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the idea that your friends won't like you if you're too weird is wrong you just need better friends for example one time I told a friend whenever I was losing my mind I laid down on the floor under my desk and stared at it until I was better and next time she visited me she taped a bag of salami snacks to the underside of my desk with a message saying "going insane all by yourself, handsome?" which I only saw months later when I had a breakdown. that's friendship.

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really jealous of people who can just... do things. like they dont go through the 39 stages of grief before and the 47 stages of grief after. they just do it like its some adidas commercial. like the spirit of shia laboeuf possessed them. still sounds fake to me but whatever. good for them ig

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a child with an undiagnosed mental illness: I think I need help. I struggle with things nobody else seems to be struggling with.

a parent who never got diagnosed for the exact same mental illness: Oh sweetie. EVERYONE struggles with that :)

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kinda told my dad that i wont be a med student anymore and im terrified w job interviews kdnsk had a hr person dm me in linkedin wanting me take up some hr role,,, i just dont wanna stop hoping after all ive been thru ckdnks,,, hope i have a job this year ncodj,,,

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the way that the season wrapped f and m had both hair makeovers pls that’s so cute yas best friends <3

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just kinda sent a risky reply codnkd,,,, super nervous ab what would be result of that dodjs aaah

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been dumped,,,, again,,, ahaha,,,, what is wrong w me :D

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so yeah,,,,, life update,,,,,, um i failed med school,,, ( i failed anatomy and physiology to be exact (:,,,) can’t even go thru the whole thing,,,,, barely in the first year,,,,,, i just dont know how i’ll tell my parents,,,,, like also w the very few people who believed in me u know (:,,,, theyre gonna be so disappointed i wasted their money (: bye im such a failure lol

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i just wanna finish this dang “reflection paper” but my brain is just 0 ??? 😐 hate it here and it due tomorrow so

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my second cousin and i unknowingly becoming med students at the same time 😭,,,, and literally have the same undergrad course ldndks,,,, why is that sending me 😭,,,, we twinning 😭 like we’re literally batchmates 😭 jdndj anyway

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literally have chest pain on my right side odndkd,,,, maybe bc of anxiety :/ thank God is kinda gone now,,,, anyways im free dkdnkd done w all of my final exams,,, 1 final paper presentation to go that is tba kdndks,,,, anyways (:

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u always make me feel dumb,,, and i forgive u every time,,, bc i don’t have anyone and bc i love u

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i’m so tired i can’t do this anymore im so useless

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getting dumber and demotivated by the second :)

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like seriously looked into being a paid book reviewer lolol bc i dont wanna do school anymore bc i suck :/ bc at least im reading romances for a living but who am i kidding lol