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Myshkin and Rogozhin homosexual moments

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can i get waht i want. can i get what i want. can i get wat i want right now

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can i admit that i have cried to the smiths or would that be cringe

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i am not basil hallward coded, i am basil hallward reincarnated. if i fall in love with you i become an insufferably productive artist and a miserably desperate human being. get ready to be absolutely fucking adored as if i seek you like a fish does the water, get ready to be literally incapable of forgetting you are magnificent because i will tell you constantly.

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In Cold Blood By Truman Capote (1965)

In Cold Blood tells the mostly true story of the Clutter family murder and the circumstances surround ing it. Truman Capote discussed the dead family walking and the adventures of their murderers Perry Smith and Dick Hitchcock. The Clutter family was a successful family in small town Kansas who Smith and Hitchcock intended to rob. They only made forty dollars at the price of four dead Clutters. Capote also tells the tragic life of the murderers between their sentencing and inevitable hanging.

In Cold Blood is a non-fiction book that reads like a novel because most of the dialogue was manufactured by Capote. This presentation makes In Cold Blood a fun read and creates complex characters the reader can relate to. By making his antagonist people, Capote demonstrates how a man can commit one of the most gruesome murders in Kansas history. Capote also made lots of references to articles and other things written about the headline case. Many of these were torturous to sit through, but it is quite obvious why Capote included them. Capote's characters were real live people and in this ground-breaking true crime novel, Capote makes that clear in a way that feels unbiased though his choices of characterization made his stance obvious.

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Crime and Punishment by Fyodor Dostoevsky (1866)

Crime and Punishment was like a good teacher: you hate being in class but worship the teacher years later. Crime and Punishment just feels so long while reading. It is obvious Dostoevsky put a lot of his own philosophies into the book, but for a first read, it is hard to focus on anything other than the many interwoven plots and character development. Truthfully, I missed the characters when I closed the book. I wanted to see more of Dounia (Raskol's sister) and Razumihin (Raskol's friend). I hope to reread this book soon because Dostoevsky did a fantastic job of placing me in St. Petersburg and in the shoes of a killer. This is a must read if you can spare 10 days to read it and another 10 days to reread it.

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Crime and Punishment by Fyodor Dostoevsky (1866)

Crime and Punishment tells of a poor student named Raskolnikov (Raskol) who commits a brutal murder with no reason other than that he could. The guilt from the murder makes him ill (a fainting spell and delirium for days) and then drives him insane. Really though, his insanity and theories about murder had been building for a great while. We discover that his theory was published in a magazine. Claiming the article, he draws suspicion from the police, but they have no evidence. Still, he confesses against all better judgement because the woman he loves told him to. There is a great deal more that occurs in the book, however this is a synopsis of the main plot or the titular "Crime."

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The Picture of Dorian Gray by Oscar Wilde Manuscript Selected Quotes (crossed out)

“It is worse than wicker, it is silly. I hate Dorian Gray” - Lord Henry Wotton in response to Basil telling him how he is a slave to Dorian.

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“…We walk home together from the club arm in arm or sit in the studio hold each other and talk of a thousand things. Now and then he is [illegible] however he is horribly thoughtless at times. he seems to take a real delight in giving me pain. I am quite in[illegible] it. I can imagine [yourself?] dont it. but not to him, not to him. Once or twice we have been away together though i have had him all to myself. I am becoming jealous of him of course. I never let him talk to me of the people he knows i like to isolate him from the rest of life as to think that he absolutely belongs to me. He does not, I know but it gives me pleasure to think that he does. I have given this young man my whole life who treats it as if it were a bloom to put in his coat.” - Basil, of Dorian

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“Harry don’t talk like that. I am not afraid of things but I am afraid of words. I cannot understand how it is that no prophecy has ever been ineffable. Home has, I know. As set it seems to me that to say a thing is to bring it to pass. Whatever his joined expression becomes true, as what his not found expression can never happen. As in genius entity lower than beauty - it is only the transitory that stirs me. What is permanent is monotonic and produces no effect…” - Basil

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“���In my mind, Harry I trust you.” He spoke very slowly, as the words seemed wrung out of him, almost against his will.

“I don’t suppose I shall care for him, as I am quite sure he won’t care for me,” replied Lord Henry Wotton, smiling as he took Hallward by the arm and almost led him into the house.” -Beginning of Chapter 2

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After this, there are not very many big groups of crossed out phrases because Basil is a coward who will never confess his love.

If you want to try to decipher these yourself search for The Picture of Dorian Gray manuscript. It is really hard to read, fair warning.

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yeah bro this book was used to put Wilde in prison for being gay

I've only finished the second chapter and The Picture of Dorian Gray is more gay than gay sex

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KNOW ITS FOR THE BETTER.

when i grow up i want to be a list of further possibilities, chen chen // the picture of dorian gray, oscar wilde // the worm kings lullaby, richard siken // limer3ence // bleuts, maggie nelson // tonight i can write, pablo neruda // the crucible, arthur miller // when i grow up i want to be a list of further possibilities, chen chen // untitled, margaret schnabel // waiting room, phoebe bridgers

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"I want to be better. I am going to be better."

Oscar Wilde (Dorian Gray), The Picture of Dorian Gray (p. 202)

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The Picture of Dorian Gray by Oscar Wilde (1891)

Quotes:

“The pulse and the passion of youth were in him, but he was becoming self-conscious.”

“Never trust a woman who wears mauve, whatever her age may be, or a woman over thirty-five who is fond of pink ribbons.”

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The Picture of Dorian Gray by Oscar Wilde (1891)

To preserve his beauty, Dorian Gray wishes for his portrait to age instead of himself under the influence of then stranger Lord Henry Wotton. Under Henry’s influence, Dorian is corrupted and the painting quickly shows a face of cruelty. Years go by and Dorian grows more vain, but his face remains unchanged. Eventually he makes choices that cannot be undone and result in his demise.

I loved The Picture of Dorian Gray. Wilde created his characters so masterfully and made their emotions very relatable. I read this book a second time because I was so enthralled. Wilde really transports the reader to London and shows a glimpse of the party scene, even though his characters seldomly feature in a party themselves. The longest chapter of the book tells what immortality would be like as Dorian flits from one interest to another. The reader is forced to sit through nearly two decades of Dorian’s life as he struggles to keep himself entertained. In my second read I skipped over that particular chapter (Chapter 11), and I felt that without those years of his life, you struggle to understand Dorian’s motivations and resignation to life. He commits a murder, but has grown so mad that it is just another thing. What really shows Wilde’s power as an author is the nonchalance with which Dorian has for the rest of his life and all of the wretched things that go on around him until he grows into the level of madness that kills him. Even the time following Dorian’s death features this air of mystery and madness. Wilde did such an impeccable job of slowly creating madness and it is a shame that this novel ultimately lead to his death.