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Current Submission Count 18/7/24

Gillion Tidestrider (Riptide) - 6 submissions (Autism, ADHD, Anxiety, Dyslexia, OCD, PTSD, RSD,)

Shilo Bathroy (The Suckening) - 4 submissions (Autism, Anxiety, Dyslexia, OCD)

Emil Tucker (The Suckening) - 4 submissions (ADHD)

Chip (Riptide) - 3 submissions (Autism, ADHD, NPD, PTSD)

Dakota Cole (Prime Defenders) - 3 submissions (Autism, ADHD, Anxiety, Dyslexia, OSDD, PTSD)

Troy Lougferd (Wonderlust) - 3 submissions (Autism, ADHD, Dyscalculia, Dyslexia, NPD, PPPD, Vestibular Migraine)

Lucia (Total Monster Kill) - 2 submissions (Autism, ADHD, DPDR, PTSD)

Peter Sqloint (Apotheosis) - 2 submissions (Autism, Anxiety, Dermatilliomania, Dissociative Disorder, Trichotilliomania)

Runt (Wonderlust) - 2 submissions (Autism, ADHD)

William Wisp (Prime Defenders) - 2 submissions (Autism, Anxiety, Depression, OCD)

Arthur (The Suckening) - 1 submission (NPD, PTSD)

Jay Ferin (Riptide) - 1 submission (Anxiety, C-PTSD)

Kian Stone (Blood in the Bayou) - 1 submission (Autism, FASD)

Lizzie Lafayette (Riptide) - 1 submission (Bipolar Type 2, PTSD)

Queen (Riptide) - 1 submission (Tourette's syndrome)

Reuben Price (Riptide) - 1 submission (Autism)

Rolan Deep (Blood in the Bayou) - 1 submission (Anxiety)

Rumi (Apotheosis) - 1 submission (NPD)

Uncle Threestrings (Wonderlust) - 1 submission (Autism, ADHD)

Viv Weylin (The Suckening) - 1 submission (Autism, OCD)

Vyncent Sol (Prime Defenders) - 1 submission (Autism, DID, NPD)

The submission form can be found here! Keep sending in submissions! (/nf)

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JRWI Most ND Bracket (Part 2!)

Hello and welcome (or welcome back) to the Just Roll With It most neurodivergent bracket! Rules and submission form are under the cut.

Please read the rules before submitting any characters!

Rules:

No CC (content creator) submissions! Only characters!

Characters from any of the JRWI campaigns are welcome, but please only submit JRWI characters!

You may submit multiple characters, but please do not re-submit the same character multiple times

However, you may re-submit submissions from the first bracket

You may list multiple forms of neurodivergency in one submission, but please only list one character per submission

Be respectful! Do not hate on/demonize/stigmatize any form of neurodivergency in your submission or otherwise throughout the tournament!

Propaganda and other non-submissions can be sent to the ask box, but please submit characters through the form linked below!

And most importantly, have fun!

Submission form:

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Since the old bracket was from before The Suckening, would anyone be interested in a second jrwi most nd bracket? Starting entirely from scratch with a new submission form and everything.

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Bonus Third Place Poll!

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Vyncent Sol (Prime Defenders)

(Submitted for Autism, DID/Plurality, OCD, and generally neurodivergent)

I do not care that it isn’t canon system Vyncent owns my soul  ~ DID

I’ve only seen the free episodes but GOODNESS. First of all the multiple personalities are an obvious choice, the fact that he’s from another world and struggles to adapt to this world is SO autism coded for so many reasons, plus just. HIM is so autistic-like I can’t put words to it but it just is. The OCD is just vibes and projection honestly  ~ Autism, Plural, OCD, ND

Dakota Cole (Prime Defenders)

(Submitted for Autism, ADHD, OCD, OSDD, PTSD, Dissociative Disorder, and Dyslexia)

Dakota Cole  ~ Autism and ADHD

Misses social cues, high sense of justice, pretty black and white morals, stims, struggles with change, special interest in superheroes, struggles to process his emotions, wears noise cancelling headphones, gets overstimulated, need I go on?  ~ Autism

Tends to jump into things without thinking, pretty short attention span especially with stuff he doesn’t like, very AuDHD vibes ~ ADHD

Come on, now. Be honest with yourself. ~ Autism and ADHD

LOOK AT THAT CREATURE OF A MAN. Sensitive to loud noise/generally gets overwhelmed at chaotic situations, cannot fucking keep a thought straight, uiwrehfgpiouwygehfiu LOOK AT HIM. He’s my little chaos boy and he needs to be kept safe and cozy please. dont let him down. protecc. win.  ~ Autism and ADHD

Grizzly has stated both in PD episodes and in the rolled that Dakota does not know how to process complex emotions. Like, at all. He is also constantly flirting from one idea to the next in a way that is common in ADHD. I would like to spin him around in a microwave  ~ Autism and ADHD

I like them a lot :333  ~ Autism and OCD

super hero hyperfixation, canonically has sensory issues, tendency to have black and white morality (and also sticks to that moral code strictly). also you can argue that when he went feral due to overstimulation, that was just a meltdown that got supercharged by his heart.  ~ Autism

Dakota has repeatedly had trouble/stated that he can’t read. While this could be to the vision loss that he needs glasses for in season two, it could just as easily be attributed to dyslexia  ~ Dyslexia

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Round 5/Final Poll:

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Gillion Tidestrider (Riptide)

(Submitted for Autism, ADHD, OCD, PTSD, and Dyslexia)

do i really need to say anything. do i really.  ~ Autism he has,,,,,,, an issue with textures and social interaction and just yknow gives off those v i b es  ~ Autism He misses social cues, mostly black and white thinking, especially towards the beginning of the series, strong morals, has stated he doesn’t like/struggles with change, etc etc  ~ Autism HE CANONICALLY DOESN’T LIKE VELVET HE CANONICALLY HAS TEXTURE/SENSORY ISSUES. His whole arc with the oversea is so autism coded (with not understanding things everybody else around him thinks is common knowledge even if it’s never been explained to him before). But ALSO HE TOTALLY HAS INTRUSIVE/IMPULISVE THOUGHTS he canonically has ‘blasphemous’ type thoughts (wanting to steal lemons with his friends even if it’s against his oath), plus there’s NO WAY he doesn’t have violent type intrusive thoughts about hurting his loved ones NO WAY. plus his overall stubbornness of not letting go of his oath and general struggles with change is so so so autism coded of him.  ~ Autism and OCD Gillion is literally so autistic. He misses social cues and is easily deceived. He also hates lying and is overall a very honest guy! he repeats certain phrases like ‘it is my destiny!’ which are actually vocal stims cause i said so. Could all of this be explained by him not having a childhood and never learning anythning other than fight? yup! Am i saying all of this cause im like that? yeah! and im autistic :D also hes very cool and thats also a sign of autism  ~ Autism being put through years of (training) torture can cause anxiety especially at the young age he was ive also seen him just do random shit which gives off the idea that he’s not reliant on social cues, for example; jumping out windows, kissing a man (chip), or just going off to do his own thing which is a thing i do alot,,not kissing men,,,or jumping out winows yet but hes not reliant on social cues, he also ties his hair up, and i know he didnt do it in the first design but sometimes my sensory issues go away and come back randomly like a vacation for those bastards anyway another thing with the anxiety autism and anxiety are both very common together like autism and adhd! thats all i got but i can go way more in depth  ~ Autism and Anxiety Gillion fishman nuerospicy asf and I need ppl to share in my hc that he has ocd look at him. Insert cool character analysis I don’t do words. Fish. ~ Autism, ADHD, and OCD

Peter Sqloint (Apotheosis)

(Submitted for Autism and AVPD)

Struggles with eye contact, misses social cues, special interest in rocks  ~ Autism literally changed the course of the story with his autism swag. with the power of rocks and lizard. killed god and pulled a bad bitch.  ~ Autism You cannot tell me he isn’t autistic, he literally hyperfixates on rocks he doesn’t even want children he will just raise lizards, he is so silly he just want rocks and logs for his lizard hhhhhhhhhh his magic can change rock colors  ~ Autism ROCKS  ~ Autism FUCKUNG LOOK AT HIM  ~ Autism

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Final Poll!

The Round 5/Final poll (Gillion Tidestrider vs Peter Sqloint) will go up tomorrow, December 1st at 9AM PST/12PM EST/5PM GMT! This one will be open for a week!

Feel free to send in any propaganda for either character through my ask box!

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Round 4/Semi-Final Results:

Gillion Tidestrider vs Dakota Cole

Vyncent Sol vs Peter Sqloint

Final matchup:

Gillion Tidestrider vs Peter Sqloint!

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Round 3 Poll:

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Gillion Tidestrider (Riptide)

(Submitted for Autism, ADHD, OCD, PTSD, and Dyslexia)

do i really need to say anything. do i really.  ~ Autism he has,,,,,,, an issue with textures and social interaction and just yknow gives off those v i b es  ~ Autism He misses social cues, mostly black and white thinking, especially towards the beginning of the series, strong morals, has stated he doesn’t like/struggles with change, etc etc  ~ Autism HE CANONICALLY DOESN’T LIKE VELVET HE CANONICALLY HAS TEXTURE/SENSORY ISSUES. His whole arc with the oversea is so autism coded (with not understanding things everybody else around him thinks is common knowledge even if it’s never been explained to him before). But ALSO HE TOTALLY HAS INTRUSIVE/IMPULISVE THOUGHTS he canonically has ‘blasphemous’ type thoughts (wanting to steal lemons with his friends even if it’s against his oath), plus there’s NO WAY he doesn’t have violent type intrusive thoughts about hurting his loved ones NO WAY. plus his overall stubbornness of not letting go of his oath and general struggles with change is so so so autism coded of him.  ~ Autism and OCD Gillion is literally so autistic. He misses social cues and is easily deceived. He also hates lying and is overall a very honest guy! he repeats certain phrases like ‘it is my destiny!’ which are actually vocal stims cause i said so. Could all of this be explained by him not having a childhood and never learning anythning other than fight? yup! Am i saying all of this cause im like that? yeah! and im autistic :D also hes very cool and thats also a sign of autism  ~ Autism being put through years of (training) torture can cause anxiety especially at the young age he was ive also seen him just do random shit which gives off the idea that he’s not reliant on social cues, for example; jumping out windows, kissing a man (chip), or just going off to do his own thing which is a thing i do alot,,not kissing men,,,or jumping out winows yet but hes not reliant on social cues, he also ties his hair up, and i know he didnt do it in the first design but sometimes my sensory issues go away and come back randomly like a vacation for those bastards anyway another thing with the anxiety autism and anxiety are both very common together like autism and adhd! thats all i got but i can go way more in depth  ~ Autism and Anxiety Gillion fishman nuerospicy asf and I need ppl to share in my hc that he has ocd look at him. Insert cool character analysis I don’t do words. Fish. ~ Autism, ADHD, and OCD

Ashe Winters (Prime Defenders)

(Submitted for Autism, OCD, DID/Plurality, Psychosis, and Cotard’s Syndrome)

source: dude trust me (/system)  ~ Plurality, Psychosis, and Cotard’s Syndrome look at her. Thanks. no but autism Obviously duh incarnate vocal tone constant allusions to games headphone warrior but also . she rly just spent a year in her brain (the array would be Shit if even Considered DID rep obviously but imagine a perfect world where everything is good and normal) ocd more tied to hcs like drumming her hands on certain things certain amounts of times and trying to reach for the book when its not there but theres a lot more i just cant remember off the top of my head  ~ Autism, OCD, and DID

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Round 3 Polls

Round 3 polls will be released today at 9AM PST/12PM EST/5PM GMT (in about 10 minutes or so)!

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Round 2 Poll:

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Jay Ferin (Riptide)

(Submitted for Autism, OCD, and PTSD)

she’s autistic bc she is just like me and she had ptsd bc every single character in jrwi has ptsd heart emoji i would have added lesbian to the mental illness but i was worried to be canceled but i would be funny  ~ Autism and PTSD

You know bbg is autism. She tries too hard to mask and it’s so bad for her. Bbg gets overstimulated all the time. Randomly decides she can feel her hair and it’s bothering her etc etc. Needs a hug. ~ Autism

Vyncent Sol (Prime Defenders)

(Submitted for Autism, DID/Plurality, OCD, and generally neurodivergent)

I do not care that it isn't canon system Vyncent owns my soul ~ DID I’ve only seen the free episodes but GOODNESS. First of all the multiple personalities are an obvious choice, the fact that he’s from another world and struggles to adapt to this world is SO autism coded for so many reasons, plus just. HIM is so autistic-like I can’t put words to it but it just is. The OCD is just vibes and projection honestly ~ Autism, Plural, OCD, ND

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Timothy Rand (BITB)

(Submitted for OCD, PTSD, Tic disorder, and generally neurodivergent)

He's literally me ~ ADHD i feel like all of these are just canon like even before what happened he was struggling ~ PTSD, OCD, and Schizophrenia he has a really bad paranoia thing. plus the hearing voices in canon. he smokes weed to deal with hallucinations. he gets auditory hallucinations a lot more than visual ones. he hates the ones that are Rachel's voice. just her talking from what sounds like another room when she's not there </3 ~ Schizophrenia

Rumi/Elena (Apotheosis)

(Submitted for ADHD, OCD, PTSD and NPD)

Grizz said in Just Rolled for ep 8 that rumi has ocd!!! ~ OCD i mean just *gestures at their whole being*  ~ NPD (Narcissistic Personality Disorder)

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Round 2 Poll:

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Drey Ferin (Riptide)

(Submitted for tic disorder)

i have a tic disorder and i just know. trust me  ~ tic disorder

Peter Sqloint (Apotheosis)

(Submitted for Autism and AVPD)

Struggles with eye contact, misses social cues, special interest in rocks ~ Autism literally changed the course of the story with his autism swag. with the power of rocks and lizard. killed god and pulled a bad bitch. ~ Autism You cannot tell me he isn't autistic, he literally hyperfixates on rocks he doesn't even want children he will just raise lizards, he is so silly he just want rocks and logs for his lizard hhhhhhhhhh his magic can change rock colors ~ Autism ROCKS ~ Autism FUCKUNG LOOK AT HIM ~ Autism

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Round 2 Poll:

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William Wisp (Prime Defenders)

(Submitted for Autism, ADHD, Anxiety, Cotard's Syndrome, AVPD, PTSD, OCD, Schizophrenia, Delusional Disorder, OSDD-1b/Plurality, and BPD)

Look at him and tell me he doesn’t have massive anxiety ~ Anxiety

I mean his whole thing is that he is literally dead and alive at the same time. One of the first things introduced about him is how quickly he can make himself go invisible/seem like he doesn’t exist. The autism is just because he’s silly :3 ~ Autism and Cotard’s Syndrome

Just like. Look into his eyes and you'll know. But also don't he's autistic how dare you ~ Autism and Anxiety

- Deep-rooted low self esteem. He’s always felt weird and different, sees himself as inherently wrong, a fuck up and a disappointment. He struggles to even see himself as a person, especially when he was dead. He puts his friends on a pedestal (especially Dakota) and sees himself as someone way beneath them.  - Relatively okay with maintaining some surface level relationships but struggles with expressing his deeper feelings or talking about his past. Always vague and incredibly apologetic, quick to brush past it whenever it comes up.  - Very self-conscious and ashamed of his powers, especially early on. He asks people to look away when he goes into spirit form, and only does it in extreme circumstances. Only comfortable when he’s in the purple morph suit, where he feels like he can be seen as a different person. - When Dakota gives him his heart he immediately feels like he has to dedicate his whole life to making it up to him (literally gets a new complication bc of that). Feels undeserving of kindness or help from others.   - Quick to give up when he isn’t absolutely certain of an outcome. Extreme reluctance to take risks, (avoiding using his powers because he doesn’t trust himself to control them, running and hiding during fights) ~ AVPD (Avoidant Personality Disorder)

Well its been a while since i spedrun pd but what ive picked up is; They wear alot of layers which could be a texture thing or an unbalance to coldness and warmness and that bitch is definitely queer which is more common for autistic/adhd folks since they tend to be less reliant on social norms and thus more open about their sexuality and gender! Another think is in both the designs his hair only goes does to his neck i have autism and my hair HAS to be a specific length or like texture issues and shit and i know in the one shot between season 1 and 2 his hair is different but i refuse to believe that >:( anyway thats all i picked up i probably can think of alot more but these were a few off the top of my head! (i cant find much for the delusional disorder since its only small details but let me hc jeeze >:() ~ Autism, ADHD, Schizophrenia, and Delusional Disorder

theres one specific monologue that makes me claw at the fences but i cant find it right now. Just know its true because i know everything and i said so ~ OSDD-1b

Rolan Deep (Blood in the Bayou)

(Submitted for PTSD, OCD, Tic disorder and generally neurodivergent)

I’ve only listened to the first episode of BITB but GOODNESS the neurodivergentness this man radiates is ASTOUNDING. he totally has flashbacks to the bodies in the bayou incident or whatever and the fact it got so bad he moved TO THE OTHER END OF THE COUNTRY says a lot. also I love him.  ~ Neurodivergent

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Round 2 Poll:

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Gillion Tidestrider (Riptide)

(Submitted for Autism, ADHD, OCD, PTSD, and Dyslexia)

do i really need to say anything. do i really. ~ Autism he has,,,,,,, an issue with textures and social interaction and just yknow gives off those v i b es ~ Autism He misses social cues, mostly black and white thinking, especially towards the beginning of the series, strong morals, has stated he doesn’t like/struggles with change, etc etc ~ Autism HE CANONICALLY DOESN’T LIKE VELVET HE CANONICALLY HAS TEXTURE/SENSORY ISSUES. His whole arc with the oversea is so autism coded (with not understanding things everybody else around him thinks is common knowledge even if it’s never been explained to him before). But ALSO HE TOTALLY HAS INTRUSIVE/IMPULISVE THOUGHTS he canonically has ‘blasphemous’ type thoughts (wanting to steal lemons with his friends even if it’s against his oath), plus there’s NO WAY he doesn’t have violent type intrusive thoughts about hurting his loved ones NO WAY. plus his overall stubbornness of not letting go of his oath and general struggles with change is so so so autism coded of him. ~ Autism and OCD Gillion is literally so autistic. He misses social cues and is easily deceived. He also hates lying and is overall a very honest guy! he repeats certain phrases like 'it is my destiny!' which are actually vocal stims cause i said so. Could all of this be explained by him not having a childhood and never learning anythning other than fight? yup! Am i saying all of this cause im like that? yeah! and im autistic :D also hes very cool and thats also a sign of autism ~ Autism being put through years of (training) torture can cause anxiety especially at the young age he was ive also seen him just do random shit which gives off the idea that he's not reliant on social cues, for example; jumping out windows, kissing a man (chip), or just going off to do his own thing which is a thing i do alot,,not kissing men,,,or jumping out winows yet but hes not reliant on social cues, he also ties his hair up, and i know he didnt do it in the first design but sometimes my sensory issues go away and come back randomly like a vacation for those bastards anyway another thing with the anxiety autism and anxiety are both very common together like autism and adhd! thats all i got but i can go way more in depth ~ Autism and Anxiety Gillion fishman nuerospicy asf and I need ppl to share in my hc that he has ocd look at him. Insert cool character analysis I don't do words. Fish. ~ Autism, ADHD, and OCD

Alastyr Cross (Convergence)

(Submitted for Autism, ADHD, and Anxiety)

He’s just a silly guy :)  ~ Autism, ADHD, and Anxiety

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Round 2 Poll:

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Velrisa Grayrock (Fated)

(Submitted for Autism and Anxiety)

She’s very shy + quiet but also has very strong ideals and relies on her morals to make decisions (also the cape is a stim thing she told me herself) ~ Autism and Anxiety

Ashe Winters (Prime Defenders)

(Submitted for Autism, OCD, DID/Plurality, Psychosis, and Cotard's Syndrome)

source: dude trust me (/system) ~ Plurality, Psychosis, and Cotard’s Syndrome look at her. Thanks. no but autism Obviously duh incarnate vocal tone constant allusions to games headphone warrior but also . she rly just spent a year in her brain (the array would be Shit if even Considered DID rep obviously but imagine a perfect world where everything is good and normal) ocd more tied to hcs like drumming her hands on certain things certain amounts of times and trying to reach for the book when its not there but theres a lot more i just cant remember off the top of my head ~ Autism, OCD, and DID

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Round 2 Poll:

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Dakota Cole (Prime Defenders)

(Submitted for Autism, ADHD, OCD, OSDD, PTSD, Dissociative Disorder, and Dyslexia)

Dakota Cole ~ Autism and ADHD Misses social cues, high sense of justice, pretty black and white morals, stims, struggles with change, special interest in superheroes, struggles to process his emotions, wears noise cancelling headphones, gets overstimulated, need I go on? ~ Autism Tends to jump into things without thinking, pretty short attention span especially with stuff he doesn’t like, very AuDHD vibes ~ ADHD Come on, now. Be honest with yourself. ~ Autism and ADHD LOOK AT THAT CREATURE OF A MAN. Sensitive to loud noise/generally gets overwhelmed at chaotic situations, cannot fucking keep a thought straight, uiwrehfgpiouwygehfiu LOOK AT HIM. He's my little chaos boy and he needs to be kept safe and cozy please. dont let him down. protecc. win. ~ Autism and ADHD Grizzly has stated both in PD episodes and in the rolled that Dakota does not know how to process complex emotions. Like, at all. He is also constantly flirting from one idea to the next in a way that is common in ADHD. I would like to spin him around in a microwave ~ Autism and ADHD I like them a lot :333 ~ Autism and OCD super hero hyperfixation, canonically has sensory issues, tendency to have black and white morality (and also sticks to that moral code strictly). also you can argue that when he went feral due to overstimulation, that was just a meltdown that got supercharged by his heart. ~ Autism Dakota has repeatedly had trouble/stated that he can’t read. While this could be to the vision loss that he needs glasses for in season two, it could just as easily be attributed to dyslexia ~ Dyslexia

Queen (Riptide)

(Submitted for Autism, ADHD, OCD, Anxiety, and Tourette’s Syndrome)

THE ‘LA LA LAs” COULD 100% COUNT AS A VOCAL STIM AND/OR A COMPULSION (compulsion especially because the canon reason she does it is because they feel like he won’t be able to write a song if they don’t do it). But also. consider: they use any pronouns and autistic people are more likely to be gnc and overall genderqueer! Also they are a bard/poet which kind of speaks for itself  ~ Autism, ADHD, and OCD

SHE VOICE STIMS, she voice stims so much and is overall very autistic :3 and so goshdarn anxious, I don’t think I even have to explain this one, that’s just how they are kinda  ~ Autism and Anxiety

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Round 2 Poll:

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Br’aad Vengolor (Fated)

(Submitted for Autism, ADHD, and PTSD)

Ough he absolutely has that autism swag :) ALSO he has been so traumatized by his patron that he freezes up when he sees cows. Obnokshai VERY clearly fucked him up to the point that it altered his everyday functioning. And ALSO also the fact that he grew up on the streets w only his brother, experiencing discrimination and poverty and a desperate need to prove himself could absolutely contribute to PTSD ~ Autism and PTSD Long hair for stimming, loose clothes + vest bc sensory issues, inability to read tone + very emotional is an adhd thing I think  ~ Autism and ADHD

Chip (Riptide)

(Submitted for Autism, ADHD, NPD, BPD, PTSD, Psychosis, and general neurodivergency)

bro can’t sit still. fiddles. takes things apart just to do something. impulsive. won’t stop running his mouth EVERRR ~ ADHD Has misinterpreted social cues, vocal stims with Gillion, likes to be in charge/in control, struggled with understanding others’ emotions/empathy, especially toward the beginning of the campaign ~ Autism "The trees are talking to me", his whole demeanor after he got kitty scratched, there's so much of him seeing things ~ Psychosis Man's fr be like "ooh shiny". Is definitely a kleptomaniac. Also anxious babay. ~ ADHD and ND Haunted one background ~ PTSD