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It’s been so long since we got more snl outtakes sad 😢

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Happy high infidelity day to all those who celebrate

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REAL

I just had an idea to rewrite soc/ck from Kuwei Yul-Bo’s perspective and it’s taking everything in me to be like hoe stop this you have finals

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YIPPEEEEEEEEE

another good day for serial killer nikolai enthusiasts, the new chapter is up :)

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the way jordie haunts the narrative truly haunts me. the way he carried kaz to shore, the way he demands to be remembered. the way he drives kaz's plans and schemes and has woven his way into the platform that kaz brekker has built for himself.

the way jordie has kept kaz afloat for years. but the way he's also kept kaz in the water for years. the way kaz has been kicking and kicking toward the moment of recompense and revenge, his hands never leaving jordie. his kickboard, his lighthouse, the thing keeping him alive and the thing keeping him half in the grave, dragging him down as much as he's guiding him.

the way jordie was once a light for kaz, the way kaz has found light in inej. the way inej is the reason kaz didn't drown in fjerda, the reason to keep swimming, the reason to live. the way jordie was once a brother for kaz, the way kaz has found a brother in jesper. the way jesper is someone for kaz to protect and to forgive, and the way he's more capable of doing so now.

the way jordie is avenged by kaz, but the way that isn't where the story ends. kaz destroying pekka isn't it. it doesn't have to be it anymore. because everything that jordie was to kaz, everything he's clung to, he's found elsewhere. and yes, he still has to learn to take his hands off his brother, but there are reasons to now, there are reasons to climb out of that water. to forgive, to move on, to learn to forget in moments when remembering does nothing but drag him down.

the way jordie is, in so many ways, what holds this story together. the way kaz no longer needing him or his ghost is what sets the story free. is what sets jordie free.

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ok wait, reblog if you’ve cried at least once because of math, doesn’t matter which grade i’m trying to prove something 

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Never understood what “hell week” meant until now 😭

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I love I love I love I love I love I love

Here’s a Psych timeloop fic idea that’s been stuck in my head for like, a year now that I haven’t been able to write for some reason (under the cut because this is longggggg):

So the day starts out normal, Juliet and Lassiter receive a big robbery case, and Shawn and Gus show up to the station shortly after wanting in on the case.

And Juliet’s like “Actually, we don’t need your help on this one.”

And Lassiter continues going “I agree with O’Hara. Something that you have to remember, Spencer, is that O’Hara and I are detectives. Real, actual detectives, with a badge and training. We’ve solved cases before you got here, and we’ll continue solving them long after you’re gone.”

Shawn’s face falls, and for a moment Juliet worried that they went too far, when Gus goes “Pshh, fine then. We’re gonna go talk to the Chief, I’m sure that she’ll let us on the case.”

And then they both take off before she could say anything, and Juliet makes a mental note to buy Shawn a pineapple later as an apology, even though she’s pretty sure that he knows they were just messing around with him. Or at least, she was. For the most part. But that would have to wait until after the case, which is fine because she knows she’ll see him again soon.

But when they were about to investigate their first lead, the Chief called them into her office, telling them that a body had been reported in the forest and that they needed to go check it out.

So they went, and they were making their way across the forest soaked in rain, and their shoes sunk into the mud with every step they took. As they went deeper into the forest and got closer to the crime scene, they saw that all the officers there looked grim. They were all just standing around, not really looking at each other, and looking anywhere but at the body that had been covered with a tarp.

Juliet got a horrible sinking feeling and froze. Carlton crouched next to the body, and lifted the corner of the tarp with his pen.

And the body was Shawn.

Juliet was devastated, and even Lassiter was visibly affected. (This is where I got stuck btw, so if it goes downhill in quality from here I apologize).

When they returned to the station, the Chief came up to them and told them about how Shawn was one of their own, and how solving his murder was now their highest, and only priority.

And so they were sitting at Carlton’s desk, sort of out of it, when he spoke up suddenly.

“I know… I know that Shawn and I fought almost constantly.. But I never wanted him to die. Not like this.” And Juliet nodded.

“I know, Carlton.”

“Spencer was one of the good ones.” He confessed after a moment. “He deserved better.” Juliet’s mouth formed a thin line, and she felt herself begin to choke up. She nodded her head.

Then, he held her hand and squeezed. “And we’re gonna find the bastard that did this to him.” He said. She nodded her head again as a couple tears fell.

The next morning, Juliet entered the station and went to the Chief’s office asking if a file had been made for Shawn’s case yet, and the Chief was confused, and was like “What case?? Did something happen??”

And then Juliet was like “He was murdered.” And the Chief began to freak out before they saw Shawn and Gus come into the station. So the Chief turned to Juliet and was like “O’Hara, I don’t know if this is some sort of sick joke that Spencer put you up to but—”

And then Juliet cut her off saying, “Omg, no—no. I guess I just had a nightmare last night and got confused, I’m sorry.” And from there the day went pretty much the same as before, but slightly off because Juliet went to see the Chief first, and then the body was called in again and Juliet realized that she was in a timeloop.

So Juliet pulled Lassiter aside and was like, “Carlton, I know this may seem crazy, and I swear it isn’t grief or anything like that, but I’ve lived through this before. I think I might be in a timeloop.”

But then Carlton was like “Oh thank God— for a moment I thought I was going insane.”

And so the fic continued with them repeating the same day over and over, trying to solve Shawn’s murder. The main moments from this that I had in mind for this is one loop where Juliet breaks down sobbing when she sees Shawn and just holds him repeating “I don’t want you to die, I don’t want you to die, I don’t want you to die…”

Then there’s another loop where Lassiter was desperate and went, “What if I killed Shawn myself. Just— shoot him the moment he comes through those doors, just see what happens.”

And Juliet only replied, “Carlton I know you. You would never do that.” (And he didn’t).

Eventually, they figured it all out and managed to save Shawn just in time, and when they woke up in the hospital waiting room the next day they cried from relief.

And they both learned to appreciate Shawn a bit more.

(This kind of fizzled out in the end, but I have to go to sleep lmao. Thank you for reading, have a great day. And if you want to use this and write something with it, go ahead, I’d love to see it 👍).

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art study w gus and pluto (its messed up right)

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What a perfect way to start my day

imagine lassie in a sundress.

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1 year of THE album of all time

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mel appreciation post

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Hear me out; Agender Burton Guster

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When I’m trying to be normal but someone brings up bpd

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They knew I would be too powerful if I was a von trapp child

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Exactlyyy

i am a firm believer of kaz brekker with freckles. hook-nosed kaz brekker who's glare would knock the feet out from underneath a civilian, with a featherlight veil of freckles dusted over his cheeks. just a few shades darker than the rest of his skin, dancing over his nose bridge and clustering near his temples. so light you can't see em unless you're real up close.