[jisawakward]

back to being the social pariah

[jisawakward]

“why do you still use tumblr?”

listen— i have to keep track of my hyper fixations somehow

[jisawakward]

[jisawakward]

[jisawakward]

Maybe we’ll get to see the first American pope in history be the first pope to excommunicate the US vice president