joshujihan23

[joshujihan23]

Tired, but still here

☆ pairing: seungkwan x reader

☆ genre: angst, lots of angst

☆ synopsis: everything was too overwhelming, and seungkwan, out of everyone was the straw that broke the camel’s back.

☆ word count: 1218

☆ author’s note: this happened to me. everything. and i just hope that no one else goes through this. if you want to talk, remember that there’s a community that will listen out for you.

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tough.

it has been so tough.

work was wrecking your head. balancing your studies along with it isn’t making things easier.

and the best part? seungkwan isn’t being very accepting of it either.

every, single time you tried to talk to him about how you were feeling, how you were struggling, you were always hit with his usual constructive criticism, and asking you “why?” and “how?” and what you should have done instead.

and you weren’t able to comprehend why he wad behaving this way. you appreciated the feedback, but all you really needed was some comfort, a shoulder you can cry on, and someone that pats your back reassuringly, telling you that everything is fine.

and today, you were at your limits.

you got your finals back today. all your friends got an A, while you, got a C. a pass is a pass, but you prepared so, so much for it. late night studies, after school tutoring sessions with your friends, and the concerning amount of coffee you drank over the span of these past few weeks just so you could stay awake for just a few more hours.

in the midst of celebration, your heart only wrench, making you go home way earlier than everyone else, since the rest of your friends went for a celebratory dinner.

well, to say you hated your friends that day was an understatement.

and the thing to make it worst was that, seungkwan was home today.

and seeming that he couldn’t sense your bad mood, he started rambling about the things you did this morning, the things that didn’t put him in the best mood.

“love, how many times did i tell you? you need to dry the dishes properly, if not the water droplets will stain the counter! and the laundry, i told you to start the washing before you leave, right? so that i can dry them. but you didn’t! you left without doing it, i had to-”

“kwan, can we talk about this later?” you asked, as politely as you could.

that only put seungkwan off, as he walked closer to you.

“talk about it later? no, we need to settle this now! if not you’re going to do it again. remember you need to-”

“please, i’m not in the correct mood to do this.” you pleaded, your shoulders slumped.

that seemed to push seungkwan off.

“god y/n, you can’t always push these matters aside! every time i talk to you about something, you push me away. and you always give me that pessimistic look and attitude. can’t you understand how frustrating it is?” he snapped, which seemed to be the final straw for you.

“you’re talking about me? can’t you just care for once? god, when the times i just need your company, your comfort, you would constantly find things to nag about! i’m tired. i’m so tired, seungkwan-ah.” you replied, raising your voice slightly.

that’s when he noticed your puffy eyes, the same eyes he always see after you had a long day. the dried tears on your cheeks. the hands, that he loves so much, trembling. and the frown on your face, both in anger, and defeat.

“i don’t understand, i do care, i care-”

“by telling me what i should and shouldn’t do. by pointing out what i did wrong again and again. basically by making me feel like i’m the most terrible person on this planet. well, maybe i am! maybe i’m just that horrible.” you snapped, the tears, that you tried so hard to keep, finally bursting out of your eyes.

seungkwan was speechless. he didn’t know what to say. all this time, he thought he was doing the right thing. advising you, helping you out by telling you what you should do in future situations. but in fact, it was all hurting you?

there was a still silence, suffocating and filled with tension. seungkwan stayed still, unsure of what to do. he wanted to embrace you tightly, tel you he’s sorry and comfort you. but he was afraid. he was so afraid that one screw up could potentially ruin everything.

he took the chance. now or never.

he walked one step forward, while your head hung low, your fist clenching tightly to control yourself. he could almost read your mind. your body language, the soft sniffles, it was as if you’re trying to convince yourself to stop crying.

and he isn’t having any of it.

before you could say or do anything, he wrapped his arms tightly around you, so tightly that you couldn’t find a way to escape him. you tried to wiggle out, but you were just so exhausted, that you just stood there, your face buried into his shoulder, the tear drops falling onto his navy shirt.

he remained silence, trying to find the correct words, the correct actions for you, so that you won’t be provoked even more. he let out a shaky breath.

“you’re not horrible. you’re never horrible.” he began, his hand caressing the small of your back.

you opened your mouth to say something, but a soft sob escaped instead, silencing your thoughts.

“i know i’m not in the correct position to comfort you, after everything i did. but i got so worked up with my own thoughts, i’ve neglected you. i’ve neglected the person that means the most to me. and i didn’t even realised. until this moment.”

he let out a soft, yet sad chuckle. he pulled away gently, cupping your cheeks with both his hands, making your pearly eyes gaze at his.

“the horrible one should be me, shouldn’t it?” he whispered, which made the cracks in your heart break even more.

he placed his forehead against yours, swaying your body gently, while trying to compose himself.

“i know sorry won’t do much now, but i just want you to know, i know it is too late for me to amend everything that i have done. but i can assure you, i’ll improve from here. i’ve been so neglectful of your feelings and thoughts, and haven’t given you a break. but i promise that i will do better. i’ll listen out more. i promise. i really do.” he assured, his eyes both determined and desperate.

his hands held onto your cheeks tightly, you could feel his body shaking from desperation, and his eyes? it speaks a thousand words.

he isn’t doing this because he needed to. he is doing this to reassure you. to convince you. and that was what you needed.

when you caught your breath, you spoke in a shaky voice. “i need to see it, kwan-ah. words won’t cut it out.”

he nodded understandingly, his hands moving around you again, pulling you against him.

“i will show it. i will show the world how much you mean to me, and the length i’ll go to make you happy.” he announced, gazing at you with a hopeful expression.

you nodded, and for the first time, the corners of your lips curled up slightly.

“that’s all i needed to hear.” you replied, your hands wrapping around his torso.

seungkwan cheered silently, joyous and grateful that he had this moment, this chance, this opportunity to prove everything to you.

and that is, to put you first above everything else.

[joshujihan23]

makeout session with Josh plz

Makeout Session! Joshua Headcanons

author’s note: is this becoming a series? because i’m loving it so far

so, so, so gentle with you. i mean he is the gentleman after all. so why wouldn’t he be? instead of holding onto your cheeks, brushing his thumb against your cheekbone, he would glide his fingertips along your face. your lips, your jawline, your shoulders, everything.

a hug will always come first — even when he is desperate for his lips to be connected to yours, he will embrace you so gently, while whispering sweet nothings in your ear

and that brings me to — the words entering your ear is the polar opposite of how his hands are wandering around your body. his large hands would grasp your hips, or wrap themselves around your back, and even sometimes on your ass!

and when his lips finally connects to yours, his hand would move to the back of your head, pushing it gently to make you feel closer to him, while the other hand holds onto your hip, holding you down

he is such a smiler when kissing. with his lips with yours, he just loves the feeling the both of you are sharing. you can feel his happiness ringing through the smile, and that is everything you needed to know that he is comfortable.

he takes the kiss so slowly. unlike others who would bite your lip so that it comes apart. he waits. he waits for the exact moment when you are adjusting your lip position, so that he can insert his tongue swiftly but smoothly. i mean, he’s a man of surprises after all

he LOVES to play with your tongue. maybe it’s the playfulness in him. but he especially loves it when the tip of your tongue “fights” with the tip of his. in his mind, it shows how much your tongue is capable of, especially when it comes to his other tip.

if you are standing while kissing, best believe he will take advantage of how strong he is to carry you to the couch, so that you can straddle his lap while his lips continue to devour you in the kindest way possible. he loves it when he feels grounded by you, surrounded by nothing but you

when he pulls apart from your lips, he takes his time to admire how breathless you are. how your chest rises, how swollen your lips are, and your flushed cheeks. he would press kisses on those areas that got affected by the makeout session, as if those kisses would help them recover

and after that, best believe that he would start marking you by leaving small kisses on your neck and collarbone, because the makeout session was just a warm up from what’s about to happen

[joshujihan23]

idk about all of you but after haniwajjong yesterday i started missing jihan so much more… so i went on this app in search for jihan fics

missing jihan hours

[joshujihan23]

Not So Secretive..

☆ pairing: bf! jeonghan x reader

☆ genre: smut (mdni!), with a sprinkle of fluff at the end

☆ synopsis: jeonghan just misses reader so much, that he decided to let his imaginations take over his actions

☆ warnings: unprotected sex (please be careful!), masturbation (jeonghan), cowgirl, curse words, mention of some body parts, sub! jeonghan, dom! reader, jeonghan being whipped for reader

☆ author’s note: my first smut! please be kind..

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when jeonghan told you that he would be home that day, you withheld the information for you to call off work early, so that you were able to get home to him and spend some well-deserved couple time together.

with his military services taking up his schedule, and your work being that hectic, the only times that you see him these few weeks is moments before he goes to sleep, or the minutes before you headed off to work.

after you left your offices, you went to his favourite restaurant, picking up the food that you have ordered hours ago, so that the moment you left, you were able to get it.

carrying the heavy bags, you placed the bags carefully on the shotgun seat in your (read: his) car, before you set off back home.

when you arrived at your door step, you opened the door to see pitch blackness.

although the sun did set a little early due to the change in seasons, it was only logical that jeonghan on the lights, especially in the living room.

but the light switch remained untouched, and the only thing you could hear was the gust of wind blowing by your ear from outdoors.

weird.

“jeonghan?” you called out.

no answer.

“hannie?” you spoke, louder than before.

still no answer.

confused, you took off your heels, arranging them neatly in the shoe drawer. you placed the bags on the kitchen counter, taking out the take out containers.

you looked up, to see a ray of light coming out from the creak of your bedroom door.

could jeonghan be there? weird, he wouldn’t stay in the bedroom during the day. what could’ve compelled him to stay in there?

taking a piece of fried chicken and popping it in your mouth, you made your way to the bedroom, your teeth chewing on the meat.

upon reaching for the door knob to open the door, you hear soft mumbles, curses, and whimpering.

and more importantly, the lewd noises spilling out of the room.

that only brought a flush of red onto your cheeks.

peeking through the creak of the door, you see his fluffy hair, drenched in sweat, the droplets falling down his forehead.

your eyes landed on his face.

the fucked out expression, the half-lidded eyes, his soft, plump lips, with moans escaping from them.

your eyes continue to trail down his body.

well, his shirt stayed on. (thankfully, if not you would’ve went insane right there.) but with a touch of cum from his previous plays.

his pants? it was sitting across the room, almost like he threw it there.

and the sight you’ve been trying so hard not to stare at. your eyes landed on his dick, standing proud and tall, with his hand stroking it vigorously.

his hips buckled upwards, his fingertips brushing against the head of his cock, making him shudder. his fingers squeezed around the length, his eyes slowly rolling backwards, with his hips moving even more.

he was close. and it was so obvious.

fuck, and the sounds that he was making, and the sentences that he was forming.

“f-fuck, baby, princess, i need you so badly.”

“p-please come home sooner, i need to feel you around me..”

you froze in place, unsure of what to do. you wanted to help him, and the feeling of yourself getting wetter wasn’t helping at all. but your legs stayed firmed on the ground, your hand glued onto the door knob. your hand clenched on the door knob tightly, your eyes shaking with need as you continued to stare at his beautiful figure.

your mind compelled to pushing the door open, making jeonghan jump slightly at the sudden movement.

“hannie..” you breathed out, watching his hand move faster at the sight of you.

there was a wave of panic that you saw flash before his eyes, but that was quickly replaced with an increase in desire, his other hand gripping onto the bedsheets.

“i’m s-sorry you had to see m-me like this. i’m so close baby i can’t-”

in the midst of his blabbering, you took the time to crawl onto the bed, your body move closer to him. your lips immediately attracted onto his, your tongue swirling at his bottom lip, making his lips fall apart, giving your tongue entrance into his mouth.

straddling on his hips, you took his hand into yours, feeling the cum in his hand stick on yours. with the release, you felt his dick spring up, the length hitting against your inner thigh, making you moan gently at the feeling.

jeonghan’s other hand made its way to your skirt, pushing it up lightly, tugging onto your panties, pulling them downwards. his fingers grazed against your folds gently, your liquids staining his long fingers.

“fuck, you’re so wet.” he mumbled through the kiss.

your lips disconnected from his, before it immediately attached itself to his neck, sucking on the skin gently, yet with a touch of authority. that feeling of your lips on his neck, your tongue licking at the sensitive spot, and the touch of your pussy, his fingers swirling around it, made him moan into your ears.

“baby i need to feel you around me p-please i was so close i need your pussy to squeeze around me i-i’m so close baby fuck-” he continued to blabber on, while your fingers played with the buttons of your shirt, unbuttoning the blouse carelessly, letting your chest be exposed before his eyes.

“shh darling, i’m getting there, be patient of me. i know you can.” you whispered, your hands grasping onto the hem of his shirt, pulling it upwards gently.

“baby i can’t take it i’m so close i need you so so badly i-” after you took off his shirt, your lips immediately shut him up, silencing his whines as your tongue explored his mouth.

“i love hearing you beg baby, but you’re not making me it easier for me.” you took off your blouse, your skirt and panties long gone because of him. you placed your hands on his firm chest, squeezing it gently, while you aligned your entrance against the tip of his dick, making him moan at the feeling of your folds.

“you’ve been such a good boy for me, my good boy deserves a reward, right?” you smiled, your hips moving teasingly against his dick, making the moans escape from both of your lips.

“only for you baby, only for you i’ll be a good boy-”

jeonghan got cut off, his words replaced by a moan, as he felt his dick slowly being engulfed by your pussy.

fuck, you’ve missed this feeling so much, his dick being inside you, his length stretching you out, it was only made possible because of how much he have cummed beforehand, and how wet you were.

a loud moan fell out of your lips, your hips now pressing against his, his length deep inside of you.

and jeonghan? he was in heaven. your pussy squeezing tightly against his dick, your face painted with pleasure, it was everything that he asked for, everything that he missed, and everything that his hand cannot do.

“baby you’re so tight, you fit so perfectly around my dick.” he spewed out, as you started moving your hips against his dick, his length gliding in and out of your pussy smoothly.

his dick scraping against your walls, penetrating against the spot that makes you see stars, it was all too perfect, making you want more. your hips starting to move faster, your body bouncing on his dick.

seeing your breasts restricted by your bra, he was quick to place his hands on the buckle, unbuckling the bra and throwing it across the room, letting your curves set free. your tits bounced in rhythm with how you were moving against him, making his eyes roll backwards.

“fuck, your tits, i love seeing them move so much, it’s so perfect.” he moaned, his hands gripping on your hips when he saw how tired you were getting.

“i’m so close baby, i’m so fucking close.” you let out, your moans becoming more messy and your rhythm getting faster, chasing for the release.

“i can feel it baby, your squeezing so much now. cum for me, i’ll cum with you, you’re doing so well.” he praised, which fuelled you to move even faster than before.

you feel the knot in your stomach untying, as you let out a loud moan, letting the juices flow. at the same time, jeonghan began to moan even loudly, his load shooting up into your walls, making your body collapse onto his, as you rode out your release.

jeonghan’s arms immediately wrapped around your body, panting while his hand ran through your hair.

“i’ve been thinking about this all day baby, you’re the best, i love you so, so much.” he mumbled, his chest rumbling against your. you let out a chuckle, placing a gentle kiss on his lips.

“i missed you so much, i missed this feeling.” you said, your hands cupping onto his cheeks, your pearly eyes staring into his.

jeonghan smiled, his forehead leaning against yours.

“i love you, i love you so much.” he smiled while speaking, his hand wiping off the sweat on your forehead.

“i love you too, hannie, so much.” you replied, a fond smile forming on your lips.

the both of you stayed there for a few moments, when jeonghan broke the silence.

“by the way, why are you home so early? aren’t you supposed to get off work at 7? i think you came home at around.. 6? i thought i wanted to complete my.. play just before you come home..” he asked, slightly embarrassed, his breath slightly ragged.

you chuckled, hugging him even tightly.

“i completely my work early, so i wanted to come home early to spend time with my lover. but coming home to this? i can’t be happier.” you answered.

jeonghan laughed, kissing your cheek gently.

“glad you did, i’ve been thinking about you all day.” he laughed once again.

you lifted your head gently, your hand grazing against his cheeks.

“i’ve bought some food, let’s reheat them together, shall we?” you suggested.

“of course, anything, as long as it’s with you.”

[joshujihan23]

I DIDNT REALISE THIS!! super grateful for the 313 of you🤍

[joshujihan23]

lovelies! i’ve been thinking about this, but what do all of you think of me rewriting the stories i wrote on tiktok when i first started there? i’m thinking of writing improved versions and posting them here^^

[joshujihan23]

from my recent posts could you tell who’s my biasline…

[joshujihan23]

hellooo, i love ur make-out session headcannons with dino!! can u make another version for seungcheol?? tysm <3

Makeout Session! Scoups Headcanons

uses you as a stress relief. whenever he had a bad day, or he got scolded by the manager, the first thing he would do is to just pull you aside and just start peppering you with kisses

he would take just a few moments to admire you first — how he had managed to get such a priceless treasure, a god’s gift in fact, and it was all for him. he would cup your cheeks gently, and will kiss your forehead while whispering “you’re just so beautiful baby, i don’t understand how i managed to have a partner like you

he would slowly bring your face up to his, making you place your hand on his firm chest, feeling his speeding heartbeat. “can you feel it baby? this is how much i’m feeling because of you.” AHHH THIS MAN OH MY GOD

as he connects his lips with yours, he would either hold onto your hand tightly, or rest his hands on your waist. anywhere on your body, as long as his hands are glued onto you

he is such a tease. he will definitely suck on your lips gently, while tracing his fingertips along your waistline, which in the end makes your bottom lip swollen (it was all worth it)

the tongue will definitely enter when he gets the signal that you are comfortable and ready for him. he would insert it slowly, his body pressing against yours while he did so. the more his tongue explores your mouth, the closer he pulls you to him, so that he can feel your entire body against his

LOVES it when you tug on his hair, or even letting out a moan or two during your makeout session. it sends electricity down his body, making him yearn for more

on the other hand, when he is having a bad day, or something didn’t go his way, he would roughly (but gently because he doesn’t want to hurt you) push you against the wall the moment he sees you, and would start to smash his lips onto yours, intruding his tongue into your mouth almost immediately

during these rough times, he would definitely pin your hands above your head, or beside it, so that he can feel a wave of dominance, knowing that you are his and his only.

to top it all off, he would whisper profanities in between kisses, showing off his possessive side. ranging from “so fucking good, you taste so good on my tongue” to “all mine, you’re all mine. you’re no one else’s, right baby? you’re my baby, and mine only.”

CHOI SEUNGCHEOL THE MAN YOU ARE.

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i’m so sorry this is so long overdued😓

[joshujihan23]

You’re safe with me

☆ pairing: mafia boss!seungcheol x girlfriend!reader

☆ synopsis: the mafia scene was something that isn’t unfamiliar to you since your boyfriend is THE mafia boss, so is it surprising that you got involved as well?

☆ trigger warning: mentions of violence, abuse, torture, blood, degrading terms such as weak, mentions of injuries such as bruises, cuts, scars.

☆ author’s note: my LONGESTT fic yet. not sure how i feel about this.. do let me know how it is!

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you were overwhelmed with fear, your eyes shielded by the numerous tears filling your eyelids, dripping down your cheeks simultaneously.

you were exhausted. frightened. nervous, anything relating to fear.

your hands were tied with thick, rough rope, and trapped behind the chair you were sitting on. your legs scarred, filled with bruises and cuts from the whips given by his enemy’s subjects. their sinister laughs, their amused expressions, were printed in your brain.

and the scene when you got kidnapped, was replaying again and again. apparently seungcheol betrayed his best friend, alex. and his revenge? kidnap his love of his life, torture his beloved, until seungcheol strikes a deal with him.

and best believe, you knew who the enemy was. the person that ‘fought for you’ against seungcheol.

which in the end, seungcheol won.

and he is here today to get his revenge, after he has risen in placings in the mafia scene.

but whatever that got you in this situation didn’t matter to you at that point. the pain, the fear in you, took over your mind, leaving you to dread whatever that was coming up next.

you heard footsteps approaching, slowly but firmly. you sighed with a shaky breath, preparing yourself for the worst.

it has been hours, and seungcheol hasn’t arrive.

and that is killing you slowly but surely.

just then, you felt a hand, rough and callous, grip onto your cheek. you winced, looking up at him weakly.

only to see that it was alex, with an evil smirk plastered across his face.

you gulped, trying to move your face out of his grip.

only for him to return with a harsh slap across your cheek, making you yelp in pain.

“your prince charming isn’t coming, love. just give it up.” he snickered.

“he will, he definitely will..” you mumbled.

his eyes gazed down your figure, his smirk widening as he does so. he took a step forward, his tall figure standing before you, making you gulp. he grabbed onto your cheek harshly, his cold hand come into contact with the small bruise forming on your cheek from all the torture you’ve been facing, making you wince.

that made alex chuckle darkly, giving you another slap across your cheek.

“such a weak woman, are you? need your knight in shining armour to continuously save you. guess what, pretty? he isn’t coming.” he said in a mocking tone, his eyes shifting to the orange glow at the corner of the dark, eerie warehouse.

the sun is setting. is seungcheol not going to come soon?

before you could even turn to face the sun ray creeping into the warehouse, you felt alex harshly gripping onto your chin.

his face inched closer to you, his breath hitting the tip of your nose gently, a stark contrast to his menacing gaze.

“i fought so hard. i fought so hard so that you could be mine. but what did my dear best friend do? steal you from me. if you were mine, we won’t be having this issue here, darling.” he spoke, his voice low and dark.

he let out another dark chuckle, his other hand gripping onto your thigh tightly.

“now, let me enjoy this time with you. the time which i longed for for all these gruelling years..”

his voice lingered at the end of the sentence. before you could even say anything, he smashed his lips onto you, making you yelp. panicked, you started to fumble on the chair, making some efforts to remove the string that tied both of hands behind your back.

but alex didn’t back down. in fact, he grabbed your cheek harshly with his hand, while using the other to hold your body down on the flimsy chair.

before you knew it, you felt his cold hand playing with the hem of your shirt, as it creeped underneath it. feeling the chills going up your body from the sudden contact, you yelped, but was quickly silenced when he bit your lip recklessly, penetrating his tongue into your mouth, exploring every single inch of it.

you tried, you tried everything in your ability to stop him. you wanted to yank your leg forward to kick him, but his grip on your thigh was so, so strong.

and that’s when you heard a rip.

puzzled, you looked down, only to see that your shirt had rip, due to how old the material was.

alex cackled, his eyes widening in disbelief.

“lord and behold, such smooth and milky skin. tempting, are we?” he growled.

his lips returned to attack yours, his fingertips grazing against your chest, making shivers go down your spine.

“don’t be scared, sweetie, let me take care of you.”

and that moment, you hear gun shots fire right outside the warehouse. cursing under his breath, you could almost see the screws in his brain turning, as he continued to make out with you.

“shh, don’t be frightened, princess. let me just feel you a bit more.”

his hands creeped down your body, reaching against your thigh. he squeezed it harshly, making you flinch. he hiked your skirt up swiftly, his fingers brushing against your inner thigh.

no. he can’t do this. he just can’t.

you tried to shake him off, but he just won’t budge. feeling the tears trickling down your cheeks, you heard the large, wooden door burst open.

“get your hands off her.”

startled, you saw that alex turned his head, his smirk widening.

your eyes glanced to the door as well, and you couldn’t be more relieved.

seungcheol, standing right there, with all his other members.

alex got off of you, brushing his hands together, while walking towards seungcheol with a menacing grin.

“well, well, well. look who we have here?” alex announced.

you saw seungcheol whispering to his other members, as they began to scatter.

“let’s end this with a duel, the first to surrender, loses.” seungcheol declared, his right hand playing with his gun skilfully.

“fine, but no weapons, fair and square.” alex rebutted, throwing his gun aside.

“deal.”

and it all began, the fistfighting. the two men began throwing punches at each other, kicking the other with full force. seungcheol swung a fist against alex’s cheek, making alex return with a strong kick against his legs.

invested in the fight, you didn’t realise that your hands were free, and a pair of arms wrapped around you.

you turned around, to see that it was jeonghan, seungcheol’s most trusted member, and certainly your favourite except for seungcheol.

he placed a hand on your head, trying to reassure you as much as he could.

“you’re safe with us. your injuries, does it hurt, how much does it hurt.”

with this many questions, you could guess that he was trying to distract you from the fight. but your eyes remain glued onto the two men, who behaved relatively animalistic.

seungcheol seemed like he was winning, until alex kicked onto his leg harshly, making his knees buckle. he knelt in front of him, before alex pulled out a knife from his pocket, grazing it against seungcheol’s neck.

“it’s over, buddy. just give up and give me your girl, and we’ll be all good.”

your eyes widened, you wanted to go to him, but jeonghan pulled you back, telling you that it was too dangerous. but seungcheol kept his menacing gaze, his eyes fixed onto alex.

“you will never get her, you aren’t good enough for her.”

you heard seungcheol wince, watching closely, the knife dug deeper in his neck, blood dripping onto the knife slowly.

frightened, you did the thing that only seemed right to you, although it might be deemed as rash.

you escaped from jeonghan’s arms, scurrying onto the floor, and

BANG.

the shot fired, silencing the entire room.

the entire room stood still, almost as if time has stopped.

the body fell on the ground, limp and bleeding, but he was still breathing, since his chest was still rising, slowly but surely.

your hands clenched onto the pistol, your hands shaking from the shock you have. your eyes darted around, only to land on seungcheol.

his facial expression was unreadable, the blood on his neck still dripping.

and that made a wave of fear rush over you, as you watch seungcheol walk towards you.

“i-i’m sorry i didn’t know why i did that i-i was just so scared i’m so-”

and that’s when you felt his soft lips on yours, his hands wrapping around your waist gently. his kiss was so soft, so gentle, yet there’s a lingering feeling of possessive, protectiveness.

at the familiar touch, you gave in immediately, returning the kiss.

breaking away, he placed his forehead against yours, taking that moment to calm his breathing.

“you did the right thing, princess. if it weren’t for you, i would have lost you completely. you’re so brave, so so brave.” his hand ran through the strands of your hair, brushing it away from you.

he looked down, seeing the complete mess that you were in. the torn shirt, the crumped skirt, and most importantly, your injured body, his heart broke almost immediately.

he took off his jacket, wrapping it around your body, making you wear it.

“it’s going to be cold, wear this so that you won’t fall sick, alright?” he mumbled, his sweet tone lingering in the air.

“cheollie..” you sighed shakily, your arms wrapped around his neck, pulling him closer to you. you buried your head into his neck, feeling his blood trickling on your neck. you held onto him tightly, your breath becoming more and more shaky from fear.

that absolutely broke seungcheol’s heart. the only times when you actually called him ‘cheollie’, was when you were scared, when you had so much fear in you it hurts his heart. that made him pull you closer to him, as if he was protecting you from the rest of the world.

“you’re safe with me now, princess. i’ll protect you better, i swear.” he mumbled, his breath tickling your ear gently.

“sorry to.. ruin the moment. but what are we doing with this animal?”

the both of you turned around, to see joshua leaning forward, watching alex carefully while kicking his unconscious body.

“leave him here, we’ll teach him a lesson.” seungcheol spoke, in such a simple, yet evil tone.

he turned his attention to you again, his eyes softening at the sight of your tear-filled, doe eyes.

“i have one favour of you. tell me everything he did, and that will determine my punishment for him tomorrow.”

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the soft music of the movie played in the background, the sweet scent of the candle he lit up filled the room.

after the both of you got home, he immediately carried you in bridal style, and towards your bedroom. he sat you down on the mattress, while examining the state that you are in.

the bright, bruising red mark on your cheeks, the ones that he always hold on to seek comfort. your torn shirt, the shirt that you always told him not to throw away because it meant so much to you, but because of today, it got destroyed. your thigh, covered in red marks, with bruises and cuts trailing down your leg, the pair of legs he just loves to touch because it was just so, so soft.

and most importantly, your lips. the pinkish, soft lips that he loves to connect his lips with, was now bruised, swollen, and split.

he cupped your cheeks, gently so that it won’t trigger any pain when he did so. but seeing you wince softly at the touch, his heart immediately broke.

he placed his forehead against yours, letting out a shaky sigh.

“fuck, i didn’t want this job of mine to danger you. what did i do.. i’m so sorry princess. i’m so sorry..” he mumbled gently, his eyes tracing your face.

your gaze was locked onto his, watching his eyes soften as he examined your injuries. seeing the guilt building in him, you quickly placed a finger on his lips, shushing him.

“don’t be, at least i’m safe with you now, right?” you replied, your lips brushing against his.

seungcheol let out another shaky sigh, placing a peck on your lips, giving himself a reminder that you are actually safe with him.

“you’re right, you’re so so right. let me take care of you, please. i need to see you feel better before i can do so myself.” he whispered, his hand grasping onto yours gently.

seungcheol stood up, taking one last look at you, before he walked off to the bathroom. a few moments later, you see him walking back towards you, with a basin filled with water and washcloth in one hand, and the first aid kit in the other.

he sat in front of you, his weight sinking the bed down slightly. he placed the basin on the bedside table, dipping the cloth into it. he wrung it gently, as he brought it closer to your face.

“this is going to sting, be strong for me, okay?” he mumbled gently, waiting for your approval while he continued to stare into your eyes.

when you nodded, he sighed softly, dabbing the wet cloth onto the wounds on your face. feeling the sting, you hissed, your hands clenching onto his arm.

he stopped for a moment, watching how your face clenched up, your eyes closing a little from the pain.

“i know i know, it hurts right? i’ll be quick, i promise.” he said reassuringly.

he seemed to treat your injuries pretty quickly, and before you know it, he was already done. your body was filled with bandages, small plasters, and oilment to treat the bruises. he placed the cloth back in the basin, placing a gentle kiss on your lips.

“you did so well, princess. so good for me.” he praised, a small smile forming on his lips.

you gave him a smile in return, before kneeling forward, while placing a hand on his chest. your eyes was fixated on the scar on his neck, the one he got while he was in the fight with alex.

“relax baby, now it’s my turn to take care of you.” you said softly, holding onto the wet cloth, the same one he used to wipe off the dried blood.

your actions made seungcheol chuckle, his eyes glued to every little detail that you did.

“alright princess, i’ll be good.” he replied, another chuckle escaping from his lips.

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you treated his injuries pretty quickly, while he took the moment to order some food for the both of you to eat.

after all, after a day of fighting and torture, the least the both of you could do was to eat.

and the food came pretty quickly, with the both of you sitting on the couch in the room, with a movie playing in the background, cuddled in each other’s arm, while eating the fried chicken from your favourite restaurant.

taking a piece of chicken, seungcheol placed the meat at your mouth, waiting for you to eat it.

“say ahh~” seungcheol cooed, making you giggle, as you at the chicken.

“i’ll never believe how the most powerful mafia in this country is the softest person when it came to his girlfriend.” you teased, placing your head on his chest.

seungcheol chuckled, his fingers running through your hair, while he admired your facial features.

“well, although you had the mafia boss wrapped around that little finger of yours, you should know that you are in fact, the safest person that anyone can be on this planet, when you’re with me.”

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bonus:

seungcheol walked into the warehouse, seeing that jeonghan and joshua has already tied alex up on the chair, the same chair you sat on yesterday.

“p-please let me go! i’m so sorry for kidnapping y/n let me go please..” alex begged, his eyes desperate and pleading.

seungcheol only let out a mocking laugh, his hand twirling the gun in his hand around.

“y/n shared with me everything that you did, now let’s do the punishment according, shall we?” seungcheol looked at jeonghan and joshua, who gave a knowing, yet menacing smile.

“should’ve known before you kidnapped the girlfriend of the most powerful mafia.” joshua said, while trying to hold back his laughter.

“and trying to win her back? you’re pathetic, even for a normal human being.” jeonghan added, while cracking his knuckles.

seungcheol walked closer to alex, his eyes eyeing down at the man, who seemed smaller, and more afraid, making him laugh once again.

“let’s make it quick and easy. i need to get back to my love. where should we start?”

[joshujihan23]

drunken confessions

pairing: best friend!jeonghan x reader

well, to say that you and jeonghan were polar opposites when it comes to drinking was an understatement.

jeonghan, he has a time limit to his body. and every, single time you drink with him, it always ends with “y/n, please, can we go home?” which you would always refuse to, earning a groan from him.

when you’re drunk, you were the life of the party. taking shots after shots, dancing to the music in the party, you were having the time of your life.

and that included today, during dino’s birthday party.

confetti, balloons, good food, and most importantly, alcohol, was all you needed for the adrenaline in your body go insane.

with your skin-tight dress on, although it did restrict yourself from going all out, you were certain that it will definitely not stop you from being able to enjoy yourself.

you were in the middle of the living room dancing with hoshi and dokyeom, with them singing in a very off tune manner. while jeonghan, he was by the side, watching you having the time of your life.

as you started to throw your hands above the air, vibing to the music blasting through the speakers, your eyes landed on jeonghan.

but in your vision, it wasn’t jeonghan.

it was an attractive, young man, who seemed to be alone.

your mind went aloof, as you drunkenly walked towards jeonghan, a sheepish smile on your lips.

your feet shuffled on the ground, making its way to jeonghan, while he just watched you carefully, a smirk appearing on his face.

“hey, you look really pretty.” you shouted, your voice trying to compete with the loud music.

that made a chuckle escape from his lips, his head tilting slightly, with an amused expression plastered on his face.

“oh really? the pretty one should be you.” he replied.

you shook your head, before leaning it onto his chest, startling him.

“you look a lot like my crush, it’s like i’m seeing his long lost twin.” you commented, your half-lidded eyes fluttering up to see him.

“your crush? give me a more detailed description about him.” he teased.

“he’s tall, pretty, handsome, kind, super mean to me, sweet, loving, but there’s one problem.”

“what’s the problem, sweetheart?” he asked, a teasing tone lingering in his voice.

“hey! don’t call me that, you’re not my boyfriend!” you rebutted, hitting his chest lightly.

that made a chuckle escape from his lips, his hand resting on your head gently.

“and you were saying?”

“oh yes, but the problem is, my crush is my best friend..”

his eyebrow lifted, the smirk on his face widening as you spoke.

“your best friend? so you want to date your best friend?”

you nodded, a sigh escaping from your lips, a large contrast to the pink blush appearing on your cheeks.

“yeah, but he’s out of my league, isn’t he?” you mumbled, looking down on the ground.

jeonghan chuckled, placing a finger on your chin, lifting if up gently so that his gaze is able to meet yours. his other arm wrapped around your waist, pulling you closer to him.

and with that position, he leaned down, as you felt his lips connected to yours.

you felt slightly taken aback, but gave in as he stayed there, moving his lips gently to deepen the kiss.

you placed a hand on his chest, feeling his grip around his waist tightening as the kiss continued.

pulling away, you hit his chest gently. (or so you thought)

“hey, you’re a great kisser, but i saved my first kiss for my best friend! and now it’s taken away by some stranger..” you crossed your arms, pouting gently.

jeonghan chuckled, leaning towards your ear.

“you’re so cute, sweetheart, but did you not realise?”

you looked up at him, confused.

“realise what?”

“that your best friend is standing right here with you now?”

missing jeonghan hours⏳

[joshujihan23]

Just a little kiss won’t hurt, right?

☆ pairing: bf!joshua x reader

☆ genre: romance, fluff, just joshua being whipped for reader, sweet talking

☆ synopsis: joshua being covered by kissy marks💋

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“love, i’m heading off to the company right now!” you heard joshua’s voice yell from the living room. you were just getting ready for work, putting on some of your lip gloss as a final touch. hearing his keys clank and the locks of the door being unlocked, you placed your lip gloss on the vanity and immediately rushed down to the door step.

“don’t leave yet!” you said, briskly walking towards him. you walked towards the door, seeing a tall figure dripped in a black oversized top with a pair of grey sweat pants, topped with his favourite cap. his duffle bag, the one that you got from him for his 28th birthday, was strapped around his right shoulder. joshua adjusted his cap slightly, the corner of his lips curving upwards at the sight of you.

“i might be late to practice again because of you, love.” he chuckled gently.

with him standing in front of you, you brushed his shoulders, dusting off any excessive dust on his shoulders (or because you just wanted to touch him), before pushing him down to your height. your fingertips brushed against his cheeks gently, as you placed a peck on his lips, and then his cheek.

“a little kiss will make you forget about late-coming , see you after work, babe.”

that made a chuckle escape from his lips, ruffling your hair as he turned around.

“i’ll see you after work then, don’t miss me too much~”

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joshua walked into the practice room, his bag slumped across his shoulders. his eyes glued onto his phone screen, as the entire room went silent. finding the silence unusual, knowing how loud SEVENTEEN was, he looked up with a confused expression.

“what’s wrong? what’s up with the quietness?” joshua asked, slowly putting his phone down on the counter.

and that seemed to break the straw on the camel’s back.

everyone, including the staff members, burst into laughter.

“yah joshuji, you had fun with your girlfriend, didn’t you?” jeonghan commented with an amused tone.

joshua tilted his head slightly, feeling even more confused.

“what’s wrong? what made you say that?” he asked, looking and patting around his body.

hoshi pulled him by his wrist, dragging him towards the large mirror with a snicker escaping from his lips. he pushed joshua towards the mirror, making him examine his appearance.

and there he saw it. an apparent kiss mark on his cheek, and a smudged lip gloss spread across his lips.

he touched them gently, thinking back as to when he actually felt you do this.

and that’s when it rang. the moment he was about to leave the house. that ‘little kiss’ you meant.

guess it wasn’t so little after all.

however, instead of feeling flustered or embarrassed, a small smirk appeared on his lips, almost as if he was being proud about the marks.

“are you jealous? seems like my princess has marked her territory.” he said, his eyes fixed on the kiss marks.

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and if you thought joshua washed off the kiss marks, you were wrong. he left it there the entire time he was at the dance practice, almost as if he was showing off. every time the members would tease him about it, he would just smile proudly, which seems to be the motivation as he stepped into a sephora after work. he walked over to the lipstick section, examining the variety of colours the store has to provide.

and there it was, the one that you had been eyeing on for months, which he promised he would get it for your birthday, which was in a month’s time.

joshua took it, and immediately went to pay.

your birthday was too long ahead to wait anyway.

stepping into your house, he was greeted by you running up to him and planting a kiss on his cheek. he let out a small chuckle, returning the kiss on your lips.

“love, i got you something, which i need your help with.” he mumbled into your ear, dragging you into the living room.

that sparked your curiosity and excitement. you followed him closely, your hand still interlocked with his.

he sat down on the couch first, before pulling you onto him, making you straddle on his lap. you placed your hands on his shoulders, looking at him curiously. your confused look, the way your eyes widened with curiosity, it just made him chuckle with so much fondness.

“you’re so beautiful.” he mumbled under his breath.

he traced the sides of your body, reaching into his pocket, digging out the new red lip gloss that he bought.

your eyes widened even more, surprised to find out that he has bought that one lip gloss that you have always yearned for.

(not to mention that it was so overpriced as well.)

“babe, why did you-”

“don’t ask. but i want you to put this on and smother your kisses onto me. the more apparent, the better.” he whispered into your ear, his hand reaching to yours, placing the lip gloss in your hand.

confused, you examined his face, only to realise that he had a slight kiss mark on his cheek, fading and leaving a trace. you chuckled, realising that it was from your escapade in the morning.

you opened up the little box, taking out the classy case of the lip gloss. it was in a dainty, yet elegant pink bottle, with soft sparkles coating the glass. you opened up the bottle, coating your lips with the brand new lip gloss.

you stared at joshua into his eyes, noticing the hint of excitement and desire in his eyes. you placed the lip gloss aside, as he placed his hands on your waist, keeping you on his lap. you reached down, your lips brushing against his lips.

“no turning back now, hm?” you mumbled, your hand placed against his chest.

he nodded, which gave you every confirmation you needed for your actions.

you placed a gentle kiss on his lips, your lips moving slightly. your eyes closed, savouring the moment that you shared with him. joshua smiled into the kiss, his tongue licking your lips gently, deepening the kiss. his hands wrapped around your waist, pulling you closer to him.

you let go reluctantly, to see a pink tint staining his lips.

“you taste so sweet, love.” he whispered, his fingers brushing against your cheek.

you moved your face towards his face, placing a kiss on his cheek, applying a bit of pressure so that the kiss mark will be more apparent. letting go, you see it, pink and bright.

and so it continued. his forehead, his cheekbones, his chin, his jaw, and even his neck, were all covered by kiss marks. you only had to reapply the lip gloss 3 times, and before you know it, he was completely covered with kiss marks.

and joshua? he seems to be in euphoria. his lips parted slightly, his hair messy from you playing with it, and his eyes, they were filled with so much fondness, so much love.

you leaned back slightly, examining your masterpiece, smirking at his appearance.

“you’re so pretty like this, baby.” you mumbled, tracing your fingers against his cheeks.

you placed a final kiss on his lips, as you got up from his lap.

“dinner’s getting cold, i’ll reheat it up first, alright?” you said, smiling gently at him.

he nodded, watching you leave him alone in the living room, completely blissed by the warmth of your kisses and your touch.

he took his phone out of his pocket, opening the camera app to check on your work.

and wow, you took his instructions to the next level.

he was completely marked by you, and he couldn’t be more happier.

he clicked on the shutters of the camera, forwarding the photos to a specific group chat, with the caption.

“guess i am completely owned by my lady.”

[joshujihan23]

Jealousy, jealousy

☆ pairing: idol bf! seungcheol!x reader

☆ genre: fluff, protectiveness, possessive behaviour by cheol

☆ synopsis: just seungcheol being possessive and jealous..

☆ author’s note: CAN YOU ALL BELIEVE I DREAMT OF THIS EXACT MOMENT HAPPENING????

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it’s comeback season again for SEVENTEEN, and they have been busier than ever. dance practices, photoshoot after photoshoot, endless hours in the recording studio with woozi, it seemed like time was moving slower than ever during this period. and the closer the date comes, the fewer times you get to see seungcheol, which included today, where the team had practice at the studio.

to say that you were lonely was an understatement. you hadn’t been able to see seungcheol often these days. you tossed and turned in your bed, longing at the empty space next to you. you sighed, closing your eyes and envisioning seungcheol’s large body sleeping right next to you, which was a rare sight these days. you hummed gently, staring up at the ceiling when an idea sparked in your head.

why not cook some lunch for the members?

that would give you an excuse to see seungcheol (and also get a sneak listen to their upcoming song.)

springing out of the bed, you headed over to the kitchen. you opened up your pantry, examining the possible meals that you could cook up for all 13 members. you turned your attention to the clock.

3 hours till lunch. that’s more than enough time.

you knelt down and fished out the endless lunch boxes, designated for each member, as your cookery begins…

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and after a few hours later and some hiccups while trying to find your way to HYBE, you stood in front of the door of the dance studio, hearing the music stop and the panting that followed after. you took a sharp breath, mentally preparing yourself before you enter. taking that as your cue to enter, you picked up the bags of the lunch boxes, pushing the door open with your body.

and as expected, at the sound of the door opening, you see their heads turn towards you, the aroma of the food quickly filling up the dance studio.

before you can even say anything, you saw members already rushing up towards you.

“noona! it’s so great to see you, what did you bring?” dino asked, peeking over to your bag.

“is that food? y/n you have such good timings! how did you know i was hungry?” dokyeom added.

you laughed at their comments, moving yourself more into the studio, holding up the bags.

“c’mon, here’s some home-cooked food to energise yourselves!” you exclaimed.

and like a pack of tigers, they rushed towards you, hovering over the bag and you.

hoshi wrapped an arm around your shoulder, ruffling your hair gently.

“y/nnie~ you’re the best!” he exclaimed.

“wahh y/n-ah! this is amazing, i love your cooking!” mingyu mentioned, taking his lunch box.

“is this matched to my diet? oh it is! it says right here.” woozi said, pointing at the post it note on the lunch box.

after meeting with many heads and ‘thank yous’, you witnessed the last few lunch box being taken. recognising the arm, you immediately knew who it was.

“love, you didn’t have to, you know? you’re treating the members so goddamn well.” seungcheol mumbled, wrapping an arm around your shoulders, bringing you to a corner of the dance studio.

“i had to, times are so rough now, it makes me happy seeing you eat.” you replied, as you sat down in front of him.

seungcheol laughed, taking a bite of the food, his eyes widening at the taste.

“wah, this is delicious. maybe it’s time i wife you up.” he teased, the dimples on his face flashing with his smile.

you laughed, hitting his arm lightly.

“stop~ you’re exaggerating it.” you replied, your ears turning pink without you noticing, and that seemed to have made seungcheol smile even more.

you two enjoyed the comforting silence together (well not really, because SEVENTEEN was being SEVENTEEN), until it was disrupted by a drawn out voice.

“ahh shuji isn’t here today, let me third wheel the both of you~” jeonghan interrupted, a sinister smirk plastered on his face.

“shua oppa isn’t here today?” you asked, looking around the dance studio.

“he has a photoshoot, he’ll pop by later.” you heard seungcheol say while chewing.

you took this moment to just take your time to admire seungcheol. it has been so long since you took a good look at him. you just missed seeing him so much. his jaw, moving from his chews, his thick eyebrows, furrowing in a good way from the food that you fed him with, his fluffy hair, slightly drenched with sweat, and his biceps, which seemed bigger than you remembered it to be.

you moved closer to him while he was talking to jeonghan, before poking on his biceps with your fingertips, sending shivers to his body.

“have you been working out lately, cheollie?” you asked, squeezing his biceps gently with two of your fingers.

that only made a chuckle escape from his lips, an egotistic smirk lying on his face. he took his hand in yours, caressing it gently.

“you’ve noticed? has it been paying off?” he said with a suggestive tone, flexing his muscles slightly.

you held onto his hand gently, noticing how small your hand was compared to his. you took it in your hand, comparing the sizes carefully.

“has your hand always been this big? i don’t remember that.” you asked again, observing both of your hands.

before seungcheol could respond, you heard jeonghan suddenly mentioned.

“y/n-ah your hand looks like the same size as mine! let’s compare.” he held his hand out, waiting for you.

you removed your hand from seungcheol’s, as you placed your hand on jeonghan’s. unlike seungcheol’s calloused hands, jeonghan’s hand felt more milky, and more smooth. you observed it closely, noticing that like what he said, they were almost the same size, just that jeonghan’s hand was slightly larger.

“wah, it’s true! but oppa your hand feels so smooth, you’ve got to teach me your ways!” you interlocked your fingers with jeonghan’s hand, shaking them slightly.

jeonghan laughed at your statement, touching your hand gently, observing it.

“can’t say that about me, your hand is pretty smooth too.” he replied, a smile plastered on his lips.

what you didn’t know was that during this interaction with jeonghan, seungcheol was sitting right behind you, watching every single second of it. the way you interlocked your fingers with jeonghan’s, the way you complimented his smooth hands, and the way that you’re outright holding onto another man’s hand in front of him, not to mention his best friend.

he was infuriated.

putting the lunchbox aside, he moved closer to you. he reached his hands out, holding onto your waist firmly but gently, pulling you towards him, before you found yourself on his lap. confused, you turned to jeonghan, who seemed as confused as you, before you turned to seungcheol.

“cheol? what’s up?” you asked, trying to examine his facial expression.

he didn’t respond immediately. instead he placed his head on your shoulder, placing soft kisses onto your neck gently, as he whispered,

“seems like you’re forgetting who you actually belong to, hm? i just needed to remind you.”

his deep voice, making his chest rumble against your back, the hand on your waist drawing small circles, and his lips pressing against your sensitive skin, it sent shivers down your spine.

you gulped slightly, looking around to see if any of the other members were watching. but thankfully, they were more entertained by seungkwan and dino bickering with each other. you tapped on seungcheol’s arm gently, leaning back onto him.

“cheollie, your members are here too, can’t you wait a little?” you whispered, feeling slightly nervous.

you felt him shaking his head, a playful smirk on his face.

“well then they’ll know who you belong to.” he mumbled, his breath hitting your ear teasingly.

before you could even respond, you heard the door of the dance studio creak open, to see a joshua entering the room.

“JOSHUJI! you’re finally here! now i don’t need to feel lonely anymore.” jeonghan shouted in delight, running towards him with the lunch box in his hand.

at jeonghan’s words, all the members reacted to welcome joshua, asking and talking to him about everything, like the popular kid he is.

but seungcheol stayed planted onto the cold floor, his muscular arms wrapped around your torso, and his chin placed against your shoulder. his hands grasped onto yours tightly, engulfing your hands entirely. he leaned up to place a soft kiss on your lips, smirking gently at the contact.

“you’re all mine, so don’t even think about touching other men, because you are mine to touch.”

please let me dream of this again.

[joshujihan23]

writing list to keep me accountable:

joshua SMOTHERED with kiss marks 💋

joshua’s new tattoo.

joshua x jeonghan x reader poly

[joshujihan23]

had the time of my life (the svt characters are the CUTESTT) but do add me if you’re playing too🤍)

[joshujihan23]

Hi hi! I just wanted to say that I discovered your account through Tiktok, and I haven't read anything yet, but I am sooooo excited! I did a bit of skimming, and I'm very interested in pretty much everything here, soooo don't mind me lurking a bit haha (*^^*)

i’m glad, do tell me which one’s your favourite^^~

[joshujihan23]

also i’m opening my inbox if anyone wants to talk/wants me to comment about something…🧸

[joshujihan23]

writing is my coping mechanism at this point. i had such a bad weekend that i posted 2 stories within 24 hours..